LSDMDMA&11759006 said:
Like I said, give it time for balance to be restored. These things will get better after a while.
For me quitting ketamine was relatively easy compared to quitting benzo's which are said to be at least as horrible as heroin to get off, I didn't really experience a drawback from K like protracted w/d's but more like protracted side-effects such as messed up memory and sense of place and time.
What really fucked me over with benzo's was chronic insomnia / general restlessness / overexcitability / anxiety / fear. That just took time, although some problems are really persistent.
Medication helps. Unfortunately normal downers of course are a temporary - and not clean - solution that leave me worse afterwards than how I started. But mirtazapine fortunately helps me sleep and eat and I feel relatively normal and stable and well-humored on it with little or no fear. Though somehow it can make me feel weird as hell sometimes, like really out of it, and a lot of the time I don't really give a shit like I normally would. But can still get motivated to do a lot of creative work and stuff, I think it might dial my obsessions back a bit although it is still often a bit more compulsive than passions.
I realised relatively recently that if I don't get out of the house for a few days or a while I get withdrawn in a weird state where I start fearing going outside and meeting people and handling all of that. Yet whenever I do go outside I adapt quickly and get over it. But I didn't learn from that, because each time it happened again and I felt like I couldn't imagine how it would be outside just like depressed people often cannot really imagine feeling alright. Or like when you are hurting badly you almost forget what it would be like to have no pain.
I feel like psychedelics made my consciousness much more fluid and dynamic, but also volatile. It can help with creativity or analysis but it also tends to make me lack structure and regularity.
So... I need to stay grounded in the world, by going out of the house enough and staying in touch with people.
It's such a shame that I can't trip though, I really miss it. Never really had much of a problem with it, well at least not in these last years. Some say you can see if psychedelics still work, they do for some on these meds... and I am on a really low dose indeed.
But I read about someone getting difficulties breathing with mushrooms, arguably an anxiety reaction I'd be willing to counteract... but I also want to be careful. It's possible that I will try titrating a homogenized preparation very reservedly.
@ Just a Guy: what conditions did you operate under?
(Sorry, I always call you "slip" in my head.)
I'm surprised nobody else has an opinion on this. Personally, I absolutely agree that caution should be observed against excessive patriotism. In my opinion, a mandatory pledge of allegiance almost implies that the country and its culture and government should be worshipped blindly and unconditionally, which is not giving children enough healthy skepticism.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
