pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
i get this too all the time-borderline
also used to be wasps (fucking hate them)
^ depression can in many ways be a pattern of thought (a form of thought style). it can be difficult to get out of
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Room 101: what is , or was, your greatest fear.
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i get this too all the time-borderline
also used to be wasps (fucking hate them)
^ depression can in many ways be a pattern of thought (a form of thought style). it can be difficult to get out of
Jekyll and Hyde
Bluelighter
i get this too all the time-borderline
also used to be wasps (fucking hate them)
^ depression can in many ways be a pattern of thought (a form of thought style). it can be difficult to get out of
Very true, I'm in the process of trying to rewire my thinking process.
deadhead507461
Bluelighter
My biggest fear is getting hurt or killed because someone else did something wrong
I can accept it if I hurt myself with drugs or develop a disease. But I am scared that someone else could end up killing me because of their actions.
Example would be being hit by a drunk driver, being in the car with a drunk driver too.
It disgusts me, but this girl at my school was drunk driving, they crashed and the passenger flew thru the windshield, and then was ran over. She killed her best friend and she got to walk away not even hurt. They didn't hit another car, she just lost control driving 90mph in a 40mph drunk as fuck.
I can accept it if I hurt myself with drugs or develop a disease. But I am scared that someone else could end up killing me because of their actions.
Example would be being hit by a drunk driver, being in the car with a drunk driver too.
It disgusts me, but this girl at my school was drunk driving, they crashed and the passenger flew thru the windshield, and then was ran over. She killed her best friend and she got to walk away not even hurt. They didn't hit another car, she just lost control driving 90mph in a 40mph drunk as fuck.
ocean
Bluelight Crew
matricide- I have always had this crazy fear that one of my children would kill me. I guess b/c it is the ultimate betrayal. The people you would trust unconditionally, your children, turning on you.....extremely scary.
I used to think my greatest fear was turning into a fat, dirty, uncultured trailertrash bitch with 753147865442 filthy kids. Now I've realized that it's not gonna happen, and I'm actually terrified of death.
Can't seem to talk myself logically out of the fear, either...now I understand why religion is so comforting to fall back on for so many people, it gives an easy, standard answer to what happens to our consciousnesses after we kick it.
Unfortunately, being an atheist who (forgive me) used rationality & sense to dissolve any "deity" illusions, it's SCARY AS HELL to think about the great nothingness, The End, the moment my short time on this beautiful planet is over for good. It's even scarier to contemplate eternity. I've been trying to force myself to think about it lately & come to an acceptance if not an understanding, but all that I get are panic attacks when I start!
Can't seem to talk myself logically out of the fear, either...now I understand why religion is so comforting to fall back on for so many people, it gives an easy, standard answer to what happens to our consciousnesses after we kick it.
Unfortunately, being an atheist who (forgive me) used rationality & sense to dissolve any "deity" illusions, it's SCARY AS HELL to think about the great nothingness, The End, the moment my short time on this beautiful planet is over for good. It's even scarier to contemplate eternity. I've been trying to force myself to think about it lately & come to an acceptance if not an understanding, but all that I get are panic attacks when I start!
onetwonine
Bluelighter
Present:
Fear that i will kill/hurt someone.
Past:
Fear of homosexuals, effeminate men, male contact etc.
(Glad i made peace with that fear)
Always feels like i have a SOME thing to worry/get scared about. I have been to two shrinks and they both have come up with general anxiety disorder and some SSRI blehh
Fear that i will kill/hurt someone.
Past:
Fear of homosexuals, effeminate men, male contact etc.
(Glad i made peace with that fear)
Always feels like i have a SOME thing to worry/get scared about. I have been to two shrinks and they both have come up with general anxiety disorder and some SSRI blehh
klinklonfoonyak
Bluelighter
i fear the passage of time
Why do you fear that? YOU are in control of your own actions. If you don't want to harm anyone, you can choose not to do so.
onetwonine
Bluelighter
Well, that would be the problem, there are times that i really do want to harm people, for things that seem trivial in retrospect.
Have had anger issues for as long as i can remember, that have lead to a few violent outbursts. Although i have been keeping them under control recently, and have been much better with letting things that would normally offend me slide, it is still a nagging worry.
Its been a few years since i have done something stupid so i think i will put the fear to rest, its jus a matter of a couple more years to prove to myself im not as volatile as i used to be.
Have had anger issues for as long as i can remember, that have lead to a few violent outbursts. Although i have been keeping them under control recently, and have been much better with letting things that would normally offend me slide, it is still a nagging worry.
Its been a few years since i have done something stupid so i think i will put the fear to rest, its jus a matter of a couple more years to prove to myself im not as volatile as i used to be.
thelung
Bluelighter
I regard stick bugs and centipedes with abomination.I also fear being stabbed.
In general, I fear failure. Come to think of it I also fear success. hmmm
Elliott Smith, a musician from Portland, OR killed himself by stabbing himself in the heart. Ouch.
10amautomatic
Greenlighter
Chinese water torture, being stabbed in the eyes, finger nails and teeth being ripped out, drowning/suffocation, getting seriously addicted to herion or meth, etc...normal boring shit really
a world without music and art
a world without music and art
hyroller
Bluelighter
hmmmm....
failure I suppose
grew up with a crazy fear of pool filters, too
(my mum told me a gruesome story, not sure why)
now I'm scared of cops hasseling me really
failure I suppose
grew up with a crazy fear of pool filters, too
(my mum told me a gruesome story, not sure why)
now I'm scared of cops hasseling me really