Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

[Ds]

I'm in Orlando. Trying to stop drinking myself. Never really drank much till this last methadone bit but now when I walked off I was using it as a crutch. I'm 2mths post methadone and down to a few drinks a day but I keep fucking up once every 1-2weeks and over doing it.

Glad your doing well brother.

Hey man well done on at least being aware that you have a problem, and sounds like you kicked the methadone.

Sure you know that it's progress and not perfection. People preach shit all the times about you need to be 100% sober, which might be true for some, but for others we need those little happy accidents to keep us from really fucking up big time.

I guess it's been how we pick ourselves up after a fall.

 

[Dreamflyer]

Between Klonopin withdrawal and self-treating with too much alcohol, this past week has been one of my worst ever. I basically haven't eaten or slept much at all. I've too busy puking, shaking, s#!tting and sweating.

As we speak, I've been awake for 3 days straight. Now that I've been off of Klon for 10 days, I started to taper off of the beer last week.

This is actually the best I've felt. Yesterday I managed to eat a banana, a plum, an apricot and a handful of pretzels.

When I go this long without sleep, I get so overtired that I'm almost borderline manic. I feel as though I could stay up forever right now. Hopefully tonight I can get a few hours in.

 

[somnilicious]

Between Klonopin withdrawal and self-treating with too much alcohol, this past week has been one of my worst ever. I basically haven't eaten or slept much at all. I've too busy puking, shaking, s#!tting and sweating.

As we speak, I've been awake for 3 days straight. Now that I've been off of Klon for 10 days, I started to taper off of the beer last week.

This is actually the best I've felt. Yesterday I managed to eat a banana, a plum, an apricot and a handful of pretzels.

When I go this long without sleep, I get so overtired that I'm almost borderline manic. I feel as though I could stay up forever right now. Hopefully tonight I can get a few hours in.

I'm gonna try to really give up alcohol. It makes my ability to get to sleep worse and last night it made me extremely depressed. The only reason I've been drinking anyways was to deal with anxiety and depression from my methadone wds then it was mostly boredom during the long night awake by myself and the hope id finally pass out, which isn't happening. I've also been getting the worst headaches and weird nerve symptoms while drinking.

 

[Thatchick]

I'm in Orlando. Trying to stop drinking myself. Never really drank much till this last methadone bit but now when I walked off I was using it as a crutch. I'm 2mths post methadone and down to a few drinks a day but I keep fucking up once every 1-2weeks and over doing it.

Glad your doing well brother.

I did the same thing getting off subs
Now I'm left with crippling alcoholism

 

[Dreamflyer]

I'm gonna try to really give up alcohol. It makes my ability to get to sleep worse and last night it made me extremely depressed.

Same here. I never understand how people say that they can drink themselves to sleep. I tried to do it all last week, and all it did was make me feel even sicker.

 

[somnilicious]

I did the same thing getting off subs
Now I'm left with crippling alcoholism

Could you please describe your drinking progression? Not that I don't understand such things by the other drugs I've become addicted to but alcohol is kinda a weird one because it takes so long and a lot of consistency to get wds. Did you always drink? When did you start day drinking? If you did? Explain wds and how long before they kicked in. If you would.
Pretty please and thank you.

 

[somnilicious]

Same here. I never understand how people say that they can drink themselves to sleep. I tried to do it all last week, and all it did was make me feel even sicker.

That's about what it's been doing to me this past week. I've eaten but not slept much.

Another week down btw.... That's 2mths and 1 week since I walked off 90mgs. Now I say 90mgs but in reality I was buying 3-4 100mg bottles extra a week off the street like my dumbass does everytime I'm on methadone.

 

[Thatchick]

Could you please describe your drinking progression? Not that I don't understand such things by the other drugs I've become addicted to but alcohol is kinda a weird one because it takes so long and a lot of consistency to get wds. Did you always drink? When did you start day drinking? If you did? Explain wds and how long before they kicked in. If you would.
Pretty please and thank you.

That's a whole Lotta typing on my phone. I'll dm you a little at a time....lol

 

[Jabberwocky]

Still free of opioids/methadone. I even got 5hrs sleep 2 days in a row. I feel I need to cut out the alcohol soon. Alcohol is a strange one with me because I have withdrawn from alcohol before but that was 20yrs ago when I went through a bad breakup and went on a 3 month bender. Since then I've drank very sporadically and even had a 10yr gap where I didn't have one drink but I started drinking when I got on methadone this time and I've been using it as a crutch. I've seen too many ex-opiod addicts go down this road.

Stay Strong people

That's how it started with me brother.

10 years ago went from heroin -> subs -> kratom, but then started drinking. I always thought alcohol was a shit drug, so I thought what's the worst that could happen? No way I'd become addicted, hangovers suck!

Within a few weeks I was drinking daily. Always using the excuse that at least I'm not back on opioids. The daily drinking never stopped. I became a full blown alcoholic, and it's damaged my life and body so much more than heroin ever did.

Not a unique story, as you know.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I'm 14 days since my last drink. Feeling OK. Almost relapsed on Friday but went for a jog instead. Have some weird flu now.

Ride out that storm my friends.

 

[somnilicious]

I'm 14 days since my last drink. Feeling OK. Almost relapsed on Friday but went for a jog instead. Have some weird flu now.

Ride out that storm my friends.

I'd honestly be alright if I could get myself sleeping a little better and feeling good enough to go out and start working because then I could afford THC vapes. Rt. now I'm subsisting off poppy's booze which is like an unlimited supply for me. I'm just glad I usually keep it to a few drinks. Last night was 1 drink which was really about a unit and a half. I wasn't even going to have that one but then the power went off for no reason at 130am and I was laying there wide awake in a hot room with but candlelight so I convinced myself. Woke up with a quarter of my mixed drink still in the glass. Still only got a couple of hrs sleep though.

 

[kiely]

I'm 14 days since my last drink. Feeling OK. Almost relapsed on Friday but went for a jog instead. Have some weird flu now.

Ride out that storm my friends.

GOOD MORNING !!

It might seem like one day at a time. But eventually you will feel the really big difference.

'passion, strength, fire' 'nothing is impossible' 'cherish every moment' 'teamwork dream work' 'ask powerful questions'

'see the good'

 

[kiely]

I feel like I have the flu everyday because i pretty much do. I'm going to get up and try again today.
It's kind of cool today and a little breezy. That should help me a lot too.

 

[kiely]

I'm 14 days since my last drink. Feeling OK. Almost relapsed on Friday but went for a jog instead. Have some weird flu now.

Ride out that storm my friends.

Oh I just noticed that you said the flu too. Oh my eyes. Anyway the flu is awful isn't it. Whoa.

Drink lots of water and chicken soup ( bullion ) Feel better.

 

[somnilicious]

I feel completely broken at the moment. It always feels like my head is being squeezed in a vice all the time. I've honestly, no exaggeration, probably slept 20-25 total hrs in the last 70 days. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I feel as if there is something horribly wrong with me.

Well anyways.... I've been pretty damn clean lately. Nothing today. One drink yesterday, 2 the day before yesterday and I'm starting to breakdown.

 

[kiely]

I feel completely broken at the moment. It always feels like my head is being squeezed in a vice all the time. I've honestly, no exaggeration, probably slept 20-25 total hrs in the last 70 days. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I feel as if there is something horribly wrong with me.

Well anyways.... I've been pretty damn clean lately. Nothing today. One drink yesterday, 2 the day before yesterday and I'm starting to breakdown.

Swimming helps. Do you have a place where you can go swimming in the ice cold water ?
I just took the dogs swimming together in the river. It can really help to chill out and swim and helps boost the detox a lot !!!! It's amazing.

But yes, you really have to figure out how to get relaxed enough to get some sleep because you really need sleep Priority One right now.

I rooting for you. Really want you to feel better too.

 

[kiely]

I'm sure we would all settle for the OceanGate tour at some point.

 

[somnilicious]

Swimming helps. Do you have a place where you can go swimming in the ice cold water ?
I just took the dogs swimming together in the river. It can really help to chill out and swim and helps boost the detox a lot !!!! It's amazing.

But yes, you really have to figure out how to get relaxed enough to get some sleep because you really need sleep Priority One right now.

I rooting for you. Really want you to feel better too.

I wish I had a pool or better access to one. Only place I could go would be to sneak into an apartment complex or go to a crowded public pool.

 

[kiely]

I am to the point where I can eat lately but now it hurts when I do. But I am trying to get food down anyway I can for now.

I have overexertion and a gabapentin now. There are times when I actually feel like I can be alright again. Also there were times when I was a lot worse.

I felt like my flu-like symptoms were extremely bad for the last three days and then I felt normal for about three hours today. I mean like my strength came back and all.

So now it's back to being dead again unless the gabapentin will help. It usually doesn't but I am so nauseated. Maybe it will undo it. I always hope.

 

[somnilicious]

Well I had 2 drinks yesterday, 1 each at separate times of the day. I got 3.5hrs of broken sleep filled with lots of weird dreaming I can't remember. I'm happy I got sleep but everytime I do I wake up with the worst brain fog. I'm also dealing with extreme fatigue like I always do when I come off methadone. Let this be the last time.

Having lots of negative thoughts and fears about the future. Overall I'm alright but after being on opiates and methadone all these years this has been an extremely difficult journey.

Peace out and good luck to everybody. May you all have a wonderful day.