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Hey TDS.

Not much went on today, some upsetting things but it isn't going to get to me. I'm gonna finish off the night with some food and The Walking Dead :)
 
Awesome! I get to see my niece today too-- it's her mom's birthday, so I'm going for a visit.
 
IX, that sounds awful.:( I hope that whatever took her in there lessens. Take care of yourself, too. <3

Yesterday was a busy day for me and today is going to be a lazy one--I plan on working hard at it!:)

Last night I went to a going away dinner for a friend that showed a slide show of her solo hike of the entire Pacific Coast Trail from Mexico to Canada (over 2000 miles!). She is over 50 and just decided that she needed to challenge herself and be out in the world. She saved her money for a year to buy the proper gear and then started walking. 5 months and 8 days later she was at the Canadian border. She said that if the experience had taught her anything, it taught her that this world is full of magic and that facing your fears is the way to access it. I was so inspired by her both her journey and what she took away from it. It doesn't have to be a hike. It can be anything. I am still glowing this morning just from thinking about the power of saying yes to something I am afraid to do.<3
 
That is amazing herb! I'd love to do something similar some day. If they ever actually finish the Trans Canadian Trail that would be a killer hike!

Ix-- Oh wow, I hope that she hasn't been given one either, and that she's able to be released soon. I can't belive that they still do stuff like that.
 
Just remember that the whole "it's all the same" argument can be used in two ways. Sure, it's an excuse not to do something (move) but it's also an excuse not to not do something (not move). Assuming the logistics can be worked out, I'd say go for it. I think too many of us talk ourselves out of things with this train of thought, when we really could be talking ourselves into those very things with a parallel thought process.
 
i get so depressed after my family leaves

had a good day with my mom and neice though :) went to the arcade, i almost won a 160gb ipod (she kept wanting to take a turn and it was wasting money, gonna go again soon. that thing is mine). took a walk in the park by the river. played guitar for 'em. my neice tried to play guitar and acted/pretended like she was upset that she couldn't play as well as me (she was laughing though :) she's 8 haha).

got depressed when they left, so i took some stress out and cleaned my toilet... feelin a bit better. sucks that i only get to see them like once a month or less...

also idk how i'm gonna get rent paid on the 1st. my dad says he'll help but he doesn't always follow through. here's hopin.
 
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good luck with the rent--that is a worry that can keep you up all night.Wait, is that where your name came from?=D

I used to only get to see my mom once a year. Whenever she left I would get so depressed and lonely. It hurts. It is wonderful that you have that relationship with her and with your little niece, though. Sometimes I feel so lucky and blessed to have family that I miss when they are gone---that is not a given for everyone.

<3 and :) to all of my fellow TDSers today---it feels good to be alive atm and I just want to share that with all of you!
 
Hey thenightwatch! Yep, I know you from around the forums ;) Nice to see you in here <3
Just a quick housekeeping note, we don't reeeally allow discussion of drugs and/or drug use in TDS so I've edited out that part of your post above. This is because there are a lot of people in TDS who are trying to abstain from drugs, so any comments about drug use or being high etc can be triggering to those people to use drugs. Hope you understand :) PM me if you need further clarification!


herby, your friend's hike sounds absolutely amazing!! 8o Good on her! Yes, the power we get from conquering our fears is immense <3
 
I'm feeling so lonely right now. My girl and I split up a month ago and now I'm alone in our flat. There are days on which I can cope with all this shit, but on some days it is really awful. Last week I was doing really good, learning for the finals and stuff, taking care of myself, but since she came round saturday to pick up some of her stuff it's getting bad again. She thought I was not home, so it hit both of us unprepared and was really awkward. Now everything that (isn't) here reminds me of the loss. We knew each other for 9 years and were in a relationship since 2006, we wanted to start a family and get old and fat together and that's all gone now. I was 18 when we started dating, so I have no idea how to lead my life alone. I mean I get my things done but it feels so hollow and senseless. All my friends moved on, they are in relationships, my best friend even has a stepson. They are all caring about me, but I could really need someone just to hang out with these days and most of the time they are too busy. Fuck it!

Now it's 1 am here and I have to finish my class preparation for tomorrow. Didn't get shit done this weekend since I was either crying my heart out or distracting myself from this disaster.
 
Pm if you'd like to chat, i offer good, researched, kind, helpful advice.

Peace love, hope and light VW <3
 
Thanks a lot, doomed. I'd really like to but unfortunately I need another 3 posts to be able to write pms ;-) ill see what i can do...
 
VanWeyden, that really sucks man :( So sorry to hear that you're having a tough time with the break up. Please be assured though that you WILL get through this!! It will hurt for a while, but one day you'll wake up and it will hurt a little bit less than the day before, and you will be feeling a little bit happier. And then each day will get a little bit easier than the day before <3 I know it still just sucks now though :( Please try to arrange a time to hang out with your friends, make them know how much you need them right now. It doesn't matter that they're all busy or whatever, they are still your friends and you really need them at this time! Call one of them tomorrow and arrange to meet up. You will feel a lot better once you've gotten out of your flat and socialised a bit. Try and keep yourself busy, and hopefully you'll be feeling a lot better very soon. Take care man, and let us all know how you're going okay? <3

Oh and you can PM me if you want to chat one-on-one okay? You can PM moderators without having reached 50 posts.
 
I didnt know about the mod message thing, good to know thanks sugar. How is your friend sweetie? Do you need a shoulder i had to look after me step kids and their mum (fellas ex wife) while severely physically and mentally unwell and needed my own shoulder for the death of one of e best friends i was ever honoured and blessed to know <3
 
That's no. 50. I know it is getting better with time, but right now ive got the feeling that its getting worse every day. The weeks after the break up i was like in a shock and now i start realising what really happened. Many things got worked out since then, I feel like that has made me stronger in a way. Next week I'll be seeing my ne therapist, I waited 8 months for that and now I get an appointment? If that happened 2 months earlier...
 
^^ Better late than never (to see your new therapist). And hey man, it's totally understandable that seeing your ex-girlfriend brought up a lot of painful emotions and memories that you had previously put to rest. That is really really common after a break-up and when you see your ex for the first time afterwards. Yeah, it makes it harder again, but hopefully not for too long <3

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I didnt know about the mod message thing, good to know thanks sugar. How is your friend sweetie? Do you need a shoulder i had to look after me step kids and their mum (fellas ex wife) while severely physically and mentally unwell and needed my own shoulder for the death of one of e best friends i was ever honoured and blessed to know <3
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Thanks so much lovely <3 My friend is actually overseas and I never met her father. But I am just so sad for her, and her mum. I wish I could be there with them to help them. But they've got friends and family there so they will be okay. I just want to help them, is all.
 
Yep. Guess I only need someone to lean on and hug from time to time. I'm so thankful that you help me remembering that the pain will diminish with time.
 
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