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Hey willow! Yep the partial community is back!

So I decided to stop using loperamide in my saga to get off opiates, it feels unhealthy and there are some real horror stories, and it won't ever stop the withdrawal. 2 days ago I had poppy tea, yesterday I had nothing, and today I am alternating feeling really uncomfortable and mostly comfortable. I hope I can resist going out to get some poppy tea.
 
Xorkoth said:
Hey willow! Yep the partial community is back!

So I decided to stop using loperamide in my saga to get off opiates, it feels unhealthy and there are some real horror stories, and it won't ever stop the withdrawal. 2 days ago I had poppy tea, yesterday I had nothing, and today I am alternating feeling really uncomfortable and mostly comfortable. I hope I can resist going out to get some poppy tea.
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What do BL'ers think about buprenorphine? If your insurance covers it, seems like it'd be easier/cheaper to use it to slowly taper rather than having to deal with poppy tea.
 
I find myself bolting to PD social every day when I wake up now. And every chance I get throughout the day I'm checking to see if there are new posts. This is the pull it used to have for me a few years back. I'm glad it's so active.


Xorkoth said:
Hey willow! Yep the partial community is back!

So I decided to stop using loperamide in my saga to get off opiates, it feels unhealthy and there are some real horror stories, and it won't ever stop the withdrawal. 2 days ago I had poppy tea, yesterday I had nothing, and today I am alternating feeling really uncomfortable and mostly comfortable. I hope I can resist going out to get some poppy tea.
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Good luck with stopping opiates. I gave them up about a month or so ago. The physical wd sucks but it's over pretty quick. It's this long lasting depression that gets the best of me.
 
I feel like I'm 17 again XD.

IDK, I'm probably just going to get some heroin & coke, speedball the night away :\. Either that or I'm not going to do anything; turning 22 kind of makes me want to vomit as it fills me with anxiety over growing old. How about yourself?


And yes, we have the same birthdate--do you know what time you were born? I was ~4p EST. Let's see who's older :D
 
I've been back down to .5mgs per day, oddly enough the opposite way this time. .5mgs during the day when I start to feel kinda weird and Melatonin at night to get a couple hours of on and off sleep. I've only been at the .5 for a couple of days. Feels like a brutal fucking cycle. That mixed with the lingering depression from my last bout with opiates and I'm pretty fucking lethargic and useless. Basically I've just been wasting away in the corner of a room waiting and trying to find the hope to believe I will be done with all of this soon and just stick to psychedelics part-time.
But you know how it goes, that new bottle will get picked up and without even thinking I'll be back on 4-5mgs per day. It's a lot easier to taper when you only have a few pills left a week and a half before you can refill. I'm not even an anxious person, so retarded to have even gotten into this.
I just want pot to be my benzo again.
 
I can't believe you guys have a hard time finding K. Go to any music festival on the east coast and people basically just go there to do/sell k half the time. New York has had a huge supply of k for like the past 2 years at least. I have such a tolerance to K at this point that 170mg wouldn't make me feel the way 50mg would have when I first started taking it. I suppose I just need to not take it for like a year, but because its a around so much that's kinda hard haha.

I wish you guys could all come chill and smoke pot and do k and watch Valley of the Dinosaurs with me haha. It's spring break and this cold weather is giving everyone cabin fever :o
 
Dondante said:
What do BL'ers think about buprenorphine? If your insurance covers it, seems like it'd be easier/cheaper to use it to slowly taper rather than having to deal with poppy tea.
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It probably does but can I just go to the doctor and get it?

Bob Loblaw said:
I feel like I'm 17 again XD.

IDK, I'm probably just going to get some heroin & coke, speedball the night away :\. Either that or I'm not going to do anything; turning 22 kind of makes me want to vomit as it fills me with anxiety over growing old. How about yourself?


And yes, we have the same birthdate--do you know what time you were born? I was ~4p EST. Let's see who's older :D
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Ahh, wait til you hit 30...
 
I have such a tolerance to K at this point that 170mg wouldn't make me feel the way 50mg would have when I first started taking it. I suppose I just need to not take it for like a year, but because its a around so much that's kinda hard haha.
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arent you afraid of your bladder? or do you have to do 3 grams a day to fuck it up.
 
Buprenorphine is the most abused opioid in Finland. Thats fucked. I don't think it can compete with full agonists in any way.
 
Last night my almost ex-wife and I talked and started discussing the next steps for making divorce happen, which was good, not wanting to involve lawyers or courts, just agreeing to take the stuff that is our individual stuff. Then at night when I was in bed relaxing, she called again. I ignored it, but she called like 6 times in a row and finally I answered (she does that, it's annoying). Then she said she wanted to continue our conversation, but that she wanted to do Facetime (video call). As soon as I saw her it was like a lightning bolt, I haven't actually seen her in 5+ weeks. So many feelings came back, it was extremely intense. We actually both just stared at each other for like 5 minutes without saying anything. Then one of our cats who is living with me jumped up on the bed and I asked if she wanted to see her. She did, and she just started bawling, it was really hard to watch. And then we just stared at each other with nothing to say for like 20 more minutes... just sharing in the tragedy of how it turned out. It's almost making me cry thinking about it.

I kinda wish she hadn't wanted to Facetime, this was getting easier before that. At the same time I'm glad she did, it makes my emotions more honest. And that freaks me out.
 
Bob Loblaw said:
IME I had to visit a certified bupe doctor (there were like two in Winston, so I imagine there's only one in AVL) & it was straightforward after that.
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Okay I will do that I think. I did end up having some today, drinking the poppy tea now. I wanted to stay away from lope for a few days before potentially trying to use it lightly at the worst times because I've been using it almost every day for quite a while. I have heard fantastic things about suboxone when used correctly though, and tapered properly. I am such a little bitch when it comes to opiate withdrawal. It's like I just can't stand the pain. It makes me feel all that's wrong with the world, really acutely, and anything is better than that. I start welling up all the time. Not to mention the extreme discomfort but if it was just that I think I could deal.

I have my cravings much more under control, I don't think about opiates all the time. I feel much healthier mentally but my addiction is clinging on for dear life. I think I have to do something about it. Years upon years of this, all while resolving to quit nearly every single day, proves to me that maybe I can't do it by myself.
 
xammy said:
arent you afraid of your bladder? or do you have to do 3 grams a day to fuck it up.
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ya I've never done more than a gram in one sitting, although camp bisco was basically 3 days of a k hole in a row, I've only done it a few times a weekend or biweekly at most. I have felt slight bladder problems but nothing more than a little urinary retention and cramps within hours of ingestion. My gf thinks it gave her her kidney stone 8o

the tolerance is mainly to the actual physical feelings of dissociation, that cold removed feeling is like way less pronounced than it once was. also I assume to k-hole I would need like well over 300mg in my nose. Maybe another roa would make it more potent, my nose could be pretty fucked at this point :\
 
IM would be fantastic for you probably it's also more immersive than nasal can be (I haven't done it because I don't do needles but that's my understanding - plus the dose is lower I think). Rectal might work as well as IM roughly, it does for most things but check on that first because I am not positive about K.
 
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