Great day to everyone! Pay-day here, and sunshine everywhere, so couldn't be better... or could it...
...finally, on day 5 of not ingesting any methadone, I am finally feeling all the positive effects of the buprenorphine (as mentioned in an earlier post I had a slip-up in my bupe ORT, with an average of 40mg/day for 2.5 weeks towards the end of my bupe taper - STUPID! I KNOW!).
I am using the last prescribed bupe for a 1-week tapering plan, from induction dose of 1 mg/day (which induced mild precipitated wds, 40+ hrs after last dose of methadone), then up to 2mg/day for 2-3 days, then drop with 0.5/day until 0, and then nada mas, nada menos. Then I want to stay clean. But at least I know that the next two days or maybe three, will be quite alright, until I start feeling the effects of the drastic drop in bupe. Yesterday was also OK overall, was productive, went to courses, and got some practical Babylon Bullshit done and over with, which I know I wouldn't be able to cope with during wd's the coming weeks...
I have completely emptied my buprenorphine stash into the IV solution used for tapering, so on that front, there should be no relapsing, unless I crawl back to the clinic and ask for more (my plan is to distance myself from the clinic and the dope community for a while, to get all the associations out of my head and my routines).
Hopefully benzos will take the worst wd's during the 1st week, then I plan to taper those down and drop those completely too, by end of june (leaving me cold turkey on benzos after a 3 month dabble with those, of all sorts). So the next couple of weeks/months, I am going to be one jonesey motherfucker!
But power to the greener grass on the other side - speaking of which, taking care of plants that require a high degree of attention can be good therapeutically to get through PAWS (so I am growing me some ganja for smokin' in the fall/winter season, amongst other plants like Kanna etc.), as well as drawing, playing guitar-or another instrument, and other hobbies, not to forget EXERCISE! Gotta get my legs out there and running... already biking a hell of a lot. Thing is to keep at it!
I wish you all the best, and for those living in the Northern Hemisphere, I think we can soon say that summer has arrived, and for those who have just finished exams or are close to:
Listen to
School's Out by Alice Cooper. I know I will when time comes around mid-end of June.
And then smoke a fat spliff. Without any opiates in my system, geared for festivals and summer parties, and pussy!
Hopes are high, but so is the willpower. We'll see how that holds out, once I have no opiates to take
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- bwanajzj