Omg man the say us junkies are lazy Fuckers but they don't know this shit is a 24/7 job. Constantly hustling to support a habit,doing odd stuff, stealing, dealing, robbing, begging, lying, deceiving, and a million other things chasing something that is unreachable....you never get to catch the dragon

. The life of a junkie is very tiring, full of misery and despair. I've been 10 years in and out of Rehabs, doing every drug possible to make the pain go away but sadly using drugs make the pain from our trauma go away for a bit but the wound from our traumas get bigger with time. It gets to a point when we are just completely fucked and the idea of getting clean seems more bleak and being sober is just not an option anymore. I'm not on maintenance drugs but I'm still chasing the dragon although this time I'm using for medical reasons, I'm in true pain now, rofl.
We are the hardest working people on Earth but also the most sensitive people whom had a rough path through this life and tried to play a game where u never win, I'd like to go back In time and toss that first needle from my hand but what's done is history, we can't change that. For the young people who are reading this: getting into the game is for losers only. Stay in school, eat your veggies and exercise. Nothing in excess. While I meditate I'm reading Opium thx to my dear friend
@TheUltimateFixx who sent me a copy.mad luv for him. In the mean time.....I scratch my body and wait for the next dose.