Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Ugh.
This happened to me a few years ago, except for me I was gone working, and right when I got back in to town I got food poisoning, and then I went home (I had a cat/house sitter who was family) my cat died. Had a lung infection that took him out and my family member didn’t realize it was happening. Still a little fucked up about the experience even though it was a couple years ago now... So that hits me right in the feels
For me, it was extra fucked up because my girlfriend was watching my cats (we live together). My girl cat who died could be quite annoying and insistent and my girlfriend was extra depressed at that time and she noticed that my cat wasn't coming around much like usual, and just ignored her because it was nice for her to not have to deal with her. She told me that she had thrown up and seemed like she was walking funny, and I was going to come home a few days early from my detox retreat, but she convinced me it was probably nothing. Then I got home and saw my cat and I was like what the fuck, she isn't good at all! She clearly was deathly ill. She purred a lot when I found her, but wouldn't even open her eyes. I took her to the vet hours later, and the vet saw her and was like oh man, yeah there's probably nothing we can do. I had them draw blood in case there was something, and I went to run an errand, and when I got back, she had passed. My girlfriend was horribly guilty and traumatized by it, and I was a weird combination of angry at her, and compassionate towards her, because obviously she didn't mean for that to happen. She was 16 years old, but she had been healthy, I had gotten her surgery to remove cancer a year before, we think that one time that she got out she ate a poisonous plant, she had a weird thing where she ate every plant she saw, like entirely consumed, she'd eat flowers in a single bite and take every flower off a plant and then start eating the leaves and stems down to the ground, it was super weird.
We both struggled with guilt after that. I relapsed and never told her because she felt horrible enough already. My girlfriend cried for hours every single day for like 3 months. She told me she had never hated herself more. I eventually was able to tell her I forgave her, but I don't think she accepted that, until one day I had eaten some MXiPr, and she broke down once again, and I got enveloped by a magic similar to MXE's magic, and we had the most amazing conversation, where we both felt that I was inside her head. We talked through a ton of stuff, not only about my cat but also about her own trauma from her dad and stuff like that. Ever since then she has been happier and more at ease.
Sorry about your kitty too
