ok people, i think it is time i make a big change in my life, i am sick of the sneaking around with my girlfriend i want to be honest with her but i also dont want to hurt her in the process but inevitably it comes back and takes a chunk outta my ass, cutting out benzos, unless comedown tools, no more compulsive lying,you know when you want to tell the truth you but you dont because you A- dont want the grief B- dont want to admit you have a problem C-dont want to hurt your loved ones and D-drugs are not more important then the person you love..M*** i mean this and i am willing to change, its hard putting myself in your shoes but i am trying, remember im still an immature lil fuck with a lot of growing up to do but i will get there as long as i can have the chance and your willing to help me, i dont know what more to say
i love you and am sick of being this deceitful cunt to you
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