We spoke so many times on AIM and I felt as if I never provided enough emotional support for the situations you were dealing with. I've already said this but I think it pretty much sums up how I'm feeling right now:
I never knew what exactly to say while we were conversing.
I still don't know what exactly to say.
All I know is I'm sorry.
You reached out to not only myself but many other bluelighters and I don't think we could provide what you needed. Regardless, you were immensely appreciated amongst this community. Even at times when you were dealing with extremely depressing situations you were open and interested in our problems. You were a loving soul and it's unfortunate for all that you are no longer here to voice your experience, love and understanding.
I hope your closest are dealing with this as well as they can.
I hope dearly that you are resting well.