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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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So I've been using suboxone, again, to try to come off of kratom. This time I have been a lot more disciplined. I have only had 2 doses so far, and the last one was on Sunday. It held me until yesterday, and I took gabapentin yesterday (making it 3 days since I took gabapentin too, I have been nervous that I was catching a dependence to it, because I was taking it every other day for a while, in order to have good days while I was on kratom because when heavily into kratom it doesn't make me feel good, only just barely not sick from kratom withdrawal - kratom SUCKS to be heavily addicted to because of this). I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I'm really surprised. I'm gonna try my hardest not to take any suboxone until a time comes (if it does) that I am withdrawing. I honestly am not sure how this is possible, but I'm gonna go with it and pray that I somehow managed to get through acute withdrawal without picking up a suboxone dependence. Gonna go work out at lunch time, I need to start that again and it helps so much. No time like the present
 
Fucking hell I think I screwed up my Pharmaceutical Sciences exam, AGAIN. I just didn‘t have enough time…

Last time I actually had 66/100 points in total (you need 60/100 in total to pass) but failed since you also need at least half of the points in every single part of the five (5 parts x 20 individual points = 100 points in total). I had 9/20 points in pharmaceutical technology last time :‘) and I have a feeling it‘s gonna be similar this time.
 
Was listening to that album by Woods today and remembering this 30mg 4-OH-MiPT trip that was just incredibly euphoric and visual. Had nausea on the come-up but once I was there and got absorbed into the music it was just astounding. During the peak I posted this same song and @Dondante said how much he loved it, I miss that dude any of your hear from him lately. Haven't seen him posting in awhile.
 
He hasn't posted in here in forever but I bet he's doing well. I know he's a doctor. Chances are he's just too busy and/or grew out of using drugs due to his profession and/or having kids (dunno if he has kids but it's very possible)

I used to be Facebook friends with him, probably still am, but I haven't logged on there in years.
 
Xorkoth said:
I used to be Facebook friends with him, probably still am, but I haven't logged on there in years.
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Not even a peek?? Or a slight inclination to type facebook.com in the browser....

Quite strange, at the very least I'd be curious at how much worse and slower the UI got in the meantime =D it's okay now, but it was really horrendous for a very long time after their switch to the new version.
 
Xorkoth said:
He hasn't posted in here in forever but I bet he's doing well. I know he's a doctor. Chances are he's just too busy and/or grew out of using drugs due to his profession and/or having kids (dunno if he has kids but it's very possible)

I used to be Facebook friends with him, probably still am, but I haven't logged on there in years.
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Don't blame you for not going on Facebook I'm not really into it either. I post every 6 months or so and let people know I'm still alive, it's the only way I communicate with my extended family pretty much. I'm at job interview now and they have had me waiting for like 90mins it's crazy. The last job was a nightmare so I decided to look around more. I hope this place works out after investing this much time, they gave me fries and soda tho so at least I got a meal out of it. Glad I said yes to the food, it hit the spot.
 
Did I mention to you guys me and that Dead Head girl are now legit boyfriend/girlfriend. She even went to shows and actually got to see Jerry in the line up. Honesty I'm in love with her already, we are getting tickets to see Dead & Company at Citi field this summer I'm pretty stoked about it honestly. She is so beautiful too, exactly my type she is only 5 foot tall and so cute, almost ten years older but she looks hot. Life has been going pretty well if only I could land this job and I'll be set.
 
Well I have second interview tommorow it went really well today, they want me to meet the other manager. They were showing me around the kitchen and the menu is pretty straight forward, pretty sure I can get this off. Only drawback is it starts at like 20hrs a week but that's better than nothing, they said once I got it eventually I will get full-time. Feeling pretty good about this tho, fingers crossed.
 
You fall quick Charlie! But glad it's working out, just don't try to put too much on her too fast, unless she's saying she loves you too, then, well, good for you. :)

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Not even a peek?? Or a slight inclination to type facebook.com in the browser....

Quite strange, at the very least I'd be curious at how much worse and slower the UI got in the meantime =D it's okay now, but it was really horrendous for a very long time after their switch to the new version.
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Nope, I never even think about it. It just turns me off I guess. The last time I went on there, I replied to a post from an old college friend who lives in Europe, about Americans and guns. I shared an anecdote about my cousin who is a flag waving gun nut, who only ever talks to me about how Obama/Biden is going to take his guns and he's stocking up and they'll take them over his dead body. I didn't even mention my cousin by name, and he doesn't know anyone involved in that thread. But like 15 minutes later he's blowing my phone up about how disappointed in me he is, it was huge drama, he called me and ended up going off on my mom for an hour. No privacy whatsoever, I guess he was just checking out whatever I was doing (which was literally just that post, I was on for 10 minutes). I was like nah, fuck this.
 
Yeah facebook is weird. I log on once every week or two now because I don't live near any friends anymore so I just kinda use it to check in on people I wouldn't normally reach out to text or whatever. Most people just post pictures of their babies or themselves out drinking so I'm like meh... boring stuff lol
 
Xorkoth said:
You fall quick Charlie! But glad it's working out, just don't try to put too much on her too fast, unless she's saying she loves you too, then, well, good for you. :)
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She tells me she loves me back already also it's been a month since we first started talking, maybe that is pretty fast but it's too late now. We talk all the time when she is available some points of the day when she is teaching her classes we have to hold off. We are like love struck teenagers tho for sure. She was in this really abusive marriage and her ex used to cheat on her for years, she is really into all the love and adoration I lay on her. I'm happy that it helps her self esteem cuz I truly do care about her deeply.

She is just such a good person and I'd totally excepting of me and all of my issues I have with drugs. Pretty much she just wants me to be healthy and happy and is fine with me taking psychedelics in the future. She just doesn't want me abusing narcotics and shooting dope which is totally understandable. Love how we are into the same kinda music it's a huge plus and we enjoy alot of similar films/shows it's so refreshing.

Seriously I hit it out of the park with this one and I'm not gonna fuck this one up, seriously no more Dissos or Benzos for the rest of my life. Really have a good opportunity to build a beautiful life for myself with an amazing women. The chemistry between us is off the charts also, we can't stop kissing and touching on eachother constantly when we are together it's really special.

When I broke up with my ex from NYC I never thought I would meet another woman I could feel like that for again, I got all hung up thinking she was my soulmate and I ruined my life forever. Don't think that is true now and yes it's early in this relationship but I could see it blossoming into a similar situation down the road and have a future with her where I am truly happy. Right now I just need to focus on finding a good job which may have already just happened and saving money to rent another apartment around here someplace.

One major obstacle is the fact I'm on Methadone and she lives in NY damn near Connecticut and I would be really hesitant to move out there cuz I have to be close to a clinic. I may have to transition to Suboxone again down the road cuz it will make the move possible but I will cross that road when it comes to it. For right now we just see each other on the weekends and text and talk on the phone during the time we are apart. If it is truly meant to be all this stuff will sort itself out in time.
 
i aint been much on bluelight. Life is fucking busy. But i am doing well. Last year broke me, Fake women used me for everything. I nearly exited the game of life. The lockdowns broke my will completely.

But i have recovered from last year. I enjoy my life atm. And when i least expected it i met some really nice people.

I really prayed and i sometimes swear the universe does listen. Just thinking back 6 months ago i was really in a dark place about to crack totally and do some bad shit. I hit rock bottom, had no money and my mind was spun out from all the lies everybody had fed around me, getting sexually assaulted by a women, and cheated on in a period a few months. I spent a few months going back to my roots. I had to travel back to where I came from. Spent alot of time in solace to rebuild myself.

Fuck i purged out so much emotions and negative energy. I had just let it flow. Let it out. Now i am freed from that pain. I came out even stronger.

The universe taught me some harsh lessons. I will cherish those lessons for the rest of my life. I needed them to get to where I am today. I have a clear vision of what I want. I now know the importance of setting healthy boundaries so people don't take advantage of me.

And glad to see you alive and well charlie. Missed you man.
 
Jesus christ my mortgage company won't leave me alone. I refinanced last year and they still call me literally once a month, and they'll call like 10 times a day until I answer, and then they are super pushy trying to sell me a refinance. They always tell me it'll be low closing costs and blah blah blah, and the time I actually went through the process, the closing costs ended up being $10,500. So I was like no way and didn't sign it. That was at least at a time when my rate would have gone down a bit, now they're trying to sell me a loan at a slightly HIGHER rate, and convince me to take out more of my equity. They're always like "well let us at least do a free mortgage review". Turns out those are a hard inquiry which hurts your credit. So what, you guys want to hurt my credit every month when I keep telling you I'm good and to stop calling? I'm starting to get really snarky whenever they call. The last time they told me they wouldn't call again but they're doing it now. Just leave me alone! If I want to refinance again, I will call you. Fuck's sake...
 
I'd say that 2C-E is the best psychedelic drug.

It covers all the bases for me I've probably taken it maybe fifty or sixty times over the years. Aside from Mushrooms it's the one I dosed the most followed by LSD and then 4-AcO-DMT. When I end this haitus from tripping I will be taking 2C-E like between 15-20mg is the range I go for which is full on insanely powerful OEV's. It's so beautiful the come-up can be jangly but once you peak it's breathtaking.

It was actually my first RC what feels like forever ago now. If you plug it pretty much eliminates the body load but oral dosing has a certain sparkle to the visuals that gets lost with other ROA's.' Im probably gonna vape DMT as I start to comedown and drag out the experience and throw a little twist in there, I can't wait.
 
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