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Hey peoples,
how we today, another long night of talking with the missus has been the best thing i needed, it was fate that she found them because i woulda become a benzo muncher in secret n possibly killed myself n she wouldnt of known, also the guilt i feel bout staying home whilst ill(but also taking drugs) while she was out working has hurt me, its time for me to grow up and be them man she deserves, she is the best gf i could ask for, and she doesnt mind the occasional weekend dabb;le just not use the way I use which is like hobbyist usage :(

aw well your all prob sick of this now but im happier then i have been in a few days and i think i may be getting better, docs tomorrow tho so want full blood/piss/poo samples cuz i wanna know whats lurking in me..

nice thing to read at 7.50am

ah well this is the gibberings thread :P


cheese guys
 
Cheers dude, its tough innit when you love someone and you also love drugs, person HAS to come first, drugs are everywhere, that special person isnt..

why abit of tesco murder? was there meself less then 15 mins ago gettin a pack of skins lol
 
Sorry i didnt read much breakcorefiend, but what was the situation? Benzos behind the GF's back?

hope it all goes well.
 
yea BnB it was a stash of 100+ variety of benzos that i had hidden, to be honest it was a touch of god she found em cause i prob woulda killed myself or munched em all and died in w/d's lol so everything happens for a reason and yes thanks dude things are getting better, i have ALOT of trust to rebuild but we are strong enough to do it :)

cheers again mate
 
Its fukin shite weather 2day so glad i'll be in Spain this time 2moro.
Re. The trainspotters Keynsham is a weird ass place and it doesn't surprise me at all , i kinda feel that i missed out i wanted 2 see the 118:( Mugz saw it n ididn't.
 
Oh shit sorry mate that doesn't sound good, hope it all goes ok! And don't don't use those benzos on the regular!
 
breakcorefiend said:
Cheers dude, its tough innit when you love someone and you also love drugs, person HAS to come first, drugs are everywhere, that special person isnt..

why abit of tesco murder? was there meself less then 15 mins ago gettin a pack of skins lol
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Yup it really is, I love my girl to absolute fucking bits, and i'm losing her to drugs. She's found pins in my room before, so i've always been honest and she's been the best I could ask for. But she just found my methadone the other week and she just can't take it no more, thinking it means more to me then her which is so not true. Shit times.
 
CbRoXiDe said:
Yup it really is, I love my girl to absolute fucking bits, and i'm losing her to drugs. She's found pins in my room before, so i've always been honest and she's been the best I could ask for. But she just found my methadone the other week and she just can't take it no more, thinking it means more to me then her which is so not true. Shit times.
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Thats it my friend, you have to make the choice, is she more important then getting high? and also that your on done is a BIG step to getting away from pinning isnt it? surely a step in the right direction, i hope it all works out for you mate i really do, you HAVE to be honest with her, i mean EVERYTHING :S
its really hard sometimes when you look into the eyes of someone you love and have to tell them something that WILL hurt them but truth has to come first

Good luck dude

hope it works out

Oh shit sorry mate that doesn't sound good, hope it all goes ok! And don't don't use those benzos on the regular!
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Cheers dude, im sure im just run down n stessed out with work n all that n my immune sys is low but using benzos aint helping! plus we discussed it and gunna get rid of most of em and keep a comedown supply which SHE will look after (to be honest im happy with that situation cuz sometimes i just cant help myself)

Cheers for the support tho dude :) means alot! glad i found BL you guys are nice ppl! :D
 
breakcorefiend said:
Thats it my friend, you have to make the choice, is she more important then getting high? and also that your on done is a BIG step to getting away from pinning isnt it? surely a step in the right direction, i hope it all works out for you mate i really do, you HAVE to be honest with her, i mean EVERYTHING :S
its really hard sometimes when you look into the eyes of someone you love and have to tell them something that WILL hurt them but truth has to come first

Good luck dude

hope it works out



Cheers dude, im sure im just run down n stessed out with work n all that n my immune sys is low but using benzos aint helping! plus we discussed it and gunna get rid of most of em and keep a comedown supply which SHE will look after (to be honest im happy with that situation cuz sometimes i just cant help myself)

Cheers for the support tho dude :) means alot! glad i found BL you guys are nice ppl! :D
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She means so much more to me then drugs, i'm allready starting to lose her, but i'm changing, something different inside this time now i've got something that actually means something to me on the line. I normally don't care.

And yup, not all us druggy bastards are horrible cunts. Stay strong aswell mate <3
 
CbRoXiDe said:
She means so much more to me then drugs, i'm allready starting to lose her, but i'm changing, something different inside this time now i've got something that actually means something to me on the line. I normally don't care.

And yup, not all us druggy bastards are horrible cunts. Stay strong aswell mate <3
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Trust is what is gunna have to be earned for you i think, if she loves you and can see you are willing to change for her then ask her for her help to do so, be as open and honest as you can be, trust me it feels fantastic being able to be truthful about anything!

Hope it all goes well and keep me informed :)

peace bro <3
 
i really hope you both sort it out. sounds like you've both got the motivation. i do think this 'you love drugs more than me' attitude is a bit shit, its kind of manipulative,i suspect what it really means is 'i need more compliments.' they should be offering support not whinging about not getting enough of an ego boost from you.

there are times when one particular type of intoxication or another is far more important to me than my relationship with my boyf, not good i know, and he's the same at times, we don't guilt trip each other about it. we both know we probably like to get wrecked a little too much and show support and concern when thats causing problems rather than get aggy about it...... well in all truth we prob get slightly aggy then move onto support/concern.

what i mean is it sounds like your gfs are using these facts against you, when they should be the people you can most trust not to do somehting so shitty to you.n hopefulluy i've totally misread all your posts.....

well, morning all. i have to leave the house in 10 mins to get to my sanity check. bleurgh.
 
chinup said:
i really hope you both sort it out. sounds like you've both got the motivation. i do think this 'you love drugs more than me' attitude is a bit shit, its kind of manipulative,i suspect what it really means is 'i need more compliments.' they should be offering support not whinging about not getting enough of an ego boost from you.

there are times when one particular type of intoxication or another is far more important to me than my relationship with my boyf, not good i know, and he's the same at times, we don't guilt trip each other about it. we both know we probably like to get wrecked a little too much and show support and concern when thats causing problems rather than get aggy about it...... well in all truth we prob get slightly aggy then move onto support/concern.

what i mean is it sounds like your gfs are using these facts against you, when they should be the people you can most trust not to do somehting so shitty to you.n hopefulluy i've totally misread all your posts.....
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Ummm... either that or she loves him and is sick of watching him deteriorate into what sounds like a significant addiction?

Mollycoddling someone with unreserved empathy and understanding in the hope that it will change addiction-related behaviour is optimistic. If somebody's loved one is a pushover, then the grip of the substance (if not the individual themselves) will more than likely take advantage.

Humans are, ultimately, fairly selfish. However, in their defence, they are quite capable of making rational decisions when faced with a simplistic enough option.

I think that's what his partner is doing: providing a simple enough option - no doubt in a mixture of selfishness and love to an end of self-preservation.

That's not to say that this approach is universally successful, or even universally applicable.
 
Hahaha ahh chinup, you see the thing is, its my fault, i was the sneaky one, she is fine with me dabbling, its when i lie about it to her face is when she gets annoyed and the trust is gone etc, yea i wish she did more drugs but i completely understand her reasoning not to, to be honest the wway i posted made me out to be the victim wheras it was all MY fault i and i can completely accept that, she is only worried after all, and im so thankful i have someone who loves and cares enough for me to be like this, even if it isnt a nice experience, but one i will defo learn from :)

Hope you have a nice day chinup :)
 
tambourine-man said:
Ummm... either that or she loves him and is sick of watching him deteriorate into what sounds like a significant addiction?

Mollycoddling someone with unreserved empathy and understanding in the hope that it will change addiction-related behaviour is optimistic. If somebody's loved one is a pushover, then the grip of the substance (if not the individual themselves) will more than likely take advantage.

Humans are, ultimately, fairly selfish. However, in their defence, they are quite capable of making rational decisions when faced with a simplistic enough option.

I think that's what his partner is doing: providing a simple enough option - no doubt in a mixture of selfishness and love to an end of self-preservation.

That's not to say that this approach is universally successful, or even universally applicable.
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this, well said tambo mate, i am a selfish cunt when it comes down to it so i got alot of things to work on so its all good, cheers again though :)
 
Ok well looks like i gotta get my ass in gear and leave my nice warm flat and commute like a tin o fuckin sardines across london..fun times, speak to you all soon :)
 
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