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Self-harm support thread v. 3

versd, please be careful.
During my last cutting binge, just over a year ago, that was exactly how I started out, cutting over old scars. But it very quickly spiralled out of control and now I have by far the largest scars on my body from that period in my life.

Please take care <3
 
i feel as if my reasons on slicing across my body (mainly my left arm) is to shift my focus from the "the aches and pains within my lonley heart" to "the pains of the cut". the physical pain seems more barable than the emotional pains, but thats just me
 
Just a thought. Are most of your scars (talking to everyone) on your left side, or at least a majority? I noticed that in PTSD treatment, that was almost 100% how it went... even for left-handed people.
Mine are almost 50/50 but a little tilted to the left. The worst scar by far (a 4 letter word carved into my upper arm, about 1 1/4" by 4"), is on the left side.

In other news... I haven't self harmed in about 6 months. Woohoo? I have done some small things like pinching myself/punching a wall kind of hard but not too bad (very impulsively), but no cutting/burning. Hope all of you struggling get out of it soon.
 
^^ That's excellent to hear lh :)
6 months without cutting/burning is a great acheivement, you should be proud of yourself. Utelising other methods of release like pinching, crushing ice in your hand etc, can be just as effective. And let's not forget just plain old talking to someone about how you're feeling :)
I remember when I reached 6 months as well, earlier this year. And before I knew it, it was 12 months! Now it's nearly been 14 months. Keep up the good work <3

Interesting about the left-sided dominance of scars, where did you get that info from? I'd like to read more about it. Personally? My scars ratio is pretty much exactly 1:1 left and right sides of my body.

I am so looking forward to being able to afford getting tattoos over most of my scars...
 
I have talked to someone who had experience with self harm and noticed scars on both sides, and she asked me why i cut on my right arm - referring to it as the 'good side'.

i would be interested to see any info
 
im not positivly too sure about the statistics of "most damage to the left side of the body" part, but is it becuase a majority are right-handed?

ive injured my left arm the most cause i compare my left to my right arm, left and right leg, and my left arm seems to be the "less useful" part of my body since im right-handed
 
I had been really bothered by my new scar on my arm. But of course the bf always finds a way to help a lil. He said that he doesn't like what all my scars "stand for" that they are caused by my battle with self-injury. But that it does give me a little bit of character and interest. That the rest of my body seems to be so "perfect", in his mind and then I have just one arm that is covered in scars. I guess we just have to see ourselves through someone else's eyes sometimes and also realize, yes the scars are there...but I made it through that as well.
 
i used to cut ALOT and two of my ex's cut and thats one of the main reasons I left them. Unless you are truly suicidal regardless of what other's say or think cutting is an attention seeking act with the intent on hoping subconsciously or otherwise to take some notice in the cutter. Cutting may release some chemicals and give you a masochistic fix and even release chemicals in your brain that make you feel better. Talk to your parents, friends, go see a doctor, I think smoking marijuana is the best cutters cure as it is not addictive and frees one's mind of negative emotions while making them feel pleasant. I hope no one takes offense to this but I feel strongly in this as I have experienced it, seen it first hand, been treated for self harm due to crack cocaine and opiate withdrawals and everytime it was because I just wanted someone to notice me or what was going on with me. Cutting fucking blows and is a cheap and petty alternative to other ways in releasing stress and dealing with emotion.
 
morphinanymous said:
i used to cut ALOT and two of my ex's cut and thats one of the main reasons I left them. Unless you are truly suicidal regardless of what other's say or think cutting is an attention seeking act with the intent on hoping subconsciously or otherwise to take some notice in the cutter. Cutting may release some chemicals and give you a masochistic fix and even release chemicals in your brain that make you feel better. Talk to your parents, friends, go see a doctor, I think smoking marijuana is the best cutters cure as it is not addictive and frees one's mind of negative emotions while making them feel pleasant. I hope no one takes offense to this but I feel strongly in this as I have experienced it, seen it first hand, been treated for self harm due to crack cocaine and opiate withdrawals and everytime it was because I just wanted someone to notice me or what was going on with me. Cutting fucking blows and is a cheap and petty alternative to other ways in releasing stress and dealing with emotion.
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First of all, welcome to the thread and thanks for your contribution. It's good to hear you no longer self-harm.

While your opinion is valid, what you must understand is that everyone's situation is different. For you to come in here and say that the only reason anyone self-harms is for attention, and that the only way to combat the problem is to smoke pot, is not going to gain you much respect in a thread like this. It may have been the case for you and your ex's that you were cutting for attention (be it subconcious or otherwise), and pot might have helped you, but like I said, everyone's different. For some people, pot can make depression and anxiety much MUCH worse so your advice is potentially very dangerous. And as we all know there are many different reasons why a person resorts to self-harm, and while attention-seeking could possibly be one of them, it is not always the case. In fact, a lot of self-harmers go to great lengths to hide what they do, and would be horrified and very embarrassed if anyone knew/approached them about it.

But like you said, anyone who self-harms should talk to their doctor, friends, family etc about it. No-one needs to suffer <3
 
well as neo predicted its gone from ontop of a prev scar to one longer than id ever though. how am i going to explain this when i go travelling to the tropics. i suppose people will just have to label me with whatever they thought etc. fuck.

i wrote a little something about why i cut, maybe ill share it in this thread later on.

much love
 
I can't decide if I want to get a tattoo to cover up my scars (they are really really bad) or just leave them there as a reminder of my life and what I have gone through to become more stable. It's just that people stare all the time.
 
versd said:
well as neo predicted its gone from ontop of a prev scar to one longer than id ever though. how am i going to explain this when i go travelling to the tropics. i suppose people will just have to label me with whatever they thought etc. fuck.

i wrote a little something about why i cut, maybe ill share it in this thread later on.

much love
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I'm so sorry to hear that versd :(
What's the plan from here? If it's gone from bad to worse it might be time to intervene your actions. I'm only a PM away if you need to talk to someone about it, and you know I'll understand. Please be careful <3
 
xxkcxx said:
sigh.


its been quite some time but i am currently doing it. benzos are never good for me :(
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*hugs* I hope you're okay.

I thought the point of disposable razors was forthem to be thown out after one use....so why are there so many sitting in this room? (Not including unused ones)
I'm feeling really down (thanks xmas I hate you) & all these stupid razors are tempting me. I'm just sick of the situation I'm in, and there seems to be no end in sight. I feel so freaking useless not being able to pay rent & bills, my fiancee has to give up so much so I can live with him, because he doesn't want me to go back with my parents. I wish I could find a freaking job, Melbourne (Aus) seems to be hardest hit with unemployment, then maybe I wouldn't feel so freaking crap.
 
xxkcxx- I'm sorry to hear this :(
I am hoping to hear that this was a one time thing and you don't plan to go back to doing it regularly-??????
Why are you on benzos?
Hope you are doing a little better today <3


billeyswifey-
Xmas can be a reallllly hard time of year. When things are not going well, the whole holiday thing seems to amplify the depression I think....... Try to keep your head up and find a way through (like talking to us ;)) -
Hope things improve for you soon......
 
Thanks billeyswifey & ocean.


I was on benzos cause sobriety is getting really hard. I'm trying to not make the just back to heroin, but for the past four weeks, I can count on one hand the amount of days I have not been on dxm, alcohol, or benzos.

The cuts are worse than I thought too...the razor I used wasn't clean...I tried to disinfect it but i had no alcohol, so I used peroxide. Luckily, i WAS smart enough to peroxide the cuts afterward as well.



But it's no better. Once I get back on the cutting wagon, it seems to come into my mind as an answer.
 
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If anyone is having trouble with cutting please PM me. I will help you out. I had a huge cutting problem since I was in middle school and finally found the will to stop a few months ago. I still have scars that remind me everyday of the pain, but also they remind me of the progress I have made. I would love to share stories and help out, as I know it can be addicting and I know it feels good at the time, but it's very dangerous and there are other coping mechinisms I would like to share with you! Good luck! Be safe! Cheer up! <3
-Erika
 
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