What's good all my fellow BL's?? I just had a few question, I know several peeps on here will have great advice for me.
I have a doctors appointment Monday @ 10:00am. The lady asked me if I just wanted a script or wanted to do the suboxone treatment plan (I told her a script). Reason I say that is cuz I figured the treatment plan would cost more. I have insurance so my co-pay won't be much, but I dunno about the prescription (I've heard they're pretty pricey, but price doesn't matter when you're dealing with life n freedom).
I was introduced to opiates 4 years ago when I was hit by a drunk driver on my sport bike (I shattered my heel n have had back problems since). I was prescribed 10/500 lortabs 240 a month for a year, then I was in pain managment afterwards n I got 120-90 10/500 a month for a year. I started to abuse them about 1 1/2-2yrs in. Then before I knew it I started gettin rid of them to get the bigger n better stuff (since they didn't help with my pain n doc wouldn't bump it up to something stronger since I was only 19 at the time). I started doing about 160mg's of OC a day (if not more). I had to have at least an 80 to not w/d. I got clean for 6months n moved to stay clean/away from drugs. Now I've been doing nothing, but heroin for the past 8 months since I get it way cheaper than oxy's.
Now since I got that out of the way, here are the question... I do about a half g every day sometimes a gram will last a few days. I don't use the needle I just snort it. How much do you guys think my recommended dose will be? Will I be considered a heavy or light user? Is there any way I can get subutex (I've had suboxone n it taste like ass to me)? Also will he flag me to where I can't get lortabs in the future if something happens (not that I will ever want to do them again, they've fucked my life up so bad)? Will he recommend that I'm on the treatment plan, I plan to have my girlfriend monitor it for me n taper me off? How long will I be on it?
I refuse to take methadone since it's harder to kick then what I'm doing. I know I have to be clean starting tomorrow at 10:00am so I'll be 24hrs into my w/d's when I see the doc. I've been wanting to quit n have tried every way possible except medical help n I know this is going to work out for me.
Thank you for all the help, it really means a lot to me. I love this site cuz I know right when I post this I will get all the help n advice I've been looking for in the matter of minutes!!
I have half a g left. I'm planning on doing a few points n get wasted tonight n do a point around 7:00-8:00am tomorrow morning so I don't feel like total asshole lol.
Thanks again,
~DJ Play~
I'd say taper on the subutex then get off of opiates completley. Doing the suboxone maintence is simply subsistution and is ultimatly another addiction your going to have to quit. Just keep in mind if you really wanna get clean it comes down to you. You may want to consider just checking into a 5-10 day detox facility... you mentioned what great coverage you've got. That sounds like a much more solid idea than your mentioned subutex taper that your girlfriend will administer to you.
Keep in mind though you have to truely look into your heart and see if you want to stop using opiates and drugs or not. Because if not you may be able to stop shortly or maybe for a couple months but eventually you'll find yourself right back where you started wondering wtf.
I say go to a 5-10 day detox program and forget about doing a taper yourself. I'd if you choose not to go this route and I don't understand why you would, you can find a really fucking nice detox if you have good insurance, I'd reccomend seeing if you covered for Sunrise Detox in Lakeworth, Florida. Your insurance might even pay for the plane ticket and if not whats a little extra loot to go on a 10day vacation. I'm sure theres other detoxs like this one if you do your homework you can find one. But man this place is top of the fucking line, bomb food 24hour snacks on hand, the most comfortable beds in the world, flat screen tvs, ciggerette vending machines, and best of all they are extremley fucking good at what they do and will put you on a tappering schedule of suboxone, valium, muscle relaxers, clonodine ect and you will not feel like your detoxing at all, I did it back in august.
Something to look into
