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Self-harm support thread v. 3

Yeah, I don't know if that was a statement or a question. I quit cutting awhile ago. But with all the shit I'm going through I need some escape!!! I quit smoking a couple weeks ago (cigs). So yeah. I picture the drugs cutting my insides when I take them. Blah.
 
^^ Yep, it's all part of the self-destructive behaviour/habits. I do it with alcohol sometimes, when I'm really depressed or angry, and other drugs when I can get my dirty mitts on them.
 
^^ *big bear hugs*!!!! <3 :)

billyswifey that is so great to hear you guys had a chat, and that you're feeling better. Take care sweetheart <3
 
so much for our fucking chat....I don't know what to believe anymore. he says completely different things when he's drunk, sober or high....none of them are the same & I have no fucking idea what he really feels. I wanna go do something stupid to take away the pain...this booze isn't working...
 
no booze doesnt help much :\ neither does cutting, they both feel different the next day, and the situation is still there less resolved.

im just poking my head in here to see whats up, but it sounds like there is no balance in what ever state he is in; maybe that is your cue to step back and gain some of your own.
 
dont make excuses for him, think about you and what you are doing...

you didnt want to cut and you did, but it didnt help anything. dont do anything further, take some time from these past two days like 20-30 minutes, thats nothing, and sit and think.

or keep writing what you are feeling, take a minute and re read it before deciding anything else like that.

its okay to feel that way, in my world its normal anyway, its what actions you take that have a lasting effect, and thats when things can be not okay.
 
^^ The man speaks the truth.

billyswifey, please PM me if you need to chat to someone. We're in the same timezone so I can chat any time you're online.

Also, just talking from experience here, he may be having trouble digesting whatever you chatted about before. It can be hard for our loved ones to process the knowledge that we harm ourselves. Not sure if you specifically mentioned that to him but if you did, he could be having mixed feelings about it, which is totally natural for someone who hasn't had experience with self-harm before. Know what I mean?
 
i havent self harmed since before the holidays, which i spent with my family. the whole time i had to cover up my scars and cuts and was terrified that someone would see them. When i was visiting my family i ran out of my meds which i wasnt too worried about because i hadnt really been taking as regularly as i should which i know is dumb,i was feelin alright but being at home with my family was starting to stress me out, so i started drinking more to help me thru. in the last few days i have been having thoughts of cutting which are starting to get bad and also my moods and thoughts have been all over the place and i feel like im getting back into a bad place with them. im also goin to have to make some serious decisions soon and these are stressing me out more and i know im staring to slide back into something bad, but at the same time i dont really want to stop myself.:? :(
 
i'm goin to see my doc in a couple of days so hopefully things will be alright til then, and yes i do plan an taking my meds as prescribed and not screwing around with them.
 
Grrr... why do I keep doing this? I spent about half an hour last night stabbing my arm with a needle and drawing blood, and now I've just remembered that I have to go for a blood test today. My arm won't be a good look. :\
 
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Sweet P, it sounds like you're getting back in to the routine of self-harm, but you need to stop it now before it gets too bad. Have you spoken to DW about this? I know she would want to help you, so talk to her okay? There are other more effective ways of releasing your pent-up emotions. Please take care okay?? <3

whatishername and billyswifey, how are you both doing? <3
 
^ Thanks n3o, hun. <3

I haven't self-harmed since I wrote that last post... just been keeping myself distracted and resisting the urges. I spoke to DW today on the phone and I'll be spending the weekend with her, which will be good for both of us. :)
 
I haven't cut since the end of September last year, though those were the worst I've done, stupidly deep ones on my side/back. Before then, I think I'd lasted three months. But I'm doing much better now I think, and I'm glad to see there's a thread about this on here :)
 
^^ That is so great you haven't cut since September slientangst. I was in the same position as you this time last year. The last time I cut was a few times at the end of October 2008, and they were the worst I'd ever done.

But 3 months passed and I made it through without cutting.

Then 6 months passed, and 12 months passed...

Now it's been nearly 15 months without cutting and I continue to manage just fine.

And this is coming from someone who's been a self-harmer for 11 years.

So it can be overcome.

Stay strong everyone <3

Sweet P you said it hun, it's all about keeping yourself distracted/occupied, and talking to our loved ones, when we feel the urges. You take care of yourself okay?? <3
 
feeling dark really want to hurt myself...trying hard to stop myself from doing it but i just have so much self loathing atm.. just want to get high and forget.. such a fuckup.
sorry end rant.
 
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