hydroazuanacaine
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stomachache and headache day after using this stuff.
stomachache and headache day after using this stuff.
Christopher Michael Langan (IQ 190-210) has a theory of Everything, where the universe consists of consciousness, that consciousness is a fundamental property of energy and that the universe basically is self-writing code. Look up his CTMU (Cognitive Theoretic Model of the Universe), its compelling.
I don't like comparing it to MXE, because MXPr is it's own thing, but there is a striking resemblance between the two. There's definitely a resonant frequency with the body-high of MXPr compared to MXE.
I think MXPr has a bit less peripheral side-effects, compared to the elevated body temperature and diaphoresis that was often present with MXE for me. Overall, there's less body temperature fluctuation, but MXPr is still a warm disso. The body feels weightless and dexterous on it, this one would be great for hiking.
Potency-wise it doesn't seem much less than MXE. But I haven't used any dissociatives in 2 months (discounting my perennial tolerance).
I was able to hole on it and it was a rather introspective hole, contemplating things like the emergence of spacetime. The analytical mind remains sharp with this one, just like with MXE and ketamine.
Music appreciation is accounted for with this one. Visually it's beautiful as well, the pastels that are present with MXE and DCK but which ketamine lacks.
Took a dose this morning and social interaction with the barista this morning was effortless. I can't remember the last time I felt so suave. This could be a real winner for social situations.
I really haven't enjoyed a dissociative this much since the first time MXE clicked with me.
I'm just waiting for it to show up on the darkweb markets since all the clearnet chem suppliers I've found don't ship to the USA. Hopefully, the price will come down soon and it won't get banned for at least a year. I really wish I had secured more MXE while it was cheap and plentiful, but it was a chaotic time in my life.
How much did you do when you holed? And which ROA?
The body feels weightless and dexterous on it, this one would be great for hiking.
I wasn't keeping track of the doses. I've only tried sublingual and plugging so far.
Now the first hole I didnt get too much from. I dont really remember it now... perhaps it got overshadowed. But this final hole I found myself in was totally terrifying. The best I can describe it is a feeling of being trapped in an infinite loop of reality. There was only me. I was alone, I was scared, I was everything, the universe, consciousness, God etc. I was compelled to 'spin' and keep this loop going round. All existence was, was this folding over, looping, and a garbled gibberish voice, echoing, and then a response to that voice, which was the same voice/sound. The loop repeating, looping, spinning... forever. I felt compelled to spin and repeat this sequence. This was what reality/consciousness/me was. All that it was. This never ending cycle from which I couldn't deviate or escape. I played my part in the loop. Its alI I could do... Just go along with this flow. Cycle of time, infinity, whatever. But I was trapped, alone and scared. This was all there was or ever would be. Time lost all meaning. I eventually came out of the M hole. First i saw whiteness and heard beeping, this quickly faded to my bedroom, to reality and as I would quickly learn; to a shitstorm of my own making. The first thing I see/comprehend is two paramedics towering over me and my bed, saying my name and asking me questions. The beeping I heard was their medical equipment.
I can relate to this 100%, I've have had my fair share of nightmares on dissos (3-HO-PCP, DCK, O-PCE, but also MXE) resulting in ER visits and thousands of dollars of product lost... Your description of a "bad" hole is spot on, I haven't heard someone describe it so close to my own experience before.. the sense of reality closing in and locking you into some kind of claustrophobic limbo or distorting your perception beyond repair. An afterlife in such a place would be terrifying. Glad you made it out and hope you can make changes for the better going forward.
That being said, MXPr still intrigues me, hence why I've sought out this thread. Is the duration very short? I too would prefer to try something close to MXE, which I've had the least problems with and most blissful revelations.