How's life Bluelight PD Social Thread... Ethereal, Bizarre, Dirty with a side of Gnar Gnar, maybe Sixto Rodriguez, the Sugar man himself playing guitar? (If you've never seen the movie "Searching For Sugar Man or heard of Rodriguez and like old 60's-70s psychedelic music, give it a watch it's an incredible story) I've never posted in here before although I was previously instructed to years back during the MXE days for being a topic drifter and non listener. I finally found it. I was reading some old posts the other day, bored, and realized that I used to claim I was going to write a book in some fashion or another about good ole Maxine... I'm glad I never tried or did, but I realized looking in my closet that I have probably 100+ 2-3 subject notebooks FULL of Poetry, Philosophy, Stories, Songs, so much spontaneous Disco art and creation - but I had and still have not many ideas of what to do with it.
So I went to the Words Forum here on BL and started a Dissociative Poetry thread for Weirdos. I'd would be legitimately psyched if anyone who likes to write would take the time to post words you've written of any type, style, length or concept - or even favorite trippy concepts, philosophies, stories that the nature of the adventure is poetic. I don't know, anything that inspires you. I'm going to start using some of the down time that I have right now to start posting my favorite art from the past 7-8 years. It's a damn large suitcase fulled of the known and unknown. If you like to read Poetry, As an Artist and Human Being any feedback is much appreciated and I'm always interested in chatting with like minded individuals and working on what I like to call "Postal Service (the EDM group) " type art projects. Canvas exchanges, Music.... I turn 35 this year, and while I feel like I'm 21 - I seriously don't have any interesting humans left to chill with or make art with where I live so I'm trying to find a way to still enjoy the spark that creating random art projects with friends or strangers alike can be. I've been a visual artist for 16 years now, I've only been writing since 2011/2012. Opinions are appreciated.
I was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Order this past summer (I always thought I was Schizophrenic) and they started giving me Dextroamphetamine to help with the disassociation. I actually feel comfortable talking to people and being social for the first time in my entire life... but I don't know how socialize. That may sound really stupid, but I'm like a kid at a best a teenager in that regard. I'm actually really content being alone and living in my own world that I've formed over the years, I travel it and understand the quirks well - but I've stayed inside long enough, it's time to come out of my shell and somehow I've got to learn. I have so much that I finally want to share with actual people, I'm still trying to figure how to not bother or annoy anyone while attempting to grow as an individual. Anyone that's ever dealt with this, I'm super open to advice on this topic. I'm also kind of just thinking in text right now - this disorder makes for no bullshit, if you aren't a cop or snitch I've live a really unique and interesting life with stories that, who knows maybe everyone who parties has crazy stories, I guess to end this rant - if my posts seem fucked, take 2 mins to tell me why. I've never been a part of any community before, social or otherwise since I was 16-18 and was coming up skateboarding. I don't fit in anywhere or with anyone where I live. I don't know who I could relate to more than Psychedelic Enthusiasts or the mentally "ill" which is just perspective. I've always valued BL since I first found out about it, I feel like this is a good place to start.
Peace to everyone. Back to your normally scheduled programming. I know how lame this makes me sound in every way a failure as a human since we're all social creatures by nature. I'm not slow or a dummy in any way - I'm just severely out of touch. I'm very aware of myself, and what people generally think, I've been fucked with consistently during my life. I reach out to and try and help anyone that I can, my only request is don't mistake seeking knowledge and wanting to better oneself for being lonely - there are other people in my brain that used to be enemies who are now friends, I have friends in a way.
What do people do nowadays other than watch Netflix? No one does cool shit anymore where I live. It's a bummer. This question is for anyone. I don't understand what people who aren't artists or play sports/ride bikes do with their free time other than drink or go to the bar. Thank You.