I mentioned cognitive therapy to my clinic doc on friday and he looked at me oddly and shock his head. He compared it to following a cult leader and also used religion as an analogy.
We have two doctors at this clinic, for probably two or three weeks we'll have a male one and then we've a female one for another two or three. They're always banging heads over what's the best for the patients.
The male doctor is only doing methadone patients for a couple of years and is fairly enthuastic - at the moment. He is also very interested in the science of addiction and is of the opinion that because of the effects of herion and addiction in general on the brain that it's very unlikely that many of us will be able to get clean and most of us will die of heart failure.
He's told me straight out several times that all of us at our clinic will die that way before our time! The female doctor told me she would find me someone to talk to as she thinks it will do some good! The female doc put me up 5mls - up to 55mls - a couple of weeks ago and told me it would stop my cravings, the other doc told me that was ridculous!
Two docs with two completly different medical opinions treating the same patients.
I'm finding it extremely difficult to stop smoking gear eventhough I'm getting nothing from it because i've to take my phy supervised everyday, so I don't get a chance to have gear without the phy. I have no idea whether the gear is any good or not!
One doctor tells me that he understands why it is I can't stop and the other doc says I should be able to and should of already have stopped.
Now I'm as mixed up as much as both their ways of treating me!
Hugely frustrating.
