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Room 101: what is , or was, your greatest fear.

I was thinking about my biggest fears the other day and I ended up deciding that my top three (in order, I think) are:
1) The death of someone I love
2) My own death
3) Dissapointing the people I love
 
something happening to my children or parents, being burned alive, airplane crashes, clowns, midgets(im sorry i really am afraid) , spiders and haing narcan given to me again in hospital for withdrawal
 
Im scared as fuck of gettin electrocuted. Im a welder and took a electrical class and i got shocked so many fucking times

Im terrified of getting shocked, hardcore
 
River City King said:
Im scared as fuck of gettin electrocuted. Im a welder and took a electrical class and i got shocked so many fucking times

Im terrified of getting shocked, hardcore
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lol I remember getting shocked for the first time out of curiosity. Stupid young little hoopy frood stuck his fingers onto the metal part of the plug in the outlet. 110 volts? Wasn't too bad.

Plus my science teacher when he... errr, nevermind.
 
hoopyfrood said:
lol I remember getting shocked for the first time out of curiosity. Stupid young little hoopy frood stuck his fingers onto the metal part of the plug in the outlet. 110 volts? Wasn't too bad.

Plus my science teacher when he... errr, nevermind.
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Haha, I used to cheat in my electrical wiring course by just pulling out the ground wire. that kinda came back to bite me in the ass
 
when i was a kid, i was sent to a christian summer camp and they told me that hell was sitting in the dark, alone for eternity. that still scares the hell ( no pun intended ) out of me. i'm still not comfortable sitting alone with my thoughts. my laptop is with me alot, and i read when i'm on a smoke break, i always keep my mind occupied with outside help.
 
River City King said:
Haha, I used to cheat in my electrical wiring course by just pulling out the ground wire. that kinda came back to bite me in the ass
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LOL... literally bite you. ;P

lestahb said:
when i was a kid, i was sent to a christian summer camp and they told me that hell was sitting in the dark, alone for eternity. that still scares the hell ( no pun intended ) out of me. i'm still not comfortable sitting alone with my thoughts. my laptop is with me alot, and i read when i'm on a smoke break, i always keep my mind occupied with outside help.
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Your fear is actually pretty scary. I mean your fear itself. I would hate to have a fear of lonely darkness. Fortunately, I don't. :) I actually enjoy the solitude and introspective thinking that I can have while alone in the dark.
 
crazy. lestahb, I was trying to think of what my greatest fear would be. never really had one. Permanent solitary confinement came to mind. then i read your post.
 
In the past year, I've been working on overcoming most of my fears. Heights used to be a big one for me, and while I still get anxious I'm not anywhere near as bad as I was. Tight, enclosed spaces remains a tough one, but only because I don't have much opportunity to desensitize myself to it. Social situations are getting better, but still cause me a bit of anxiety.

I think that the biggest ongoing fear for me is gravity. It sounds odd when I write it out, but I have real trouble when I'm biking downhill or snowboarding and I'm not in complete and utter control, meaning that I'm going slower than I know that I can handle going. For example, when I bike to work I have to ride down a fairly steep hill, but I ride the brakes most of the way down for fear of losing control and biting it. At most I go maybe 25 km/h. But on a flat, I'll book it up to the mid 40s just to see how fast I can go.
 
As I kid I used to be afraid of the dark. That is pretty standard.

Nowadays I have a strange paranoia. I'm afraid of talking to people when other people are around. So I'm with a person or two who I'm familiar with (or if I'm just speaking on the phone with someone), it will often feel like others are listening to me and judging me.

Oh, and cops :D. I'm white and I never felt endangered by cops until I started having fun with drugs here and there.
 
Going crazy and incommunicably psychotic is definitely my biggest fear. I used to a fear of fear itself, which was a recipe for nasty panic attacks. Now I'm beginning to see the wisdom in accepting that you can be scared, like a chipmunk in a busy park.

Not coming down from a psychedelic trip is also a related fear of mine.
 
lestahb when i was a kid i remember them showing us a movie about the second coming of christ or armagedon etc and that scared the shit out of me, i was terrified for yrs thinking that i would be stuck on earth with black marking on my head and my family just dissapearing and going to heaven, churches can put the biggest fears into all of us i no longer go to church and i dont push that scarry shit on my kids like my family did to me
 
in order


1) ending up in Hell whatever it is, with no escape.

2) getting stuck in a bad trip. like LSD+bong DXM+bongs

3) wondering what ill fill in my time with when im not running a full time opiate addiction

4) seeing what i could of become say i made all the right decisions and comparing that to now.


but i guess the most likely is getting stuck in bad trips where you feel like nothing is real and its never going to end.

5) going to get a script from my doctor and them ringing up the medical board and getting exposed for too many scripts....
 
I only just realised today what I have a massive fear of.
I fear my partner's cancer coming back and having to watch him die slowly.
 
My greatest fear is prison, for a couple of reasons. Firstly, I value my freedom and couldn't stand being locked up in a cage. Secondly, I'm a transsexual. According to the law I'd have to serve my time in a men's prison, which wouldn't be fun for someone who looks like a young female.
 
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