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opiates... how far would you go?

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drug-strugler617

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i found my self thinkg yesterday wouldent it be convient if some how i could allways have oxys then stared wondering if it would be worth it for me to get hurt to have a script.

lets say plate in my arm or somthing ? i was watching you tube and saw the "guy get hit by a icream truck" an my sick twisted mind said that guy is gonna get the bomb meds now. i dont wish this on myself....getting hit by a truck like that must be beyond horifying, but may be like a brokn arm wouldent be that bad ...i know this is sick so save your rude comments .

im an addict and am inlove with getting high...really in love , i was even thinking would i ever pay someone to hurt me ? but i dont think i would get my oxy 80's from a near arm break ...so im not shore it would be worth it , i dont think it would be worth the pain or sickness you would have to endure to get the 80's

it would have to be somthing life altering and i pray that never happens ...but maybe 40mgs? or roxi 30's? like 120 a month? what do you guys think? this is obviously for the people who are tru opiate addicts...id like to see if im the only twisted thinker on here...wht would you do what would be worth it what injury would you pick? its all hypathetical i just dont have anyone to talk to im alone in my addiction thats why i like this site so much , lots of people i can relate to

thnx

me-
 
i'm only responding to this to get bluelighter status. dude, go get some serious substance abuse counseling. I know this kinda thing happens every day, but asking us how to do it is sourcing basically. Not gonna do it. You are NOT the only one on here who's thought of hurting them self to score painkillers. I'm sure many of us have done it. But for you, don't. I already know that it's just gonna make your life much, much worse. Seriously, think about it. Really think about it. Intentionally causing pain or injury in the sake of getting high...that's the stuff SERIOUS mental illness is made of.

Please get help ASAP. Please dude.

LBL
 
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im not asking anyone how to do it im just wondering if people have thought of it ...it was more of a hypeathetical question ....if i want meds ill just go to the er and get some , and i would never follow through with hurting myself like i stated its just not worth it . i just never get a chance to talk to other addicts and im kinda the black sheep ....im sorry if i posted anything wrong just speakin my mind , if the adminastraiters want me to dealete anything i gladly will dont want to get in trouble so soon...i really like this site.
 
No need to delete anything, there's been more fucked up shit posted on this site before.
Anyways, you'd have to be a REAL addict to want to hurt yourself for opiates.
 
I get 2 forms of morphine, Valium, and Marinol for Leukemia. I wouldn't say I'm lucky, but I do like getting the morphine.
 
Thinking about paying someone to hurt you to get opiates prescribed, aye? Um, time to leave the love of your life alone, walk out on it. I hope you are kidding around with wanting to hurt yourself for meds. This is something that should not be discussed if you're sane or maybe you are truly this addicted to opiates.

If you do hurt yourself, you will need meds but wont help you because your tolerance is probably high. Also, they will not prescribe you oxycontin for broken legs or arms. They might prescribe percsbut this is still a bad idea.
 
I met a few people in detox who had hurt themselves for pain meds and really regretted it. Personally im quite addicted and I know what your saying I feel like a total scumbag I just took 2 vic 7.5s which is not even going to touch me until I mix it with shit but anyways my grandfather has an abscessed tooth and is in writhing pain he took 2 or 3 passed out and dun dun dun dun here comes super doper to scoop your meds! Uhg! I hate this shit I want to be a kid again...
 
I have thought about this alot actually. Like yesterday I realised one of my boobs has a huge mass in it I was actually excited thinking I had cancer :\ turns out its normal for dudes my age. I knew a dude who was on drug court he got someone to run his leg over with a car he still didnt get any pain meds.
 
I did it. I got herniated discs like most people on earth do. Called the pain management doc in town that everyone goes to to get stupidly high amounts of narcotics. Needed 3 months of doctors notes showing treatment for the pain, a prescription history, and an MRI. I go every 28 days and get 256 30s a month. Worse decision I ever made. I am so deep in to this addiction I see no way out. I sell the oxys for my bills and heroin because the oxys dont cut it anymore. I'd recommend treatment before you end up like me, but you asked how to do it, there's your answer. I ain't here to judge. Just giving you my experience. Took 3 months of doctors visits, and MRI and exaterating my pain. Now I got what I thought was the answer but instead I got a heroin habit I wish I never had. I used to have a townhouse and a Benz. Now I am jobless, scraping money together for bills, and hoping the repo man can't find my car. I did get in to the pain management clinic though. Mission accomplished.
 
wow ...thnx for sharing lozgod

its a no win situation, i just got out of a 28 day program well 21 days for me stood clean 3 days then b4 i new what happen i was shootin dope in a hess gas station bathroom. funny thing is i dont do dope i used to shoot oxys and went to the needle exgange to find some one whos holding and there you go. besides 3 or for days in the middle ive been running since. (aug 4?) now i caught another habbit i must be insane that was the longest i stood clean in 2yrs it was hell it took me 13 days to kick i couldent eat or sleep it was the worst but i fought through it cause i have a loving wife an kids young kids who love me , it was the longest i stood away from them.

and what do i do? go cop H out of left field! i dont see how i could ever tay sober i just dont ....its all i hink about i hate not being high. i hate "feeling" everything its to much ive done to much i thought i forgave myself but the shit still haunts me, ive spent alot of money making my past go away...no i have to live it all over , plus all my friends and family know im a junkie its crazy

a couple years ago i had the benz and was looking for a million $ b4 i turned 30 (im28) now im strugling to get by even though things have been better money wise this past 6 months , i dont know , im rambling its just a crazy life , will i ever master this addiction? a h appy safe sobriety would be me getting high once a week...or a couple times a month will i ever be able to achiev this?

thnx
me-
 
so for people with opiate addiction. is it because the pain of their body/lives are too great to handle? or they just love being at like a zen like deep peace high all the time? never done opiates.
 
I've thought about it, as I'm sure many other script-less seemingly healthy opiate addicts have, but unless you know of a ridiculously crooked doctor or something, the level of fuck-upedness you'd need to put yourself through probably wouldn't be worth it. I've never injured myself intentionally, but UN intentionally (via years of skateboarding/motorcycle riding) I've ended up in more than a couple ERs with various fractures aches and pains, each time getting nothing more than a bottle or two of vics or percs. To me it doesn't seem easy to get a legit script through a single injury, and I wouldn't recommend trying to put yourself in that situation, not out of judgment, but just out of pure logistics.
 
While never wanting to hurt myself, I took a ruptured disk issue all the way to surgery, and finally 6 months later to pain pmt. Actually just a legal dealer. Started me on methadone. Steered him quickly to morphine and finally OC, my nirvana.
But that was a long time ago. As you follow me, you will one day realize you just can't get high, just won't happen. And then you will be where I am now. Wondering why I still want 'em so bad. Wanting off forever, at the same damn time. Not pretty but true.
Good luck.
 
drug-strugler617 said:
i found my self thinkg yesterday wouldent it be convient if some how i could allways have oxys then stared wondering if it would be worth it for me to get hurt to have a script.

lets say plate in my arm or somthing ? i was watching you tube and saw the "guy get hit by a icream truck" an my sick twisted mind said that guy is gonna get the bomb meds now. i dont wish this on myself....getting hit by a truck like that must be beyond horifying, but may be like a brokn arm wouldent be that bad ...i know this is sick so save your rude comments .

im an addict and am inlove with getting high...really in love , i was even thinking would i ever pay someone to hurt me ? but i dont think i would get my oxy 80's from a near arm break ...so im not shore it would be worth it , i dont think it would be worth the pain or sickness you would have to endure to get the 80's

it would have to be somthing life altering and i pray that never happens ...but maybe 40mgs? or roxi 30's? like 120 a month? what do you guys think? this is obviously for the people who are tru opiate addicts...id like to see if im the only twisted thinker on here...wht would you do what would be worth it what injury would you pick? its all hypathetical i just dont have anyone to talk to im alone in my addiction thats why i like this site so much , lots of people i can relate to

thnx

me-
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if your in the pain that u really need the meds,the high changes,your high becomes relief from the pain and it dont last long,believe me you dont want the pain that justifies the meds!
 
I honestly don't care to read all the responses so what im about to say could very well have been said already but........

Youre plan already failed at the beginning because they changed the OCs. They are worthless now.
 
ADDMANBOY said:
so for people with opiate addiction. is it because the pain of their body/lives are too great to handle? or they just love being at like a zen like deep peace high all the time? never done opiates.
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starts out as a little of everything you just said usually.. but after a while it becomes maintenance.. and its not fun once its maintenance.. its jus a desperate, fucked up cycle of barely scraping by while staving off junk sickness.. its really not a high after that..
 
drug-strugler617 said:
wow ...thnx for sharing lozgod

its a no win situation, i just got out of a 28 day program well 21 days for me stood clean 3 days then b4 i new what happen i was shootin dope in a hess gas station bathroom. funny thing is i dont do dope i used to shoot oxys and went to the needle exgange to find some one whos holding and there you go. besides 3 or for days in the middle ive been running since. (aug 4?) now i caught another habbit i must be insane that was the longest i stood clean in 2yrs it was hell it took me 13 days to kick i couldent eat or sleep it was the worst but i fought through it cause i have a loving wife an kids young kids who love me , it was the longest i stood away from them.

and what do i do? go cop H out of left field! i dont see how i could ever tay sober i just dont ....its all i hink about i hate not being high. i hate "feeling" everything its to much ive done to much i thought i forgave myself but the shit still haunts me, ive spent alot of money making my past go away...no i have to live it all over , plus all my friends and family know im a junkie its crazy

a couple years ago i had the benz and was looking for a million $ b4 i turned 30 (im28) now im strugling to get by even though things have been better money wise this past 6 months , i dont know , im rambling its just a crazy life , will i ever master this addiction? a h appy safe sobriety would be me getting high once a week...or a couple times a month will i ever be able to achiev this?

thnx
me-
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dude your story really scares me....i'm 29, have a really get job, car, fiance, live in a great apartment but can't get H out of my mind for the last 6 months....and I havent touched it for 14 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You sound like where I might be at 1-2 years down the track. I really need to reconsider if I will try H again or even the occasional OC.....but this shit is on ym brain and its hard to get rid of. H stays with you until you die....unforgettable.
 
unless you really fuck yourself up, all you're going to get is vicodin anywayz. do you really think vicodin is worth hurting yourself over? I have heard of someone I used to know who let a dog bite their hand, like marks, a little swelling and everything, and then they got some vicodin. I'm still not sure if the person let the dog bite their hand on purpose or not.
 
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