Hi everyone,
I'm new to BL, but I've been lurking for years. I finally decided to register to report an experience I had last night that was unlike anything I have ever imagined. I'll post a trip report once I sort it all out and translate into words as much as I can, but here's a short summary for this thread:
On an empty stomach and with no tolerance, I swallowed 200mg of harmine HCl wrapped in a rolling paper. A little over two hours later, when I was seeing tracers as my eyes scanned over text on a page, I ingested 25mg (+-1mg) of 4-AcO-DMT dissolved in maybe 6oz of orange juice. Previously, I've had eight trips with this substance at various doses, one of which was a beautiful ++++ at 32mg (12mg at T=0, 20mg at T=+70 minutes).
None of these other experiences even came close to the intensity of this one. From what I've read, I was expecting the addition of the MAOi to at least double the intensity, but as I'd taken this substance up to 40mg already with no tolerance and had a relatively mild to moderate +++, I thought it would be a good dose, if somewhat different from what I was used to.
Instead, "I" became infinity and died countless times in an alien landscape so utterly, incorrigibly bizzarre that it defies any attempt at description. This one wasn't an emotional or spiritual trip; rather, I struggled for my life, grasping and clawing at that one final thread that held my ego over the singularity until it finally snapped and I splintered into everything and nothing. When I managed to center myself and quell the ego's mortal fear, my mind was still relatively clear. I felt my ego probed and dissected by mantids as I watched, and I finally understand the infinite arrays of reptillian eyes that I've encountered in psychedelic art.
Visuals were neither OEV nor CEV; they were something else entirely. There wasn't the warping of my surroundings that I've encountered before on most psychedelics I've used. My perception of this world seemed to be mostly unaffected, and I was seeing another world *as well as* this one.
This most intense part of the trip lasted for at least two and a half hours, after which I found my mind more or less back in our universe, but completely insane. I mean padded walls and straitjacket insane; I became for a time the grinning, laughing madman. I was mostly down a total of four hours after I took the 4-AcO-DMT, but my pupils were saucers and I was still mildly tripping for at least another hour and a half until I fell asleep.
Can anybody with some experience with strong doses of oral DMT comment on my experience? I suspect there are many similarities, but I have yet to try N,N-DMT by any route and nothing about that experience resembled 5-MeO-DMT or mushrooms.
On another topic entirely, I've found that 4-AcO-DMT is almost nothing like mushrooms for me personally. My last mushroom experiences were a couple of years ago, though, so maybe I'm not qualified to comment, but they seemed much more "spiritual" and full of wonder than all but one of the trips I've had on 4-AcO-DMT.
(Sorry for the long post.

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