MDMAhead
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OK guys, I have just created a BL account (although I have read the forums here for a while, and think its a great site!). I have done a few posts on pillreports under the name 'jimmyhillreports', including 3 recent reports. If you wanna know a bit about me, read my first pillreport ('W111' aka 'BMW M3').
I would have liked to put this rant on pillreports, but it would probably just get deleted, and i think that this is a better forum for me to vent my spleen, so here goes:
Its really annoyed me for a while that most people on pillreports (at least the Australian section) actually do not know what MDMA feels like. You get people rating pills as '8/10' or '9/10', yet the description they give of their experience does not sound (to me) like MDMA at all.
I should make it clear - I absolutely love MDMA - its my favourite drug by far. The main effects i find it has on me are:
1) It makes me feel incredibly happy, to the point where i literally can't stop smiling (its an amazing feeling)
2) It makes music sound absolutely amazing (the rhythm becomes a part of me, and melodies become truly beautiful)
3) It makes me crave physical contact with other people
4) It makes me crave talking to other people
5) It makes me feel relaxed, my worries disappear, i lose my inhibitions and prejudices - people just become people (not that i consider myself to be particularly racist/sexist/ageist/homophobic/eliteist, but to some extent everyone makes judgements about other people without really knowing them)
6) It makes me empathetic towards others - it makes me a better listener.
7) It makes me open and honest with people - i think its pretty amazing when you have a totally open, honest conversation with someone you've never even met before.
8) It makes me energetic - but not in a speedy way - it does not make every muscle in my body shake with energy, but i certainly do not feel tired when i am high on MDMA. Oh and my body just moves to the music - its like i have no control over it.
OK, now that i have got that out of the way, I will tell you the type of things people on pillreports say that annoy me:
'Great pills - they completely floored me - i was unable to move or speak for 5 hours' That probably wasn't MDMA - like i say, i find mdma to be a very social drug. It does not make me 'monged out' or 'munted'.
'Great pills - i tripped my nuts off for 8 hours - i kept seeing aliens with 10 arms walking around the club' That probably wasn't MDMA - I do get mild halucinations on MDMA - but only very mild. Oh and i do enjoy tripping - but if i want to trip then i will take mushrooms/acid. It is not what i take pills for.
'Great pills - i could barely walk and couldnt feel my legs' That probably wasnt MDMA - in my experience, when i am high on MDMA, i am perfectly able to walk normally. I am also perfectly able to hold a conversation normally. The only difference is i feel incredibly happy. But i do not feel fucked/muntered. Thats one of the beautiful things about MDMA - you stilll have that clarity of thought, and ability to do most things as normal.
'Great pills - i had insane eye-wobbles and i chewed my face off the whole night' That probably wasnt MDMA - it annoys the hell out of me when someone on pillreports is reviewing a pill, and the first thing they talk about is eye-wobbles and gurning/teeth-grinding - in my experience, those are NOT THE PRIMARY EFFECTS OF MDMA (see above for what i consider the primary effects of mdma to be)
'Great pills - the peak lasted an hour, after which i felt tired and went to bed' That probably wasnt MDMA - in my experience, the high i get from a proper MDMA pill lasts AT LEAST 3 hours. If you have really good MDMA pills, you really shouldnt need any more than 4 for a big night out (sadly because most of the pills in melbourne are shit, i often end up taking up to 8 in a night, and still dont get any decent high)
'Great pills - i couldnt sleep for the next 4 days' That probably wasnt MDMA - yes, MDMA is a type of amphetamine, but i find that its speed-like effects are dwarfed by its euphoric effects.
(Note: when i say that all of these pills were probably not mdma - of course, they could have contained MDMA, but they were certainly not clean MDMA)
Another thing that annoys me about pillreports is when people say 'good, clean MDXX pills'. LOL - the whole point of using the term 'MDXX' is that you cannot pinpoint what is in them. The term presumably came about because most pill testing kits cannot tell the difference between MDMA, MDA, and MDEA. But when people say something like 'I beleive that these pills contain a fair amount of MDXX', that is about about as useful to me as someone saying 'I beleive that these pills contain a large amount of baking powder, as well as a small amount of toilet cleaner'. Yes - most pill-testing kits cannot tell the difference between MDMA, MDA, and MDEA, but in terms of their effects, MDMA is so distinct from every other drug i have ever taken. And it is MDMA that i want in a pill - not MDA, not MDEA, not baking powder, and not toilet cleaner. If you cannot tell the difference in effects between MDMA and the other MDXX compounds, then you really shouldnt be writing reviews/comments on pillreports.
It also annoys me when people review a pill, despite being off their face on another drug first - you get people saying:
'I smoked half a gram of ice, then i took this pill. I found the pill to be pretty speedy' LOL - no shit you found the pill speedy
'I took 2 microdots, then i took this pill. I found the pill to be quite trippy' Again, LOL
Personally, i am a big fan of the pure MDMA experience. When i take pills, i do not want to get 'fucked'/'munted'/'off my head'. However, due to the crap that most pills contain, i do often end up getting muntered. But i dont see how someone can give an accurate description of the effects of a pill if they are off their head on another drug at the time.
The sad truth is - most pills in melbourne (and presumably the rest of australia) contain little or no MDMA. I have been taking pills for 8 years now, and i remember a time when you used to go into a club, and as you walked across the dancefloor, almost everyone would have a big ecstasy smile on their face, and as you walked past people, they would touch you (in a friendly way). Nowadays you walk into a club, and nobody smiles, nobody whistles, nobody puts their hands in the air, nobody initiates conversations with strangers, and half the people are just sat on sofas muntered.
The people i feel most sorry for are the people who have only started taking pills in the last 3 years or so, because the overwhelming likelihood is that they have never had a proper MDMA pill, and as a result, they think that MDMA is something that it isnt - they think its something that leaves them monged out on a couch for 5 hours, or something that gives them lots of visual halucinations, or something that makes their jaw completely lock shut.
My friend (who is also the dealer i got the 3 recent pills i reported on pillreports from) has annoyed me recently - he keeps kidding himself that the pills he sells are good, even though i know them to be total garbage. Its just that he doesnt know what the effects of MDMA are (hes a pothead anyway, and thats the only drug he really cares about). Recently, he got hold of an 'MDMA cap', opened it up, and a few of us did lines from it. The powder was brown, and completely stank. He said to me 'look at this stuff - it completely stinks of MDMA - it must be really good'. I pointed out to him that pure MDMA powder was white and odourless, but he didnt beleive me. And sure enough, after snorting a line, it didnt do anything for me at all. He said to me - 'what do you mean this isnt MDMA? - its called an MDMA cap'. LOL - i dont even know where to start. Theres just no point in even arguing with someone who thinks that because their dealer sells them an 'MDMA cap', it must contain MDMA. Oh and speaking of MDMA caps, i have also bought MDMA caps off a different source, and they were also garbage - weak as hell and really dirty.
Oh and another thing that bugs me - over the last year, so many people on pillreports have been saying how good the green hearts are. Well i have bought many different green hearts off many different sources (including off randoms inside clubs), and i do not beleive any of tham have contained any MDMA. I beleive all of them have been MDA. I think that a lot of people think that MDA is MDMA. This is almost certainly because they have never had MDMA, and dont know what its effects are. It makes me sad, because in my opinion MDMA is a million times better than MDA.
I think that pillreports has become almost useless - i cannot trust most people's reviews/comments, because they simply do not know what a good pill really is. Although it does still have some use in harm reduction, especially if people have actually tested the pills - i obviously dont want to be taking pills that contain PMA or something else that could actually kill me. But whenever someone says 'good pill', i now always take it with a pinch of salt.
Anyway, if anyone has actually bothered reading down to here, i salute you. I'm sorry if this post doesnt seem to have really gone anywhere - i just needed to get it off my chest.
It makes me sad that it is almost impossible to get MDMA pills in melbourne. But it makes me sadder still that most people dont even seem to care. They just think that a pill is a pill, and just go on taking their crappy pills regardless.
[EDIT: Thread renamed. hoptis]
I would have liked to put this rant on pillreports, but it would probably just get deleted, and i think that this is a better forum for me to vent my spleen, so here goes:
Its really annoyed me for a while that most people on pillreports (at least the Australian section) actually do not know what MDMA feels like. You get people rating pills as '8/10' or '9/10', yet the description they give of their experience does not sound (to me) like MDMA at all.
I should make it clear - I absolutely love MDMA - its my favourite drug by far. The main effects i find it has on me are:
1) It makes me feel incredibly happy, to the point where i literally can't stop smiling (its an amazing feeling)
2) It makes music sound absolutely amazing (the rhythm becomes a part of me, and melodies become truly beautiful)
3) It makes me crave physical contact with other people
4) It makes me crave talking to other people
5) It makes me feel relaxed, my worries disappear, i lose my inhibitions and prejudices - people just become people (not that i consider myself to be particularly racist/sexist/ageist/homophobic/eliteist, but to some extent everyone makes judgements about other people without really knowing them)
6) It makes me empathetic towards others - it makes me a better listener.
7) It makes me open and honest with people - i think its pretty amazing when you have a totally open, honest conversation with someone you've never even met before.
8) It makes me energetic - but not in a speedy way - it does not make every muscle in my body shake with energy, but i certainly do not feel tired when i am high on MDMA. Oh and my body just moves to the music - its like i have no control over it.
OK, now that i have got that out of the way, I will tell you the type of things people on pillreports say that annoy me:
'Great pills - they completely floored me - i was unable to move or speak for 5 hours' That probably wasn't MDMA - like i say, i find mdma to be a very social drug. It does not make me 'monged out' or 'munted'.
'Great pills - i tripped my nuts off for 8 hours - i kept seeing aliens with 10 arms walking around the club' That probably wasn't MDMA - I do get mild halucinations on MDMA - but only very mild. Oh and i do enjoy tripping - but if i want to trip then i will take mushrooms/acid. It is not what i take pills for.
'Great pills - i could barely walk and couldnt feel my legs' That probably wasnt MDMA - in my experience, when i am high on MDMA, i am perfectly able to walk normally. I am also perfectly able to hold a conversation normally. The only difference is i feel incredibly happy. But i do not feel fucked/muntered. Thats one of the beautiful things about MDMA - you stilll have that clarity of thought, and ability to do most things as normal.
'Great pills - i had insane eye-wobbles and i chewed my face off the whole night' That probably wasnt MDMA - it annoys the hell out of me when someone on pillreports is reviewing a pill, and the first thing they talk about is eye-wobbles and gurning/teeth-grinding - in my experience, those are NOT THE PRIMARY EFFECTS OF MDMA (see above for what i consider the primary effects of mdma to be)
'Great pills - the peak lasted an hour, after which i felt tired and went to bed' That probably wasnt MDMA - in my experience, the high i get from a proper MDMA pill lasts AT LEAST 3 hours. If you have really good MDMA pills, you really shouldnt need any more than 4 for a big night out (sadly because most of the pills in melbourne are shit, i often end up taking up to 8 in a night, and still dont get any decent high)
'Great pills - i couldnt sleep for the next 4 days' That probably wasnt MDMA - yes, MDMA is a type of amphetamine, but i find that its speed-like effects are dwarfed by its euphoric effects.
(Note: when i say that all of these pills were probably not mdma - of course, they could have contained MDMA, but they were certainly not clean MDMA)
Another thing that annoys me about pillreports is when people say 'good, clean MDXX pills'. LOL - the whole point of using the term 'MDXX' is that you cannot pinpoint what is in them. The term presumably came about because most pill testing kits cannot tell the difference between MDMA, MDA, and MDEA. But when people say something like 'I beleive that these pills contain a fair amount of MDXX', that is about about as useful to me as someone saying 'I beleive that these pills contain a large amount of baking powder, as well as a small amount of toilet cleaner'. Yes - most pill-testing kits cannot tell the difference between MDMA, MDA, and MDEA, but in terms of their effects, MDMA is so distinct from every other drug i have ever taken. And it is MDMA that i want in a pill - not MDA, not MDEA, not baking powder, and not toilet cleaner. If you cannot tell the difference in effects between MDMA and the other MDXX compounds, then you really shouldnt be writing reviews/comments on pillreports.
It also annoys me when people review a pill, despite being off their face on another drug first - you get people saying:
'I smoked half a gram of ice, then i took this pill. I found the pill to be pretty speedy' LOL - no shit you found the pill speedy
'I took 2 microdots, then i took this pill. I found the pill to be quite trippy' Again, LOL
Personally, i am a big fan of the pure MDMA experience. When i take pills, i do not want to get 'fucked'/'munted'/'off my head'. However, due to the crap that most pills contain, i do often end up getting muntered. But i dont see how someone can give an accurate description of the effects of a pill if they are off their head on another drug at the time.
The sad truth is - most pills in melbourne (and presumably the rest of australia) contain little or no MDMA. I have been taking pills for 8 years now, and i remember a time when you used to go into a club, and as you walked across the dancefloor, almost everyone would have a big ecstasy smile on their face, and as you walked past people, they would touch you (in a friendly way). Nowadays you walk into a club, and nobody smiles, nobody whistles, nobody puts their hands in the air, nobody initiates conversations with strangers, and half the people are just sat on sofas muntered.
The people i feel most sorry for are the people who have only started taking pills in the last 3 years or so, because the overwhelming likelihood is that they have never had a proper MDMA pill, and as a result, they think that MDMA is something that it isnt - they think its something that leaves them monged out on a couch for 5 hours, or something that gives them lots of visual halucinations, or something that makes their jaw completely lock shut.
My friend (who is also the dealer i got the 3 recent pills i reported on pillreports from) has annoyed me recently - he keeps kidding himself that the pills he sells are good, even though i know them to be total garbage. Its just that he doesnt know what the effects of MDMA are (hes a pothead anyway, and thats the only drug he really cares about). Recently, he got hold of an 'MDMA cap', opened it up, and a few of us did lines from it. The powder was brown, and completely stank. He said to me 'look at this stuff - it completely stinks of MDMA - it must be really good'. I pointed out to him that pure MDMA powder was white and odourless, but he didnt beleive me. And sure enough, after snorting a line, it didnt do anything for me at all. He said to me - 'what do you mean this isnt MDMA? - its called an MDMA cap'. LOL - i dont even know where to start. Theres just no point in even arguing with someone who thinks that because their dealer sells them an 'MDMA cap', it must contain MDMA. Oh and speaking of MDMA caps, i have also bought MDMA caps off a different source, and they were also garbage - weak as hell and really dirty.
Oh and another thing that bugs me - over the last year, so many people on pillreports have been saying how good the green hearts are. Well i have bought many different green hearts off many different sources (including off randoms inside clubs), and i do not beleive any of tham have contained any MDMA. I beleive all of them have been MDA. I think that a lot of people think that MDA is MDMA. This is almost certainly because they have never had MDMA, and dont know what its effects are. It makes me sad, because in my opinion MDMA is a million times better than MDA.
I think that pillreports has become almost useless - i cannot trust most people's reviews/comments, because they simply do not know what a good pill really is. Although it does still have some use in harm reduction, especially if people have actually tested the pills - i obviously dont want to be taking pills that contain PMA or something else that could actually kill me. But whenever someone says 'good pill', i now always take it with a pinch of salt.
Anyway, if anyone has actually bothered reading down to here, i salute you. I'm sorry if this post doesnt seem to have really gone anywhere - i just needed to get it off my chest.
It makes me sad that it is almost impossible to get MDMA pills in melbourne. But it makes me sadder still that most people dont even seem to care. They just think that a pill is a pill, and just go on taking their crappy pills regardless.
[EDIT: Thread renamed. hoptis]
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