I feel really bad....there is more. Later I said to him, "I hope I'm not one." The best I can explain for that is, I've done a lot of weird drugs. " The psychedelics as well as (I believe kappa hallucinations from high dose opiates) make me conclude a lizard might be a spirit animal of mine....but not too sure as I prefer parrots and turtles to lizards, still my best friend always says Im a lizard when we get too krazy so.....
I said, "I hope I'm not one." And he said, "Did you just say you hope you don't see that" (a reference to his experience of seeing our master transform) and I lied to end this insanity, and said "yes."
Still, wtf?!?! Why did I say "I hope I'm not one" and then delude him further?
I wrote him just now...
"B, I consider you friend and I must address this lizard issue. I have no proof of lizards, literally all of my information is from crazy websites. For me, proof is at least two peer reviewed journal articles...ie science. Anything short of that is faith, hearsay, or opinion."
But then I went on, "That is not to diminish anything we say, see, or experience. I'm just suggesting that lizards or no lizards, I have no proof but there is sooo much science can't explain and since I'm not a priest, wizard, or shaman and therefore I officially say..."
The passage continues;
"Lizard information is theoretical at best, as far as I know."
I still don't feel this was kosher!