Hey guys.. Just made an account and thought Id give my fingers some exercise.
I just went through My first proper habit.
Before Id go 3days and feel like shit..but this was 6-8 months of daily grovelling. The only way I managed it and it got bad to start with was I was living with a dealer. and we were/are still pretty good mates.. So I was able to get the tick stupidly high etc etc
And do/run favours freebee's and I was on an actual allowance (of sorts) for putting up with the deal'n
Never committed any serious crimes thank god. But I was doing dodgy things and some ppl would get hurt..
I could see what was happening and after trying to give up many times. Being given methadone etc and Im just too much of a Pig aye.
So the only thing Icould do ,and many have also Im sure (including my parents more than once (I know i should know better)) is move as far away from the dealer/scene as possible.
This I did. I had a shack in the bush many hours from the city with no power. No toilet. Tank water etc etc.
Me , and my sole mate & GF, bought as many bup pills (the ones you cant belt) as we could.. and packed the ute and headed out. (mind you we had a shizzle before we left) and never looked back. (didnt do the methadone ruit cause we are bad and would have sort needles n barrels and all that intales..)
BEST MOVE I HAVE EVER MADE!!
Was a little up and down. Was Ages and ages till we where right. like 1 month after the last of the subutex(?)
Had no idea it would linger so bad. I can see why its hard to stop. 1 week of not using after heavy use doesn't cut it at all..
So Im fixed now and all is good. Didnt do to bad really. Never hang out bad. Never did crime or sold my gerl. Delt for a day or two, Was a little depressing dealing with users and prostitues all day. I take it as a learning experience. Id never do it again. Get a habit that is. I'll have the occasional taste (If said GF lets me) and I do love all drugs. love LSD. Weed has been the backbone of my life. Meth is also fantastic.
But I have found that smack has all these qualities is differing degrees. I now know why its the scourge of humanity. And why so many go 'there'
My take on shit. Like I said. Only a baby here. Not one to wrestle with the butterfly snake, or to think of belting anywhere but my arm.
I feel for the ones with no veins and that. Must be horrible.
wacking done will speed this along too guys.
DONT WAACKK YA FUKN methaDONE! Its a syrup for heavens sake.
Its not good for ya veins, Its not good for ya brain,heart and dont forget it doesn't last half as long. and like ya putting upwards of 20ml in you system. extra 20ml would have an averse reaction surly?
Dont get me wrong.. I have Shot up heaps of methadone. Never again though.
anyways im rambling nonsence. Cant even remember what I have been writing about

bloody meth
:D