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Hi everyone! It's been a while. :)
You know the feeling when there's fucking icy cold outside and you feel like everything on you is going to turn to ice? And then you are just tooo happy you got home, you go run to hide under two blankets, still shivering. Everyone is asleep. And then suddenly something jumps on you and you start to hear purring.



And then you realize just how much your pets mean to you <3
 
Awh thank you. I have to say, quite honestly, dealing with depression, my two kittens were the only antidepressant that ever really worked for me. Still do. My life has gotten a whole another meaning, and it's freakin amazing how they can sense what I'm feeling, and react to my mood. Almost ironic, trying a variety of pills, going to therapy, being in treatment, and then very close to giving up... I never have thought my cure would be something so simple, yet so remarkable. <3

SplatChrome - do you have any idea why that person is ignoring you?
 
Honestly no. We had a kinda falling out recently and have had some trouble talking to each other. We'd have a good convo and it will turn into a big argument. This happened like twice in the past 3 weeks, with us talking only like 4 times. We were in a relationship and something happened that put us on hold essentially, still exclusive to each other, but no lovey dovey crap. Well now apparently we are nothing. Going from talking to each other everyday to nothing. Ignoring me... I'm completely heart broken. fuck, I feel like complete shit. Not that she apparently gives a fuck.

We met because she wanted to help me. Now she is just hurting me.
 
Sometimes people just like to act weird and irrational. Who knows what's going on in their head. It might have nothing to do with you. I suggest you don't get upset over it too much already - sometimes people would accuse me of ignoring them when I honestly had no idea I did that, nor would I do anything like that on purpose.
 
I've txted, called, and emailed. Tonight I saw they were on FB and I left them messages on there. this is completely out of character of her. She has her problems, but this seems out there.
 
Well it is true you know her better than me, but generally speaking, whatever it is, texting, calling, emailing, basically trying to make contact in any way is very likely to be the last thing they want right now. I would try to give them a few more days and leave them alone, then if nothing would change I'd find a way to confront them in person, so they have to respond in some way.
 
Well at first I was just worried that something happened to her because she'd usually respond. She is pretty depressed and what not, so she does worry me time to time. Then tonight after 5 days of her not responding, I saw that she got on FB. I was trying to just say hey whats up the first couple of days then I started freaking out a bit wondering wtf is going on. Youre right, I'll leave them alone now that I know they are atleast alive, but its not gonna help me till they contact me. Blah. It just fucking sucks being shafted like this. So much for loving someone. I'm getting so tired of getting close to people. Im always finding myself being hurt.
 
You know, you always have to remember one thing - when a person realizes you love them, they can soon start taking you for granted and don't really try to make the relationship work. I'm not saying that is the case with your best friend, but it is the case for a lot of people. It's human nature - when you need something, you need it badly, when you get something, you soon forget how important it is to you. Be careful who you give your heart out to. Of course it is nearly impossible to rationally choose the person you love. But you can learn to read them quite well. If you feel like you're the one that always gets hurt, and you notice how they don't even bother, the only thing you are doing is damaging yourself. Back off a little and see if they budge. You are a good person. Just because you don't love yourself much, it doesn't mean you don't deserve someone to love you immensely. You do.

I'd say definitely don't make contact at least for another 3 days, see how they respond then, and how you will go from here. But most of all, don't panic. Nothing horrible's gonna happen. They are able to take care of themselves and that is their responsibility, you should not be scared or sad because you're not able to be there for them. It is, afterall, their personal decision. Don't try to obsess over them, keep yourself super busy for a few days. It's all gonna work out as it should. :)
 
VanWeyden said:
It's all about the groins...Yes, it's quite odd. 2 years ago no one here would have heard about it, now there are two or three gyms offering Krav Maga in every bigger town around here. Hopefully the hype will come to you soon ;)
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I would love to take that. I wish i had grown up in the city instead of in a rural place with nothing here cause i would have really liked to get into boxing when i was younger. Now i'm getting too old to get my head beat off me and i have neuropathic pain in the face so id have to be the quickest damn boxer on the go in order not to get hit lol.

Yeah it's all about dirty hit's which you kinda pick up anyway if you've done any fighting. A hit to the throat (can be lethal don't do this!), a hard hit solar plexus or a hard kick to the balls with a elbow to the jaw will take anyone out. The thing is to stop that person from being a threat to you before they get time to react.

Hit KAYLA2010 no we don't mind you joining in. Welcome to TDS :)
 
thenightwatch said:
been talking to a guy online that wants to resell my "herbal incense"...

found out today that he lives in the same city as my ex-fiancee

wtf

maybe if i name one of my flavors after our old pet name for each other i can win her back =p was a word we made up, if she walks into a party store or something and sees that on a baggie at the counter... lol...

crazy coincidence though. we live in different states.
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just realized something even crazier

the number 144 has been following me around for a long time. my ex fiancee (from the quote) used to love the fact that the number 144 followed me around. she had numbers that followed her too.

well, the blend i'm gonna be selling in her city is gonna contain UR-144

w. t. f.

gonna be the first time my stuff is being resold anywhere...
 
Ugh I'm craving getting high. Don't really care what on. thinking why not grab an amphetamine script which I can get legally, not like I am talking to really anyone anymore. Shit blows, and I just want to relax. i hate life.
 
Hey Splat, hang in there! As you most certainly know the cravings will pass if you don't feed them, and using will only make you feel better for a very very short time. Is there anything you can distract yourself with, anyone to talk to who knows about your problems? Feel free to pm me if you want.
 
if its not too cold out you could take a walk. releasing that energy and getting some sunshine (vitamin d) could make you feel way better. plus you could see some cool trees or shit idk =p =D
 
I'm not really acting on the cravings, or find them to be causing me any problems. I haven't even taken my meds yet today, waiting on them. Just pissed off and find it hard for me to do anything productive. I'm just sitting in sadness with my heartbroken. I want something to taken that away, but not likely to happen. A walk does sound kinda good.

I guess I got people I could call, but the one person I want to talk to today is ignoring me.
 
I had a night just like that last night, Splat.:( It sucks. I feel better this morning but only by a hair. I am making a valiant effort to inhabit that hair's width of space, though. A walk does sound like the best thing. Hope you find more than a hair's width today!<3
 
I'm sorry you had a rough night as well :(. I don't wish depression upon anyone. It's easier imo to deal with physical pain than mental pain. Not a good combo when you have both though ha.

I realized I really was being ignored, for whatever reason, but only thing i can do is to hang on to those who wouldn't try to ignore me. People who love me even if I am an idiot sometimes, don't abandon me, especially when I'm not in a good place in my life. I'm gonna try and keep this in mind, and do atleast one productive thing to day.

Gotta respond to your pm too. Been to out of it to do anything the last few days
 
I've been feeling like that too.. must be something in the air. I hope you two are both feeling a bit better now <3

Going for a walk always helps me too! Except it's 5am and -4 degrees outside right now haha..
 
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