What amounts were you using?
Hi. Thanks 1st I did really appreciate your fully open well considered and intuited IMO retrospective sharing and gauge so far.
So much of which I concur/resonate with.
Especially say, Etiz then booze, wow what a euphoric antidepressant disinhibiting cloud 9 combo right?
Vs as you say, that bit kind of muted with Brom and drink on top.
Except I use good strong Kava never alcohol it's truly 1 or other anyway though but I'm too allergic to touch a drop of 26% ethanol even
Kava not allergic to is also on paper a (plant) "medicine" not unfortunately cos I'd have nothing against alcohol otherwise where it's inherent potential dark side is not kept in shadow, a "poison" by true definition.
Aside.... what you report fully resonates.
When I switched to Brom straight from Etiz 2.5 yrs ish ev day, I NEEDED the Kava to complete it.
Now Etiz a good dose alone, bit of weed maybe. I'd feel fuzzy euphoric interested comfortable relaxed, way less dependant on brain chemical boosting/regulating Kavalactones.
True too lol, after nice Etiz dose. Soon so easy let go mentally, if feel sleepy too easy enter really nice kip.
Often I'd awake too yes, soon. hr, 1.5, 2, 3 at most mostly (unless accidental overdoses to tune of 35 mg's atop 15 earlier in day say still only 6 hrs unconscious or sleep walking recalling zilch though!).. after dreaming off on Etiz but mostly quite refreshed.
Pro & Con I've always understood.
Like you say too yes. If the challenge set is keep sleeping through a night, Bromazolam can facilitate this ways Etiz not.
Much harder to use Bromazolam awaking any time though like Etiz
I'd use Etiz lol, often up to 10 mg's! To get up, lol.
Suddenly feeling really okay and lively!
But Bromazolam AND Kava for anxiety and "consciousness intolerance" can be a fight timing and balancing act.
One thing you said too. How a 10 mg Etiz dose mangled your memory for months.
V odd cos 10 mg's exactly pure legit Etiz was my favourite dose to really feel right for "a bit"
Oddly cognizant, functional. V v chilled but lifely.
Really no notice on memory but maybe my own brain is rare, I've an inbuilt virtual transgressional one since ever and literal inhuman ability at times to access any point of time or experience ever, and without blurring/fogging mis-joining together too.
So even taking just under 20 mg's daily, Etiz or Brom, with relatively heavy cannabis use anyway too, homemade edibles and vaporizing always, adding in way above average Kava drinkers daily Kava, which massively potentiates benzos in particular...
I never even think about my memory! I see now, like it's never becoming issue.
All things past and present remain super clear for me, not ALWAYS a swell thing lol
It's the f future damn concerns me, and every one of us!
But yes doses sorry.
Since early 2021 was 20-25 mg's Etiz day.
Varying, v v rarely under 19 even. About same Bromazolam 13 months now except I learned to keep under 20 mg's ideally 18, over 20 and tendency towards awaking too depressed no will to live.
18-20 and really not.
But this white one again different there. I've varied, I took 38 hours off Friday too by decision, food fasting 43 hours vitally, and big new virus invaded lungs needing proactive extinguishing
Some days surely over 20. But not same rock low next day like pink one.
Heavy benzo though. Hard not be wasted on it.