I'm all over the map emotionally lately, but I'm doing better in some ways now then when I was trying to ignore my problems. Bàby steps right now, but if I just keep making baby steps I'm bound to get where I want eventually.
I never know what each day is gonna bring moodwise. Some days I feel so blah and don't feel like doing anything, then this morning I woke up with this wicked hankering to play a tabletop rpg, which I haven't done in years. I think that's actually a good idea for making some friends and doing something social. I might draw up a little ad to put around town looking for folks to join. I even ordered myself a new dice set.
I just really need some irl social activities. I isolate so much when I'm going through a rough time, and it's not good for me. In some ways I have always been a bit of a loner, at least I do like to have a decent amount of alone time, but I also love being around friends, and it's good for me. I haven't made any friends since I moved to this little town and I need to make the effort, it will change my whole world, I know it will.