ordinary mind
Bluelighter
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Well yesterday turned into a bit of a mad bender, I completely forgot to check back in. I was a bit naughty, and while I understood and respected your advice on taking the 5-meo alone on the first attempt, things didn't quite play out that way. I started the day smoking strong number 3 (UK freebase) heroin. A couple of hours later, I plugged 144mg MDMA. I almost certainly had a small vape of hash during the earlier part of the day, don't remember when.
I hadn't touched MDMA since the New Year celebrations, and this was my first time plugging it. Dear lord, I wasn't really expecting much of a synergy between the opiate and MD, more just a positve/carefree headspace to launch from. However, I found myself in a state of bliss lying in the sun in my beautiful garden - the strong MDMA love/euphoria kept me grounded while the opiate had my mind wandering through surreal creations of the imagination. I have been out of practice of meditating frequently for over a year, but found I was able to enter a deep state of awareness of my wandering mind. (Difficult to explain, but trust me it was tits). I then had a couple of unsuccessful attempts at smoking the 5-meo off foil (yeah I know I was advised ahead of time, I got a bit arragont here). These quasi attempts were still interesting and soo sooo blissful - that tryptamine rush, the overwhelming sensations and clarity of everything. I can see how this underdosing phase could be terrifying from a sober perspective though, my blissed out launch pad probably helped a lot in keeping the vibes beautiful.
I dropped a tab of 1-p LSD at this point and got some advice at how to create a sort of chamber bong so as to collect and inhale all the smoke at once.
Well, now I've provided the background, I'm at a loss for words as how to explain the actual breakthrough. It mwas everything I had hyped it up to be and more, and the afterglow was absolutely glorious. Maybe I'll have a bash at a trip report at a later time, my mind is really not up to it now and every attempt I make just sounds unsatisfyingly cliche, with lots of allusions to "absolute unity" and other such pish that doesn't really paint a picture of my experience.
Anyway, thanks for all the advice. I found what I was looking for in this drug - a reminder of the awe and beauty of the world. I just hope I can use this experience to direct my life onto a more positive path.
I hadn't touched MDMA since the New Year celebrations, and this was my first time plugging it. Dear lord, I wasn't really expecting much of a synergy between the opiate and MD, more just a positve/carefree headspace to launch from. However, I found myself in a state of bliss lying in the sun in my beautiful garden - the strong MDMA love/euphoria kept me grounded while the opiate had my mind wandering through surreal creations of the imagination. I have been out of practice of meditating frequently for over a year, but found I was able to enter a deep state of awareness of my wandering mind. (Difficult to explain, but trust me it was tits). I then had a couple of unsuccessful attempts at smoking the 5-meo off foil (yeah I know I was advised ahead of time, I got a bit arragont here). These quasi attempts were still interesting and soo sooo blissful - that tryptamine rush, the overwhelming sensations and clarity of everything. I can see how this underdosing phase could be terrifying from a sober perspective though, my blissed out launch pad probably helped a lot in keeping the vibes beautiful.
I dropped a tab of 1-p LSD at this point and got some advice at how to create a sort of chamber bong so as to collect and inhale all the smoke at once.
Well, now I've provided the background, I'm at a loss for words as how to explain the actual breakthrough. It mwas everything I had hyped it up to be and more, and the afterglow was absolutely glorious. Maybe I'll have a bash at a trip report at a later time, my mind is really not up to it now and every attempt I make just sounds unsatisfyingly cliche, with lots of allusions to "absolute unity" and other such pish that doesn't really paint a picture of my experience.
Anyway, thanks for all the advice. I found what I was looking for in this drug - a reminder of the awe and beauty of the world. I just hope I can use this experience to direct my life onto a more positive path.