Sorry to hear you don't have pain medication, that really sucks.
Yea, its pathetic how doctors treat ex drug addicts. I havent eaten in over a week, and I havent slept more than an hour in about 10 days. Ive allready lost 15 pounds(down to 135 from 150) and thats not good cuz I was allready underweight for my height. I look like a zombie, and spend 90% of my time screaming, crying, moaning, in pain ....like, seriously intense pain, and then the other 10% I spend in a painfull haze with a headache because my body can only take so much pain and screaming and stress being put on all my veins and arteries so I end up just wearing myself out so I just lie there breathing heavily, still in the same amount of pain, but not able to muster the energy to scream or cry anymore. Its pathetic. And the doctors still refuse to give me ANY pain meds, and if you can fucking believe it, my psychiatrist is actually cutting my klonopin dose in half because he doesnt want me on that high of a dose(1.5mg's???) and the klonopin was the only thing keeping me from killing myself in a pain-filled rage because it helps relax my muscles. And pretty much the only time I can spend on bluelight is the hour to hour and a half in each day that my klonopin is noticeably working. So now I had to call a friend and buy some more kpins off the streets in order to keep myself from commiting suicide. Its the only reason I can type this post right now.
My family is going to take me to different hospitals tommorow until we find one that is willing to give me pain meds. I swear if it doesnt happen soon I will harm myself, thats how horrible this is.
*FYI, i said I lost 15 pounds....that comes out to almost a pound a day since this thing started. And yet the doctors shrug there shoulders and send me home telling me i shoudlnt be in any pain.
Forgive my ranting.(i also have a 100.9 degree temp)
ya that really does indeed suck, best of luck..................
its just something i think about, i probably wouldn't end up making the switch.........cause i do know that the urges will stop with time.......
I highly reccommend that you stay on suboxone for MANY reasons, but one of the main reasons is because I believe that once you get down to 1mg give or take, maybe less, you will start to really enjoy your suboxone alot more and then your urges and thoughts about using again will go away....thats how it worked for me. I literally get disgusted at the thought of using heroin again, even in all the pain im in now. Being on low dose suboxone has changed my outlook on things so much. I would stick with the subs man and do your best to keep tapering.
