I came to specifically ask for ways to deal with this new raw existence so that my anger will not get the best of me. You described the feeling so well. Everything is just so difficult.
I'm on day 21 of methadone withdrawal and similar alcohol intake. I've had a couple of beers in those 21 days. No more than 3 in a sitting but this rage is getting me.
I'm trying to wash clothes, pack for a vacation to Colombia and get a haircut. All things that seem monumental by the way I feel. I was stressing listening to the nagging of my family, while I was getting my ass handed to me in Eldin Ring, when I almost threw the controller through the T.V and punched a hole/ indention in the door.
This is about the 3rd temper tantrum I've thrown in the last few weeks. All of them felt surreal. Like I disassociated or had no control over myself. I never would have acted out like this in the past. I'm just so fucking tired. Id kill for 5 hrs of sleep.