LivingOnValium
Bluelighter
I was without without Subutex for a relatively long time. I stopped counting days at the 20th day.
I did quite a lot low quality speed in 24h with a friend. We run out it of about 10h ago and the comedown was horrendous. I just coudn't resist buying a tiny amount of Subutex to get anxiety relief and to mask the comedown symptoms. The friend of mine happened to cut a 2mg slice out the tablet so that's what i paid for (not that many euros). I justified this afterwards to myself by allowing myself to use buprenorphine in such extreme situations. I'm now very much intoxicated but already feeling that i'm cheating/lying to myself. Have to think this whole thing through again when i sober up. I am aware that i'm playing with fire here and how easily I could slip back to daily use.
I shot up half of what i got (1mg) which lead to an almost instant relief to how i was feeling, both mentally and physicallly. I still have a pre-prepped syringe with as much buprenorphine as in the earlier shot. I'm thinking of shooting it up when i've had some sleep. I will probably still feel a bit rough at that point. Now i'm feeling extremely euphoric, mellow, warm, cozy and relaxed. I believe the sudden change from the agony the the to smooth buprenorphine high adds up to the euphoria.
I would lie if claimed that I haven't had a thought of shooting subutex hundreds of times earlier. I really do hope that this relapse doesn't get me back 2 square 1.
I did quite a lot low quality speed in 24h with a friend. We run out it of about 10h ago and the comedown was horrendous. I just coudn't resist buying a tiny amount of Subutex to get anxiety relief and to mask the comedown symptoms. The friend of mine happened to cut a 2mg slice out the tablet so that's what i paid for (not that many euros). I justified this afterwards to myself by allowing myself to use buprenorphine in such extreme situations. I'm now very much intoxicated but already feeling that i'm cheating/lying to myself. Have to think this whole thing through again when i sober up. I am aware that i'm playing with fire here and how easily I could slip back to daily use.
I shot up half of what i got (1mg) which lead to an almost instant relief to how i was feeling, both mentally and physicallly. I still have a pre-prepped syringe with as much buprenorphine as in the earlier shot. I'm thinking of shooting it up when i've had some sleep. I will probably still feel a bit rough at that point. Now i'm feeling extremely euphoric, mellow, warm, cozy and relaxed. I believe the sudden change from the agony the the to smooth buprenorphine high adds up to the euphoria.
I would lie if claimed that I haven't had a thought of shooting subutex hundreds of times earlier. I really do hope that this relapse doesn't get me back 2 square 1.