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willow11 said:
AMT is very very very very very very very very very very very very stimulating. Very.

Its great :)
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Willow! Have you been hiding in the PD Social General thread? Because I've been hanging out in the swirly thread and I haven't seen you post in a little bit! I'm glad you're enjoying the AMT! You just reminded me that (I think) I have a bit of AMT in my collection that I never got around to trying. I need to find the perfect concert psychedelic, and I think AMT might be a good candidate.
 
I've been helping one of my best friends deal with an increasingly bad relationship situation for almost a year now, and it's gotten more and more intense. I spent last night until like 5am talking him through some stuff... I truly hope this time he really cuts ties and moves on, because it's gotten to the point I'm truly worried about him and his wellbeing. Every day he talks to me about it for like 2 hours, every single day, so I feel quite invested in the situation, and I'm the only person he really has to fully talk about it with. It's so frustrating because he just endlessly loops about it, and it's difficult to see any real progress being made. His plan today (at least as of the last time I talked to him about it, 20 minutes ago) is to go to her house, pick up the last of his stuff, and tell her this is not working and goodbye and cut ties. I hope SO BAD he does this. A bit selfishly, because it's getting really hard to be brought into this every day, and painful to see my friend suffering, but mostly because he's gonna end up in a really bad place (possibly involving legal trouble) if he doesn't stop it.

...urggggggggh, so tired...

TheAppleCore said:
I don't like aging anymore. Aging was cool until I turned 21. 22 was annoying. I wanna be forever young!
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I actually like being in my 30s. Late twenties were hard for me, and weird, but once I hit 30, it felt different. I definitely feel like I'm in the prime of my life now at 32, I know more about myself and what I want, and my mind is working better than it ever has. Plus I have a lot more confidence.

willow11 said:
AMT is very very very very very very very very very very very very stimulating. Very.

Its great :)
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I find it to be fairly stimulating, and quite heart-opening. Great stuff. :)
 
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Xorkoth said:
I actually like being in my 30s. Late twenties were hard for me, and weird, but once I hit 30, it felt different. I definitely feel like I'm in the prime of my life now at 32, I know more about myself and what I want, and my mind is working better than it ever has. Plus I have a lot more confidence.
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That's fantastic. You're one of many people who I've heard express something similar. Once you cross the threshold of 21, I feel like society says, "Congratulations on adulthood. You're officially done growing up." But honestly, in my early twenties, I still feel like a baby in a lot of ways. Maybe ten or twenty thousand years ago, humans were done with psychological development by now, but in 2016? Not even close.
 
My grandfather and last grandparent died two weeks ago. He had so bad dementia that he didn't even remember me, he barely recognized his son. He was living in an institution already for a year or so.. I think it was his time to go honestly. That's not a life worth living anymore imo...

Anyway it looks like I'm getting another quite large inheritance.. I don't know how to handle money that big, I'm pretty scared actually. Don't know anything about investing and so on. Don't want to end up wasting that money on something like drugs. I need to be very careful.
 
Sorry to hear about that Xammy. I wouldn't make rash decisions with your new money. Here's what I'd do painted with a broad brush. Pace it out. Avoid making major lifestyle changes cause lifestyle requires upkeep and that drains. As a first pass strategy, a few mutual funds for long term growth (reinvest dividends) and spread some money out of reach in bonds with varying lengths of maturity (but not too long) and don't hold too much liquid cash. Bonds aren't a great investment but they're safe and don't depend on market conditions. Major life (and market) decisions will be dependent on either liquidating mutual funds (which you can sell easily but it hurts a bit to get out of the market) or waiting for a bond to mature. You're going to want to talk to a financial advisor, but be clear first about some of your main objectives. Keep the good times flowin' for years to come.
 
Xorkoth. Brake rotors are eSy to replace yourself (if you dont allready do them yourself). I have disk brakes myself, and just replaced my front two pads/rotors. Rockauto.com has a ton of parts many manufacturers and are dirt cheap. I would look around youtube (i find a lot of the best information in the comments section. You could get pads/rotors for all four corners for less than $200. Shop will charge you $600-$1000 includong labor (for a job that maybe takes them an hoir total. Make sure your caliper slide pins are freely moving, as that can cause uneven braking/wear. I popped off the rubber bushing/boot and cleaned the fuck ouuta the hole the pins go in. Replaced pins and rubber part for like $10 for two corners.

Also, my insirance offers roadside assistance for like $2 a month. Worth it IMO.

Xammy, if I came into some money, I would probably find a decent piece of land. Buid a small and suatainable shelter. Figure out how to grow all my own food. Say fuck this world. Spend my time enjoying life.
 
yepyepwoah said:
Xammy, if I came into some money, I would probably find a decent piece of land. Buid a small and suatainable shelter. Figure out how to grow all my own food. Say fuck this world. Spend my time enjoying life.
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True dat...id look into Costa Rica or somewhere in central or south america...pretty cool place and removed (to a certain degree) from the problems and headaches in the first world. Property is relatively cheap too...even now...rain forest, mountains, beaches, surrounded by beauty. Its the spot brahs, I'm telling you.

That's what me and my lady are hoping to do in the next ten years. Get the Fuck outta dodge...esp if billary or the trumpmeister are President.
 
yepyepwoah said:
Xorkoth. Brake rotors are eSy to replace yourself (if you dont allready do them yourself). I have disk brakes myself, and just replaced my front two pads/rotors. Rockauto.com has a ton of parts many manufacturers and are dirt cheap. I would look around youtube (i find a lot of the best information in the comments section. You could get pads/rotors for all four corners for less than $200. Shop will charge you $600-$1000 includong labor (for a job that maybe takes them an hoir total. Make sure your caliper slide pins are freely moving, as that can cause uneven braking/wear. I popped off the rubber bushing/boot and cleaned the fuck ouuta the hole the pins go in. Replaced pins and rubber part for like $10 for two corners.

Also, my insirance offers roadside assistance for like $2 a month. Worth it IMO.

Xammy, if I came into some money, I would probably find a decent piece of land. Buid a small and suatainable shelter. Figure out how to grow all my own food. Say fuck this world. Spend my time enjoying life.
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Thanks man, yeah, I do my own pads, but I haven't done rotors. I had the impression they were easy to do though, so I definitely will. :)

I had my Spring awakening this weekend... I felt life open up into that beautiful effortless flow of the beautiful side of the year. Great things are ahead. :)
 
Replacing the rotors isn't too much more of a job beyond pads if you've got the tools. Was a bit fiddly on my Skyline, but really you just undo a couple of extra bolts holding the calliper in place, sit it to the side gently (since it's only attached to the car by the lines now, likely rubber and relatively old), and then for most vehicles I've dealt with the rotor is simply sitting in place over the studs. Slide off, slide new one on, bolt calliper back in, viola!

If I came into a large inheritance, I'd certainly want to ensure the majority of it was placed somewhere secure. Either a wise investment, or term deposit account of kinds. Depending on my situation, I'd only spend some on things I needed. Aside from that, I'd 100% want to get a nice piece of land and set up a self-sufficient home to get away from all the bullshit of relying on the system so to speak.
 
i'm sitting at the infusion clinic getting my first dose of chemo right now.

got some good news about my treatment... i was under the impression that i would be doing four chemo cycles of four weeks each. turns out my cycles are only three weeks, and i only get chemo doses during the first week of each cycle. so i'll be done getting done a lot sooner than i expected... may 13th will be my last dose of chemo if all goes according to plan.

that first week of each cycle is going to be a bit of a bummer, tho. i'll be sitting here at the infusion clinic for about 7 hours every day this week. need to be here at 8am, and i live an hour away.
 
That's intense man. I hope you're doing ok (under the circumstances).

Admittedly i don't have a great understanding of what chemo does to you.
Does it fuck with your ability to concentrate? 7 hours is a long time, i was going to suggest you get some good books to read, but i'm not sure how incapacitating it is whilst the infusion takes place.

Regardless, take care man. That's some heavy heavy shit <3
 
so far so good. the nurses say i won't notice any of the negative side effects for at least a few days. days 7-10 of each cycle are supposed to be the worst, and i won't even be getting any chemo those days... it just takes awhile to do its thing.

i'll probably be getting the typical side effects eventually tho. hair loss, fatigue, nausea, vomiting, etc. tho they've got me on three different anti-nausea meds, so maybe i'll be okay there.
 
All the best man. I havent interracted with you much on BL, but i sincerely mean it.
I've had a couple of friends in their late 20s and early 30s beat cancer. It's a fucking cruel illness, but it seems like you are keeping a strong determination in confronting this - and that is the best you can possibly do.

Stay strong, and keep your chin up. I hope the side effects of the treatment are minimal, and it knocks out the cancer.
 
the nurses here say that every once in awhile they'll see a young guy like me come through and not get any side effects. keep all their hair, never get nauseous, etc. so i'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.

and definitely trying to keep a positive attitude about it. :) which is supposed to be half the battle.
 
Good luck, pharmakos! I'm praying for you, buddy.

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On another note, I don't believe I've congratulated the new PD mods: Kaleida, 240sxlover -- thanks for volunteering your time to help keep this forum running smoothly!

I got stuck in a euphoric-stimulant cycle and haven't even had a desire to use any of my psychs, even when I didn't have any stims available. I remember how well they helped me cut out previous addictions, so I'm thinking of dosing later today, for purely therapeutic reasons.
 
I stayed up really late 2 nights in a row, Saturday and Sunday (partied Sunday til 6am and worked on music recording Sunday til 4:30/5am), and Monday morning my throat hurt a bit, like just in this one concentrated spot. I smoked a lot of cigarettes Sunday night which is unusual for me. I also vape with an eCig which has been feeling bad to me lately, it actually feels worse than occasional cigarettes by a lot. Anyway, yesterday my throat hurt but it was no big deal. Today, it hurts a LOT, still that same spot. I looked and felt around and it appears my right tonsil is swollen to the point that it's totally firm. It hurts quite a lot to swallow, but I don't feel sick. I really want to avoid the doctor because I'm trying to pay for fixing a bunch of stuff on my car and my insurance won't pay until I meet a $400 deductible for the year, so I started taking some amoxicillin I got for a throat pain a while ago that I never took it for, in case it's bacterial. Or maybe I just really aggravated my throat, I seem to recall swallowing something and maybe scratching my throat. I just really hope I'm not sick again, I've gotten minorly sick like 5 times since the Fall, it's really strange. And now it's Spring, I want to feel good...
 
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