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Looking back at those notes i think part of myself advocates for insane doses for the first time like the 60s because people will never get that chance again but also how dangerous it was i think people should always start low.
It is indeed strange, in the modern era we all tip-toe around introducing people to psychedelics. My friends and I split a ten strip of acid that had just been dropped on a strip of cardstock for our first time, we were all pacing in circles, communicating telepathically, I recall my body and mind extended past physical boundaries, the works. We didn't sleep till the evening after (being 19 year olds without alcohol access) and I recall at times wondering if I'd gone insane.

I've only had three or four trips maybe since then that were that intense, and never have any been quite the same. Acid still has the power to catapult me into infinite timelines but I find myself not aiming for doses that high any longer. Really it has been at least a year since I've had any and I quite miss it as psilacetin has been my go to but I never really liked it (or mushrooms) in the first place. I think I take the psilacetin frequently as an answer to the boredom of homebound life and some sort of masochistic side of me that really needs to fuck off already. As if I deserve to be punished by the mushroom spirit ad nauseum...
 
I got teased by a funhouse jammed full with harlequin trickster entities once when I smoked some changa during a pharmahuasca experience. That's the closest experience that I've had to a difficult experience, but it was fine.
 
Was going through my old stuff where i happened across my old notebooks from my college days and in it was my diary and started reading it and it contained all my writings within the months after my first acid trip on those 3 tabs. Every time i got high i would have like major psychotic flashbacks and non dualistic energy and would be doing like mental hand murdas for hours while writing down everything that was flashing before my brain remembering every aspect of the trip and integrating it. I was really far out there during that time. I was utterly convinced i had created the universe that time was a illusion that 15 trillion years had passed since my face exploded on LSD and also massive loops of rambling about what the fuck in the universe happened to me and what is a universe? Bought some deep memories to the surface i kind of remember those flashbacks and how intense they were and how i didn't have any one to relate to because only my plug did acid.

I remember rambling about the void how everything is a illusion the ego is a illusion that we are the universe experiencing itself and that if we tap into reality we can be any age we want to with our awarness like we could be 10 seconds old or 7.2 billion years old. I also believed i was simply a quantum flucantion of consciousness that was creating this entire thing we called a universe each moment in frames of time that existed in a singularity. For months i was convinced my daily life was a false waking dream and that i would soon wake up for real out of this infinite loop trip. I would do all sorts of weird things with my body trying to channel this energy of god crazy hand stands walking around in a circle for hours. Jesus looking back i did not fully realize the extent of how far i lost my mind and that i somehow got it back eventually as i let the energy and experince process through my mind over the years.

But the themes remained the same reaffirmations that everything was god was interconnected and that everything that will happen as already came to pass and we are moving through frames of time forever. I also believed that human kind had been wiped out by a burst of gamma rays in the future and that we all acutally dead and just reliving our memories forever. I think i need some hypnosis to try uncover alot of those memories of the trip because im sure there is so much that is just blacked out. But i truly think i lived a few trillion years.

Looking back at those notes i think part of myself advocates for insane doses for the first time like the 60s because people will never get that chance again but also how dangerous it was i think people should always start low.

Orange sunshine in 1969 at 300 ug would of been the most insane experinces for everybody back then but they had better settings and proper guides. Its all about having proper guides like they had in the brotherhood days. If i had a proper guide i would of been alot better off for tripping for the next years after that experince as i would of been able to process reality properly instead of going off the deep end.
Sounds like a solid Philip K Dicking
 
Insane LSD trip Sunday to Monday night- legit 1875 ug. Deepest Ive gone since 2012. Totally wrecked today still. Was an amazing trip though. Proper sparking, electric luminescence and transcendence. 145 grams kava as well as loads of edibles and vaporized cannabis.
You mean Mudras right? Yoga hand poses. Real stuff that does work. I tried them in 2012, except I developped major repetitive strain injury in my hands and all the way up my arms as a result due to abnormalities in my muscular and soft tissue systems, which is a funfamental feature of chronic fatigue- impaired and inefficient muscle/soft tissue recovery and repair.
 
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Remember when 25E-NBOH came out and people were raving about it, saying it was their favorite psychedelic ever? I haven't heard anyone mention it in what seems like forever. That seems odd to me.

I never did bother with it because NBOx seen sketchy to me, but I was happy that people seemed to like it. Then it seems like everyone moved back to other psychedelics.
 
I have tried one blotter of it so far but I found it wasn't quite enough so I added some LSD. I plan to try 2 blotters sometime, but not in a hurry, I have some other things ahead of it (DOB, TMA-2, probably DOPr again).
 
I did 25e and I wouldn't consider it in my top anything. Maybe you're referring to a similar or related substance. I was dosing it via the nasal route in a spray bottle. It just made things look wacky and gave me bad body load. I've never seen my penis shrunken to that size on any other substance. Repeated it a few times but nothing much of value there for me despite me giving it rave reviews here when I first tried it. Best to avoid that entire class in my honest opinion.

Back when it was going around locally I saw a couple of freak outs happen on it at local outdoor parties (don't want to call them festivals). Stuff was being sold as "liquid LSD" to teenagers and newbies. It was disgusting and I bet a lot of them never tried proper LSD after having a bad experience with it. Stuff is basically just pure eye candy with a bad body load. I pushed the dose, can't remember how high, and it never developed a good headspace. I'd just spend the duration terrified that I might end up one of the unlucky few that died from it.

A friend got my bottle once and sprayed like 5-10 doses before I could wrestle it away from it. He spent the night staring at Animal Planet and I spent the night worried he'd die. Not a fun time.

MDMA on the other hand is amazing. Took 90mg or so about an hour ago. Working just as good as my usual dose of 120mg. Been wasting so much MDMA over the years I think. Shit has been in my freezer for nearly a year now. I have just enough left for a fun time with female company. Going to save it and hopefully enjoy it with a new lazy friend in a few weeks. I hope the vial of L I have in there maintained its potency as well as this did. Finally have my own place again and can properly store my fun stuff. ;)

BTW speaking of MDMA have any of you guys managed to have a full blown orgasm on it without external stimulation? Last time I dosed MDMA I did about 100mg or so snorted. I never snort MDMA and it burned something horrible. The come-up was so intense. I thought I'd taken too much for about 15-20 minutes. Right as it leveled off I had an orgasm without even thinking of anything sexual. It just kind of happened. I wonder if women's orgasm feels that way. I had the full body shakes going on and everything just like they do.

I'm going to wake up tomorrow and realize I posted too much information aren't I? :)

I love MDMA and I love you all. Really needed this tonight. Been so depressed with the political situation and virus. I'm fearful the Government is going to start rounding us up man. Every time I turn on the TV they're calling white people terrorists and they promote nothing but hate between the races and sexes. If we had any sense we'd get rid of all these fucking rich evil people running the world. We don't even have to be violent about it. A citizen can arrest anyone for treason. If we just formed a group of like minded people, put aside our differences, and arrested all these people we could change the world for the better. They divide us on purpose and see us as cattle. Trust me I know, cattle is my business and that's how rich people view us. They don't even try to hide it just read their books and minutes of their meetings.

Don't let them convince you your neighbor is evil. Even if he fly a confederate flag and owns 1000 AR-15s I bet he's a cool dude that just proud of where he comes from and believes in the constitution. The day bubba and his AR-15 are rounded up is the day we lose what little freedoms we have left. We don't even have freedoms anymore honestly. They've chipped them all away throughout my life time. 9/11, patriot act, the massive spying by the 5 eyes, running social experiments on us via social networking, and the cancel culture. It's all by design. We're no better than cows to them. America hasn't been a real republic since the end of the first civil war and the bankers taking over in 1913.

Keep an open mind and remember all this social justice BS started during Occupy Wallstreet. We scared the shit out of the bankers and elites when we protested against them 10 years ago. They sent controlled opposition into the crowds and taught them to hate each other with the so-called "progressive stack". It doesn't matter what sex, race, religion, or background you have. They'll use everything they can to direct your attention to anything but the scam they're pulling on all of us.

We need to stop paying taxes, we need to get back to building local communities, we need to start demanding audited elections and stop voting for the same assholes every 2-4 years, we need to stop buying into people like Trump and Obama. They're two sides of the same coin. They're just there to make you feel like you're winning. You aren't. You're losing more and more every year and they all work together to keep it that way.

I want to go back to sleep man. I want to go back to the days when I gave no fucks about the state of the world and was content nodding on opioids every night without a care in the world. I can't go back to sleep though. My eyes are wide open now and I'm going to wake up every person I can. I'm going to look out for my local community. I'm going to do the one thing that pisses the Government off the most: Have as many babies as possible and mold them into future leaders. I won't allow my kids into the public schools. I won't let them be assaulted with endless propaganda like we were. Public school is shit all it teaches you is to follow orders and go where you're supposed to go when the bell rings. All it does it teach you how to conform and work in a factory. Our children deserve better than that.

Holy shit this is really good stuff. Sorry I type like 190WPM when I'm rolling. lol
 
One more thing before I fuck off and find something better to do with my hour or two of MDMA peak. Am I the only one disgusted by the state of the internet and the web? We took the greatest invention of all time and turned it into commercialized bullshit. I hate it. I miss when you were told never to give out your real name, never tell people where you really live, never share too much about yourself. We took a great library of information where I could talk to any smart person in the world and turned it into this.

Remember when the web wasn't centralized? Remember when there were thousands of forums like BL where you could talk to interesting people? Remember when everything wasn't hidden behind reddit upvotes, facebook groups, twitter hashtags, and discord servers? Remember when no one gave a fuck about what was "trending"? Remember how it was before the censorship? Remember when looked down on China for their Great Firewall instead of implementing it everywhere? Remember when social media didn't exist and people weren't so willing to share every mundane thing about themselves?

I'm sick of the me me me culture. I want to go back when I could find an interesting website or software project. I want to go back to when I could contribute to a project without a bunch of retards digging into my past and trying to shame me for something I said 20 years ago on a mailing list when I was a dumb teenager. I used to talk to so many interesting people man. None of them knew I was just some dumb 12 year old from the middle of nowhere. They would have conversations with me like I was their equal and no one gave a fuck if you were white, black, blue, a dog, or what gender out of 20,000 available in the list you were.

Things have changed so much for the worse. I knew things were awful years ago. But recently I bought someone a shotgun for Christmas. I had to do the background check. The state asked me if I was Male, Female, or Non-binary. WTF man? I almost picked non-binary for shits and giggles but I was paranoid they'd deny me haha.

I miss the 80s, 90s, and early 2000s. The internet being in everyone's pocket has turned us into horrible people. We aren't supposed to live like this man. I shouldn't have to dodge retards streaming their lives to the world when I'm 10 miles down a hiking trail. Worst part is those people won't even acknowledge you when they go by. They're more concerned about their image and raking in donations from the stupid people that send them money for reasons I will never understand.

Oh no I posted another novel. Time to go play my arcade machine man. I'm going to sign in tomorrow and laugh so much. I always come here and overshare when I'm on this shit. I swear I'm not usually like this. I really wish I had someone here right now to share this with. Think this will be the last time I take MDMA alone. I need to start taking it with close friends and people I care about again. This stuff is a god send. I wish I could share it with my grandmother but her heart couldn't take it. I wish she could experience the pure love I feel right now for her and everyone in my life. I wish we could just feel this way all of the time. Maybe one day we'll evolve to the point where we don't need drugs to feel this way.



^ I'm at 15:43 in this album. Take some MDMA and catch up. :D
 
Yeah, I feel the same way about the internet. It makes me feel sad and old :(.

Centralization is the worst thing to happen to the internet. I've been talking about it for the last 12 years.
 
Nose feels pretty stuffy after sniffing 300mgs Ketamine last night on 30mgs 4-AcO-DMT and GHB. Was wild time but my stomach kinda hurts today and the Bupe isnt helping I have to make sure to only use the G very infrequently honestly it deff has some effect on my belly that is unpleasant. Nowhere near as bad as booze but it's certainly not transparent by any means. It feels so god damn amazing tho and has such a lure to it.
 
It sure does. It's a sneaky one. And yeah, it definitely does have some gut effects, but nowhere near as bad as GBL, I hear. My nose has been clogged for three days after insufflating a small amount of 3-FPM. I may have to restrict that one to oral
 
It sure does. It's a sneaky one. And yeah, it definitely does have some gut effects, but nowhere near as bad as GBL, I hear. My nose has been clogged for three days after insufflating a small amount of 3-FPM. I may have to restrict that one to oral

Personally i wouldn't even take GBL after hearing stories like this and 1,4 BDO is much harder on you than GHB also. This is doable as long as i don't binge and do it daily and knowing that will happen allows me to stop myself cuz I have stomach issues on a normal basis as it is. I will probably have this bottle for awhile i have like 24mls more and like to dose around 2.5mls first and 3mls second dose and that usually knocks me out for some time and i can get some sleep on notes where it would not be happening otherwise. I find it really hard to sleep on Dissos but not so much when I have GHB handy, i could always get more also i know a few people that sell it these days.
 
It sure does. It's a sneaky one. And yeah, it definitely does have some gut effects, but nowhere near as bad as GBL, I hear. My nose has been clogged for three days after insufflating a small amount of 3-FPM. I may have to restrict that one to oral
Watch out with the drug, it is deceptively harsh on the body, and lingers for much longer than you’d give it credit for. I loved snorting it a little too much, I’m glad I didn‘t try smoking it but I have read enough @F.U.B.A.R. stories ( =D ) to dissuade me from doing it when productivity was my primary goal.
 
My eyes are wide open now and I'm going to wake up every person I can. I'm going to look out for my local community.


Woah that was some good MDMA you were on when you wrote that huh 🤣

Man I could go for some MDMA, it's been forever but I haven't wanted to go on the darkweb cause I'll probably buy other stuff too.

Plus, in the end, as "eye opening" as it feels, I feel like I never really got anything out of it in the long term. Really nice stuff though.
 
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I did 25e and I wouldn't consider it in my top anything. Maybe you're referring to a similar or related substance. I was dosing it via the nasal route in a spray bottle. It just made things look wacky and gave me bad body load. I've never seen my penis shrunken to that size on any other substance. Repeated it a few times but nothing much of value there for me despite me giving it rave reviews here when I first tried it. Best to avoid that entire class in my honest opinion.

Back when it was going around locally I saw a couple of freak outs happen on it at local outdoor parties (don't want to call them festivals). Stuff was being sold as "liquid LSD" to teenagers and newbies. It was disgusting and I bet a lot of them never tried proper LSD after having a bad experience with it. Stuff is basically just pure eye candy with a bad body load. I pushed the dose, can't remember how high, and it never developed a good headspace. I'd just spend the duration terrified that I might end up one of the unlucky few that died from it.

A friend got my bottle once and sprayed like 5-10 doses before I could wrestle it away from it. He spent the night staring at Animal Planet and I spent the night worried he'd die. Not a fun time.

MDMA on the other hand is amazing. Took 90mg or so about an hour ago. Working just as good as my usual dose of 120mg. Been wasting so much MDMA over the years I think. Shit has been in my freezer for nearly a year now. I have just enough left for a fun time with female company. Going to save it and hopefully enjoy it with a new lazy friend in a few weeks. I hope the vial of L I have in there maintained its potency as well as this did. Finally have my own place again and can properly store my fun stuff. ;)

BTW speaking of MDMA have any of you guys managed to have a full blown orgasm on it without external stimulation? Last time I dosed MDMA I did about 100mg or so snorted. I never snort MDMA and it burned something horrible. The come-up was so intense. I thought I'd taken too much for about 15-20 minutes. Right as it leveled off I had an orgasm without even thinking of anything sexual. It just kind of happened. I wonder if women's orgasm feels that way. I had the full body shakes going on and everything just like they do.

I'm going to wake up tomorrow and realize I posted too much information aren't I? :)

I love MDMA and I love you all. Really needed this tonight. Been so depressed with the political situation and virus. I'm fearful the Government is going to start rounding us up man. Every time I turn on the TV they're calling white people terrorists and they promote nothing but hate between the races and sexes. If we had any sense we'd get rid of all these fucking rich evil people running the world. We don't even have to be violent about it. A citizen can arrest anyone for treason. If we just formed a group of like minded people, put aside our differences, and arrested all these people we could change the world for the better. They divide us on purpose and see us as cattle. Trust me I know, cattle is my business and that's how rich people view us. They don't even try to hide it just read their books and minutes of their meetings.

Don't let them convince you your neighbor is evil. Even if he fly a confederate flag and owns 1000 AR-15s I bet he's a cool dude that just proud of where he comes from and believes in the constitution. The day bubba and his AR-15 are rounded up is the day we lose what little freedoms we have left. We don't even have freedoms anymore honestly. They've chipped them all away throughout my life time. 9/11, patriot act, the massive spying by the 5 eyes, running social experiments on us via social networking, and the cancel culture. It's all by design. We're no better than cows to them. America hasn't been a real republic since the end of the first civil war and the bankers taking over in 1913.

Keep an open mind and remember all this social justice BS started during Occupy Wallstreet. We scared the shit out of the bankers and elites when we protested against them 10 years ago. They sent controlled opposition into the crowds and taught them to hate each other with the so-called "progressive stack". It doesn't matter what sex, race, religion, or background you have. They'll use everything they can to direct your attention to anything but the scam they're pulling on all of us.

We need to stop paying taxes, we need to get back to building local communities, we need to start demanding audited elections and stop voting for the same assholes every 2-4 years, we need to stop buying into people like Trump and Obama. They're two sides of the same coin. They're just there to make you feel like you're winning. You aren't. You're losing more and more every year and they all work together to keep it that way.

I want to go back to sleep man. I want to go back to the days when I gave no fucks about the state of the world and was content nodding on opioids every night without a care in the world. I can't go back to sleep though. My eyes are wide open now and I'm going to wake up every person I can. I'm going to look out for my local community. I'm going to do the one thing that pisses the Government off the most: Have as many babies as possible and mold them into future leaders. I won't allow my kids into the public schools. I won't let them be assaulted with endless propaganda like we were. Public school is shit all it teaches you is to follow orders and go where you're supposed to go when the bell rings. All it does it teach you how to conform and work in a factory. Our children deserve better than that.

Holy shit this is really good stuff. Sorry I type like 190WPM when I'm rolling. lol
Oh my god this post nearly perfectly explains why I have turned into a total shut in, pace miles a week inside my living room, am grinding my teeth into sand, and struggle to not revel in disgust for the human state, literally concocting ways to punish myself for being the same species as those destroying the world.
It is the basis for why I believe self esteem and the pursuit of happiness are just our collective egos justifying our defiling of... everything.
Unfortunately I have hyper-cynical attacks and can't see much of the supposed good in the world because I'm too busy trying to martyr myself to wipe all the accumulated bad karma from all of human history.
Usually these waves come and go and I can get to a better place. But this last wave came on and has just gotten worse over the course of the last few years....
 
I agree about the state of the Internet, it's really sad and upsetting. But inevitable, I am not at all surprised.

I also agree about the divide and conquer techniques being used. We're being turned against each other, when it's the people in power who are the enemy. It's scary how much disdain and even outright hatred has been drummed up in some peop,e, though.
 
Oh my god this post nearly perfectly explains why I have turned into a total shut in, pace miles a week inside my living room, am grinding my teeth into sand, and struggle to not revel in disgust for the human state, literally concocting ways to punish myself for being the same species as those destroying the world.
It is the basis for why I believe self esteem and the pursuit of happiness are just our collective egos justifying our defiling of... everything.
Unfortunately I have hyper-cynical attacks and can't see much of the supposed good in the world because I'm too busy trying to martyr myself to wipe all the accumulated bad karma from all of human history.
Usually these waves come and go and I can get to a better place. But this last wave came on and has just gotten worse over the course of the last few years....
The thing about pandemics that really marks them as different from other natural disasters is that rather than bring people together to work towards a common good, they tend to drive people apart and further splinter society.

Over the last year, I noticed that I have been becoming a more selfish and self-centered person, that I've been losing touch with a lot of my empathy. After asking around, that's been a pretty common experience. While it may make sense that it's happening, it's not desirable for me. I feel worse when I see that I'm siloing myself off from other people's needs and find myself just protecting my own.

There are a lot of ways of dealing with that. Community service and engagement is one, making donations is another. Neither are particularly easy when I live in a country with the highest infection rate in the world and when my income has tanked. There is another thing, though, that has worked really well for me. After a year of not meditating at all, I've started practicing metta meditation. It sounds corny and it feels totally forced at first, but it has really helped me to re-orient my values and my instincts. The irony is that I'm doing a solo activity working to cultivate compassion for my own benefit because leaning into selfishness and misanthropy to protect myself from the hurt and disappointment I feel towards the rest of society actually makes me feel like shit when I really pay attention. And I don't like feeling like shit. And it turns out that this self-gratifying practice also happens to make me less of an asshole and more concerned about the well-being of other people, so it's a win-win for everyone.
 
I recommend Sharon Salzburg's early podcasts on the topic. Because if anyone is going to convince cynical me that I should cultivate loving-kindness towards all beings, I want them to be a salty old New York Jewish lady. That's a perspective that I can take seriously.
 
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