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I need that Prayer right now. I'm crying. Damn how does this happen.

I have to find it right now. 😭


edit: It's helping.

. . . . . so hear it be in thy name

oh s#!t's i'm sick rn
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I need help from the Serenity Prayer and my brain hurts so bad just trying to feel better and heal. I am tired od trying but I need to keep on anyway and I need strength to do this some how. I just want and am asking to for so much strength to do that now !
 
The serenity prayer can help out when shit hits you all at once, by just saying it slowly and meditating on the words and meaning of the words & repeating it, will ground you. It's not like you are saying it at a meeting, you are saying it as if your life depends on it. That God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can & the wisdom to actually know the difference. By spelling it out, three stages, breaking it down into phases, but said at once.
For me if I'm in a situation where I'm saying the serenity prayer then I'm not in a great mind space, and will usually contact a friend or my sponsor if it's troubling enough.
Tired of the AA cliches' though sometimes those things too will help dial me back into the steps and into the rooms.
I hear women share all the time of 'where they are at in their program's in meetings, and by just sharing shit unrelated to the topic is what the discussion meetings are about. & The great thing is that afterwords no one is going to take you out back and shoot you. Usually people will pull up and tell you to just keep coming back.
AA is the only club I know of that loves you even more for fucking up and making it back to the rooms to start over. ❤️
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I was finally able to break free from morphine on june 6th, switched to kratom for 10 days and since then i did just lyrica.I'm experiencing gabaergic wds rn after overusing lyrica for more than 10 days. Fuck, got a massive headache as I type this, RLS, mild watery eyes, mood swings, hot cold feeling, MY NERVES HURT and the WORST, I've only slept 2 hrs tonight. I got some gabapentin beside me and I'm so tempted to take them but FUCK IT, I don't wanna restart the bloody fucking cycle. I'm better than this. Just 3-4 more Days....Lord give me Serenity, por favor 🙏.
 
I feel a little bit better now. The Serenity helped too. I was able to sleep.

Please pray for serenity and peace whenever you might feel like you can.
Focus on all of the healthy as possible. I hope everyone has a Wonderful Day.

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I feel a little bit better now. The Serenity helped too. I was able to sleep.

Please pray for serenity and peace whenever you might feel like you can.
Focus on all of the healthy as possible. I hope everyone has a Wonderful Day.

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Same here, I even gave my way the leftover gabapentin. Too much temptation And rumination having it beside me. Feel much better today. A shit Ton of xanax and Valium helped me sleep too.
 
6 months alcohol Free last week
Not “sober” but that was never my goal.

One day I hope to be able to indulge as I can with other substances but for now, Im better off simply avoiding it.

Been eating better. Exercising some. Even getting my marijuana use in line to better suit my mental health… if that makes sense (basically too much pot is bad for my mental health, for a variety of reasons… but also because it fucks with my sleep… ie right now lol)
 
AMEN !!!! So well said.

When . . . PRAYERS
go up
BLESSINGS
come down.

Thanks.

you're appreciated 🕊️🎁

serenity helped my soul :)
 
Hanging in there. Had brief relapse for 4 days with about 350-400grams poppy seeds each day. This is my first day without and I'm already feeling a bit squirrely.
I did a tiny free morphine shot yesterday too, my friend appeared with a fucking pharmaceutical kit( he had benzos in pills/vials, tramadol vials, morphine vials, ketamine).
Oh fuck it, it was a tiny shot I did. I'm not experiencing wds or cravings, thank God.
 
I've never tried H when I'm stable... I've also learnt how to moderate. I moderate weed. I don't want to escape anymore. I don't want to switch off. Maybe I can use it recreationally?
Whether or not I wanted an escape is what in fact made the entire difference between dependent and casual use for me.

Any drug can be moderated, including big bad H. There's more recreational opiate users out there than you'd think. What separates them from addicts is they don't feel like they NEED the stuff just to exist.
 
Still doing my thing. I haven't done anything but smoke pot since July 4th when I finished my little relapse with poppy seeds. I'm already feeling better. Not sick feeling at all and I even slept 10 broken hrs last night. I'm gonna start looking for a job Monday.
 
Still doing my thing. I haven't done anything but smoke pot since July 4th when I finished my little relapse with poppy seeds. I'm already feeling better. Not sick feeling at all and I even slept 10 broken hrs last night. I'm gonna start looking for a job Monday.
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It's like getting kicked in the stomach and getting your wind back. Huh.
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Then today I had the worst chest cramp and it wouldn't go away. Maybe a hiatal hernia. It was miserable. Cramped so bad. I didn't think it was a heart attack because it lasted too long.

I thought about the clinic. But wasn't even open. Then maybe I would end up in the hospital even and I felt bad because my home was a mess and others would have to clean up for me if I didn't make it. It was really cramping up. A big bulls eye on my chest. I couldn't make it stop. Felt horrible pretty much.

It has been really hot weather for a while. About 100 degrees every day. And I do get cramps and hurt a lot. So it was really not anything new. But the first time it was a big giant one right in my chest. Or heart maybe. But I think more it was a hiatal hernia from eating. Maybe.

Anyway I ended up going to the river and swimming into the cold water. As soon as I got there and could get in. And it instantly went away.
Now I feel good again. Weird. And felt good the rest of the day.
 
But I started taking liquid vitamins and it is helping a lot. I can really tell. I get more energy and feel more strength and endurance to keep going and do everything.
And now at least I'm not too depressed anymore to remember or even care about vitamins. Apparently they do help and are helpful. I believe they are helping too. Really.

Plus I have a whole family to look after. That kind of stress too.
 
Going to be a week since the poppy seed lapse. I'm feeling pretty good but a little tired and lacking in motivation. I need something to kick the inspiration into me.

It's been almost 3mths since I walked off the methadone clinic and it was fairly difficult this time due to long protracted withdrawal. Plus I'm getting older but I gotta say I'm really damn proud of myself. No looking back now. Gotta keep improving
 
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Going to be a week since the poppy seed lapse. I'm feeling pretty good but a little tired and lacking in motivation. I need something to kick the inspiration into me.
Extra vitamins but don't overdue it. The chewy gummys are fun. Vitamins really can help for that initial kick. Multi vitamin and B12. Vitamin C boosts are good.
Twenty minutes in the Sun also only the sun nothing with it. Good luck. Focus on vitamins. Yes ! 🍒
 
Sad. Miserable. Horrible. Just awful.. But I will just Pray. Fine.
Too weak, almost, to care. Already sick so I don't have to worry about that.

Serenity Crushes All though. What a nice thing to be able to have. 🌻
 
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