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Random MSN Gibberings LXXXVIII: Possibly even some shitalin to jazz myself up

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maybe they kept their little valuable pieces of fluffy paper to themselves, and folded them deep inside their pockets for when they were needed. I've been guilty of such. unashamedly in retrospect. keeping ones anus shiny is my own responsibility and as such, something I'd find it hard to compromise on for thee sake of others should difficult times or thee zombie apocalypse present such combatory [? ing? unsure of thee word] circumstances
 
Don't recall combating any combatory zombies in apocalyptic surroundings, to be honest. Except once in the kitchen around lunchtime.

The shiny anus responsibility is a point well taken though. But would've been nice to spread the papery lurve a lil. Compared with smearing the shite with a dayglo popsock anway.
 
good to see you back and around shammy =D thought I'd torture myself trying to type using a ps3 controller. FIFA12 is amazing online :) the word prediction on the ps3 is pretty scay though,lol. here is an example of me just wanting to say good evening and seeing what the ps3 brings up as suggested words.

hibernate pretty scary people and around shammy =D thought I'd torture myself

ok that one wasn't that bad but some suggested words are batshit crazy, lol

shammy, were you around when I became Mugz rather than mugabe??
 
not here though, it was in my 2nd home BDD. They didn't wan't me back though obviously as two others have just joined their gang. I even included a song in my app but it was not sufficient. guess they are not Take That fans!! IT broke my <3 :(
 
Having a bad week im afraid.

Went out last weekend totally oblivous and selfish to have a good time, and was told by a friend of mine whos only 31 that he has cancer, hes got to have treatment.

Not sure how to feel at the moment, a bit shocked.
 
Dee, we don't really know each other very well, but that really sucks mate. I hope he gets better soon.

There is a guy round the corner from me sawing paving slabs?! I'm not going crazy, it is 2 in the morning right?
 
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Having a bad week im afraid.

Went out last weekend totally oblivous and selfish to have a good time, and was told by a friend of mine whos only 31 that he has cancer, hes got to have treatment.

Not sure how to feel at the moment, a bit shocked.
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Fuuuuck mate :( I'm so, so sorry Dee <3
I don't blame you for being in a state of dazed shock man.... Did they catch it early? Forgive me, you likely don't want to be asked such things and I will more than understand if you can't.

Just want to send some love mate <3
 
Carefully skirting too much detail... I can somewhat relate. That cancer thing is a bitch, huh? Especially when imminently terminal. Kinda makes ya wish it were you. Well... me. Not the one suffering anyway :|

At least at 31 the prognosis is probably at the better end no, Dee? As better as the better end gets anyway.

Also not a topic I quite have a handle on yet... but <3 nonetheless
 
Thanks guys.

He has a big swollen lump on his neck. Hes going to have to have chemotherapy. He moved away some time ago and we had a falling out which makes it ten times worse because im feeling twice as bad for cursing and whinging about him the last couple of years, but hes always been my best mate.

First thing he asked me was do I no where i can get a ridiculous amount of mdma from i was like wtf, i went mad.

Anyway, so yeah im very mixed up right now, hes never smoked, lifes a c*nt and some, and i was only going out for a dance and now this.

I am going to paris on tuesday and im just not in the mood :|
 
Sorry dee :( i know it aint the same thing but im keeping an eye on a mate who's on the verge of suicide, lifes fucking shite sometimes.

i'm in a whining mood, i got no money on the gas or leccy meters (and none to put on em) and im near the end of my rope, being told tomorrow if i'm being put on subs for matinence or not. If not, fuck it im out, selling everything i own and moving somewhere warm, Caribbean preferably and get a job in a bar or something, rum and soca =D, il sort out work permits etc as i go along. Maybe then i can save up then and travel, live my fucking dream! I've just never had money.. Bored of treading water, been thinking about it for a while, why can't i just get up and go? There aint too much stopping me :), and if i fuck it up, fuck it, not like i havnt fucked up here already. Anyone here done it?
 
^^ MDMA ftw. The situation here involved a plea for partytimes too. Can you really blame anyone for wanting to feel good when it seems they'll never have the chance again? Not me. Only madness I feel is for those that are saying *person involved* should just accept the last few months of pure hell with a grin and bear it. Fuck that. The person in my situation is truly terminal though - was in remission for well over a decade prior to that - so is a different thing. At 31 and with strong possibilty of recovery the pure hell bit is probably worth a whirl. All that chemo and radiotherapy stuff is brutal as fuck... but it does seem to work and provide for many a year afterwards. Indefinitely even. There's never no hope till there's really no hope <3
 
not meaning to mention poker again or the healing power of positive thought but Doyle Brunson who won the WSOP 3 times had terminal cancer throughout pretty much his whole body then it just vanished :/ there are tons of other anecdotal stories of people with terminal illnesses recovering because of positive thought patterns. I'm not saying it will cure everyone but it's something to research. Look into Dr Emoto's water experiment too for some more stuff to attempt to verify the power of intention. I believe intention and 100% belief can accomplish anything. Look into that experiment with the water though please, it might give everyone some more hope :)
 
In hindsight I dont blame him no, i was just being my protective self i think.

My mind was just thinking, rest up, eat good, do yourself some good, we can worry about the partying bit after your treatment and once youve fully recovered you no.

Anyway, i want to encourage him good things so next month im going to go down and take him for his favourite meal fish and chips by the sea and maybe see a film or something. Apprently while hes having his treatment he cant go out in to strong sunlight as his skin will burn, this is a learning process for me hes been filling me in on whats going to happen and what he can and cant do.

I am currently reading stuff online, i havent been sleeping well this week at all, so im trying to find out as much as possible.
 
yes, if anyone knows any good books then feel free to mention them, id like to buy him a book with a positive message that he may find comforting and rewarding to read. may sound a bit girly but who cares, this is my mates life and health, im sure hes not worried about reading a soft book right now. :)
 
Doesn't sound "girly" at all :) Just sounds caring.
I mentioned this the otter day actually:
The Tao of Pooh
When you discard arrogance, complexity, and a few other things that get in the way, sooner or later you will discover that simple, childlike, and mysterious secret known to those of the Uncarved Block: Life is Fun.

The wise are not learned; the learned are not wise

A well-frog cannot imagine the ocean, nor can a summer insect conceive of ice. How then can a scholar understand the Tao? He is restricted by his own learning.
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I can totally understand that he would want to get some MDMA in him. The positivity it would provide would help him
And I'm sure you know about all the studies that MAPS have done when it comes to people with terminal illnesses who have been given Psilocin and gaining a much calmer and serene thought when it comes to facing the prospect of passing away.
And MDMA being used to treat PTSD in combination with Therapy with fantastic results.

You're a really good friend Dee, I'm certain he wishes for nothing more from such a friend <3
 
I know a smidge or so about chemo and shizz but that's about all really cos I'm not sure I want to know too much and *person* doesn't wanna let on. All I can say is that it's not nice. Not at all. Truly shocking to see, in fact. But it does work when it does work. And when it does it can work amazingly well - added ten years to a someone I know who had a form of the cancer thing so rare she made it into medical history. Not a pretty thing to observe though, to be honest. Let alone experience :\

But effective. And that's the main thing really.

As for books, I bought *person* a book of mediaeval Persian love poems which were certainly positive. And not a mention of cancer to be found therein. She enjoyed words within said book. Can't imagine owt worse than some vile "positive message" Oprah-sanctioned style cancer patient book meself but each to their own. Anything given with <3 espousing a message of <3 surely provides <3

<3
 
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