Con-CAT-enations
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3 CAT post
January 28, 2017
[NOTE: tried to post this to Bluelight.org thread but even after logging in it takes me to page that says I am newb “greenlighter” yet I find no reason I cannot post. Maybe should drop it?]
So far I have been finding 3 Meow or CAT or even now the PCP term "angel dust" has resonance , for it seems to take me to a deep long wave flowing where I feel like my angelic high spirit side can navigate through the waveforms of Mater ("Matter".
I mix it with water 100 mg with 100 ml water so it is easy to measure out 5, 10, 15 mg CAT.
I get somewhat paranoid on acid: while it is revealing to me that I AM the one dreaming my existence, the constant "tipping over" into new frames of time, moment on moment as my mind rushes through a hall of mirrors fractal tube Me layering upon me up me upon me... it is exhausting, but sure cleans out the psychic plumbing.
When I use MDMA as a grounding, it removes the fear and I can enjoy the Rush of Gnosis of Self-simularity packing down Light into Matter like endless Russian nested dolls, an endless zip file compacted by Phi waves recursing back into infinity.
So my practice over the last few years is MDMA plus whatever, trying to just go to the edge of the envelope so I can come back and remember where I went. It's like digging progressively in a mine: I want to get out all the recalcitrant hidden imps of the Shadow self and reclaim them in Love; to take the sad child back into my heart to increase COUR-AGE and Wholeness.
When this last year I found the CAT (a pun I will develop below!) I loved it absolutely for the disso and relief it gave me from the "problem" of "me." It help cut through the Gordian Knot tangle of all the bullshit in me I want to expose, but am naturally ambivalent about becoming the helpless Fool of my own imagination!
I have been developing an alchemical model of these different Soma medz which can be overlaid on the chakras:
MDMA is the Heart, the Center, the Safe place, the Middle Original Lotus wherein the androgyne of pre-pubescent polarity sleeps in Mother's Love. Love is the Balance between, the Scales of Libra in the Heart.
I see the chakras “below” and “above as mirror images of each other, emanating out of the Heart Lotus in pairs: navel/throat, genital/pineal, root crown. Interesting that the genital pineal is clearly reflected in Mantak Chia’s Taoist model too. So I think I ‘m onto something.
In the same mirroring fashion, the I AM at Repose in the Heart has emanated out higher and higher spectrum of frequency wave forms in the upper chakras [“North half”], and they are mirrored in the lower spectrum of the “South half” chakras, which pertain to ther body and personal world of sex, territory, and little self.
You may have seen images of the Hindu model of creation: the Churning of the Milky Ocean, where a Buddha man in state of repose sits in his Balance Chair, while there is a tug of war going on: to one side a line of Asuras [“bad” guys in polarity] are pulling the rope against their counterparts emanating out on his other side, the Devas [“good” guys]
In Reality Cosmos is a perfected balance of forces in Vector Equilibrium, but as the balance tips from side to side, we, the I AM or Viewer in us, begins to “fall” and start “tripping.”
Here’s how these med mixes has affected me:
One day I did low dose acid “Light Streaming Down” so I equate it to North Half frequency observation, plus some MDMA. I rose higher and higher and right out of any of the fractal spin from “Dove” [another name applied to this high freq energy coming “down” like the Holy Ghost] [p.s. I now see a pun in being called a hippy freak! = freq]
Suddenly I went into perfect balance, or Repose as IT told me IT was. This was Samadhi, and it fulfilled a desire to know what that was. It’s not a negation of cosmos into emptiness, but a perfect balance of all forces. A stillness. I felt I could gently tip to either side and fall into “tripping,” a stumbling conCATenation of endless causality.
Eventually I could see how this would be boring to the “Godhead” and so began the Great Scroll that keeps on unrolling!
Next day I was out of MDMA and mixed about 20 mikes Dove with 10 ml CAT. Nothing seemed to happen in the first two hours. So I doubled down on both. Now I had been experimenting with CAT before 10-15 mls, and loved the ride. As one post says, it makes me very articulate and loquacious, with Logoic Word spilling out in puns nested inside puns. Words seem to decode themselves down to root gestures, and the World is the Word made visible, a pleasing Joke hidden in plain sight.
But now, in this mix of OPPOSITES [ for I am provisionally cat-egorizing CAT as low end of the spectrum waves in Mother Substance, a pleasing roll out of Light made Flesh] when that double dose kicked in at about 4 hours to my great surprise, I sudden found myself riding two Great Entwined Serpents up and up.
This seemed to me to be the fundamental nature of Cosmos, which I realized is depicted in the Caduceus, and is discovered to be our fundamental energetic form as in the ida-pingala currents, the Tree that the Chakras grow on as fruit.
If you know the Electric Universe model (
www.thunderbolts.info which is my guiding paradigm these days) you’ll see that all of Cosmos is an interconnected mycelial web of electrical flow. When electrical currents flow through space they tend to braid together in what are called Birkeland Currents, and they pinch together and form “plasmoids” in the Cross-over pinch; just like chakras on the crossover current’s of Ida-pingala. So this is the root model of how matter manifests in this basic Trinity.
Likewise consciousness is a flow of knowingness that touches the “other.” Mind, which organizes consciousness into Self vs. Other, is dual or polar, the result of these opposite entwined Flows. The Self is the plasmoid that forms like a bead on a chain, just as stars do.
So.... background lecture having been established.. ! When I rode these two currents “up” I saw they were the basic alchemical model of the Two-Thing, or Rebis. God in Polarity. While these “serpents” were polar opposites and thus in competition with each other, snarling for supremacy, Light into Matter, Matter back into Light, it was a Flaming Revelation of the Rawness at Root. I suspect that was also some form of a classic kundalini initiation wherein one has to confront non-judgmentally how the Force works.
Frankly I saw it as an endless Chain of Being, a food chain in which those above are authorized to feed and then fuck those below, Predator and Prey. Each of us stands in such a chain. As long as the Flow moves through the Circuit brings Life to each. This Chain (Aurea Catena in Rosicrucian speak) gave punning depth to Con-CAT-enation which I see in the TreeMeow!
But this was raw. Scary. We are each one the bitch to someone who is bigger and stronger. We find out niche.
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What was missing was the MDMA, the X or Cross-Over force that would marry these two. The Gnostics have a story that after the “first” creation which is pure instinctual forces working it out, the 4 EL-ements as represents in the Tetragrammaton YHVH; G*D the Good took a look at how it all was going, and made a “second” creation; “HE” sent in the Christos as mediator, to bring the Right Hand path together with the Left Hand path. I like that story. That there has been an “intervention” as the System Self-corrects. If you like Xtian Kabbala, it is said that if you insert the Hebrew letter Shin, which is a triple flame letter, into YHVH, you get YHSVH, or Yehosua, Joshua, Jesus, the anticipated “messiah” or balancing Vector to the Two-Thing in its perpetual Wheel of Love-Hate, Attraction-Repulsion, the Binding force which Hindus call the Skambha, Egyptians the Djed.
All right enough of my “revelations.” I have the idea that the “true” SOMA is a mix that blends a high frequency soma with a low frequency soma, PLUS the addition of a Heart pivot soma such as MDMA. Perhaps the poppy served as that in older Mystery mixes. Thus one would amplify the Full Spectrum of Consciousness. This was my next test.
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SOMA? High Freq + Low Freq + Heart Blender
Once ounce low dose Dove (approx. 20 mikes) + 15 ml CAT + 125 ml X.
This took me into a playful deep meaning world of decoding the fractal Mind.
I began “lensing” into everything I saw, I guess this is the “hole” {never did K]. It was fascinating that I could telescope time back layer into layer, but would it end? Would there be a resolution? Or just a loop I might get caught in?
As fate would have it, I just got in the mail that day a book, the Heart of the Master by Aleister Crowley. Lately I have been hearing expositions (Michael Tsarion) on how he was misunderstood and categorized by the Dark Side he sought to penetrate and unravel, as being the horrible Evil one himself. Being an egotistical wit, he took on their pejorative name calling, much like we old hippies adopted the insult of “freak.”
Whatever may the full and unknown story, I was drawn into the book, and came away feeling Crowley was honest and authentic in following his inner Star... BUT something made me hold the book at arms length. At the end I felt sad to him, that he had dove into the Belly of the Beast to pull out Its guts and reveal the rot. This may have made him a sacrifice on the pyre, or he may have been swallowed up by it. But he was certainly authentic. Nonetheless a Dark Force came around me an gave me creepy B movie horror dreams of sad sack freaks (think Pizzagate) who chained young women up in their basement. This inverted pervert was trying to recruit some of us into his sex dungeon cult. I awoke with the feeling I should not have been in “lensing” mode when looking into Crowley and all the psychic effluvia that has coiled up around his ghost.
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Next day I strongly cleansed my house with sage and sandlewood, and called up all positive forces for protection. I was worried I would be open to evil in the astral and have dark dreams. But as it turned out my protection worked, and dreams were reassuring.
My take now in review is that the CAT and other mix opened my third eye very strongly, thus giving me a “lens” effect which allowed penetrating into layers of the Akash memory, but being naively open and not taking protection, I dove also into some Evil which had attached itself succubus like to the Crowley to turn his work into a honey pot soul trap. I will be much more conscious in the future about entering the astral levels.
I’m OK now. I see it again as a challenge to take a hard look at the Darkness that has grown up like a cancer in our world. I hope positive forces are working through Trump to counter this, and that his Leo ego nature won’t trap him; he will certainly be surrounded by backstabbers and liars seeking to derail and counterfeit with Fake News any attempts to gut the Beast.
http://phibetaiota.net/2016/11/robe...stem-is-still-rigged-and-likely-to-remain-so/
Hope you enjoyed the tale!
