total control (any real-time control) is not humanly possible.
. All of you guys fucking rock. And I do hope OP is reading and listening to all our cautions 
and concerns.
That sounds like an episode of possession to me. The eyes don't lie, if you feel it.. you feel it, and along with being in a catatonic state where all the nervous energy is channelled to muscles giving excessive strength. And of course the actual behaviour being excessive violence tending towards murder, between a person who otherwise loves you, and not just say stripping naked, speaking gibberish, or the many other behaviours that aren't violence.
Absolutely, the first dose I asked for was "what people would get for 'one hit' in the 60's", and I was given a 325ug gel tab. I view that as an honest and true-to-history response, as ~300ug was a standard dose of LSD in the 60's. Later I would access blotter that was genuinely 50ug per tab, and I explored ranges from 25-300ug in 25ug intervals with 1-2 week breaks in-between, and it was fascinating, truly a great exercise in titrating up and gaining familiarity with a substance in my opinion.
I want to back this up, I was stating that my personal preference for LSD is in higher doses due to the fact that we all have different brains, and therefore we all function differently in the first place. I brought up my higher dosed experiences as an example of the fact that high dosed experiences are not guaranteed to cause incidents similar to the horribly traumatic incident that occurred involving OP, however I often feel like a broken record in stating that I am a specifically hardheaded person who's lost most of the organs that contain serotonin receptors in the first place (intestines), and that I've suffered from and recovered from an amount of brain damage that most people would never be able to understand, frankly.
I agree wholeheartedly with this approach to a substance, feel out the tolerance (often it's either 3-4 days or 7-10 days, in the rare case of N-benzylated phenethylamines we may be looking at more like 3 weeks) and then every time the tolerance is reset, if the set and setting feels right, possibly push the dose higher by a small amount. I started initially with very low dosed psilocin chocolate but then my third trip ever was with a single tab of LSD, that I had asked for by dose and was presented, one that now, as somebody who's used LSD hundreds of times and has spent time in the chemistry side of this world believes those gel tabs were accurately 325ug.
I meam, that's not really fair to say. On a sufficiently large dose, LSD becomes a deliriant and it induces amnesia. That could happen to anyone and when in that state, that person is completely out of their mind. Now, how much does it take to be in a state of delirium? That depends on your body's particular enzymology and metabolism. Some people metabolize LSD slowly, and some metabolize it in a way that can bring about a temporary dopamine-induced state of psychosis. Dr. David E. Nichols while studying lysergamides with his research group at Purdue opined once that a small percentage of the population experience a quasi-psychotic state about halfway through an LSD trip.
Facts. The issue now is that he's sort of been primed to that psychosis state. In my experience, this means he's more prone to falling into another psychosis at a lower dose. There was no reason to take a dose that big.
"No matter ho high" ← much too absolute. I'll grant you: it takes a massive dose to get to a state of delirium on LSD, but make no mistake; it's very much possible and it's typically accompanied with amnesia. Mushrooms can have me so high that I'm too confused to communicate or interpret much of my external stimuli usefully, but it's not the same delirium that LSD can bring about, something I've seen maybe a half dozen times. Of them, only once did it involve violence. At a rave this guy full on punched a girl in the face with all his might, he was this giant Latino dude too with massive arms and he sucker punched this girl like he was in a UFC fight. Knocked her out cold. Dude was wiggingTF out, and it took ~5 of us to subdue the guy until the cops could get there and put him in cuffs (my buddy is a beast at Brazilian Ju Jitsu and he folded that dude up, but he was all adrenaline and it took a few of us to help hold him down. Meanwhile homegirl came to before the paramedics arrived and we insisted she go to the ER to get checked out, bc he rattled her goddamn skull piece and concussed her. Not too healthy for the brain when that happens. I never did find out how that all resolved, but that was a heavy scene to witness and be a part of with a head full of acid at the time myself.
It really kinda depends on how big that joker is and whether he looks like he'd be hell on wheels in a fight and knows what he's doing, or if he's the type that swings giant haymakers with no form or training and whether he's big enough for that to be worrisome. You know, if she's married to Brock Lesner or Cain Velasquez that's a lot different than if she's married to Mr. Bean or Elijah Wood, ya feel me?
hello, the point I am making is that sleep walking etc. is not quite a psychosis state, unless we are drifting into the dark ages where anything unusual is deemed psychosis.
Haha when I lived in Ontario I had to keep checking. The US is easier. I had heard that statement in the 1980's by one of the psychedelic greats and can't remember who. I mean I am no stranger to people flipping out on acid, so that was one of the milestones to see if someone was still present. Then of course we have things like DMT and Salvia to where I could not talk so that rule does not apply anymore.
I've used both mushrooms and LSD hundreds of times, often in busy public settings and profoundly inadvisably high doses, and I can tell you that LSD is more "peace-inducing" for the majority of people, myself included, whereas mushrooms are a lot more likely to induce a spontaneous beatdown over something that could've easily been deescalated. If weapons are involved though, you can almost always bank on it being acid based, mushrooms are almost primal in their nature of conflict, it's some ape-vs-ape shit. I've spent a lot of time tumbling on mats with BJJ folks and mushrooms put me in that headspace immediately, acid always first makes me think "how can we deescalate this situation".
This is why I advised some sober (or sober-adjacent) tripsitters for next time that are more on the Tank Abbot or Don Frye side than the Mr. Bean side of things if you know what I mean. Some tasers, telescoping batons, handcuffs, etc. don't hurt either.
We must be around different tweakers man, or maybe it's just that I'm the greater threat to them? Idk? I suppose based on my former "Tank Abbot vs. Mr. Bean" spectrum I'm built more like Tank and these tweakers all look like Mr. Bean, so unless they can access some force modifiers it's not like they could do much about me teasing them that I'm an Invisible Task Force double agent after all, hahaha. I have noticed that amphetamines especially can be prone to causing people to try to fight way above their weight class and exhibit a kind of shockingly iron jaw, usually needing to be pinned and concussed/head trauma'd until they're unconscious. It's unfortunate, but much like liquor, some people simply can't hold their amphetamines. Many an iced up/sped up tweaker has caught numerous hits to the jaw from me that should've set their lights clean off if they were sober, but they just come back for another for some reason. They can be tricky to grapple too if they're all sweaty, but they're usually hyperfixated on striking and succumb to sweeps easily for some reason, in my personal experience.
I've seen it happen as a result of MDMA before, shit you not. My buddy Jonesy & I were at Avant Gardener in the King's Hall, Brooklyn, NY to see Test Pilot, and we each took ~220 mg MDMA. We were meeting some people there, and I'm talking to my girlfriend near the bathroom when our other friend comes up and says, yo what's up with ya mans? Who?Jonesy? Idk why? Maaaaan he's talking some straight nutty paranoid shit, what'd you guys take?
Harsh. If you knew homeboy for 14 yrs like OP you might feel differently. I'd chill with him but idk about dropping any doses w/that joker w/o further assessment.
Lol, that's hilarious. Maybe your resting state is equivalent to most people's state on a few doses… sometimes I wonder if that's true for me; I often see faint patterns even when I'm not on anything.
Yeah, idk, those could potentially really harsh someone's mellow, as it were. The sight of a couple giant bouncers with incapacitating weapons is intimidating. I can't co-sign that one, my guy. I also advised trip-sitters, but I think weapons are a bad idea, or at least having them in plain sight seems like a bad move.
Though often stereotyped, "tweeker" is an umbrella term that encompasses many different types. Definitely must say the tweekers I know are real oddities too rare to kill off and too strange for mass production. It's a shame meth also attracts the "crackhead" types along with the stim connoisseurs, entactogen aficionados, ADHD folks, professionals working long hours at a time, those needing to stay awake and the sexually adventurous. Unfortunately those crackhead criminal fucks have really ruined crystal meth's reputation to the point that many people recoil at the mere term "crystal meth" without knowing 95% of what the drug is. They just barely know the scary bit, the 5% knowledge that if you abuse meth, you're gonna have a bad time bc it will fuck you up for this disrespect. But if done correctly, meth is a brilliant drug and an epic aphrodisiac.
I find it obviously unethical to dose people without their knowledge, but for those in psychotic states or suicidality (without adequately understandable reason like terminal illness) I'll slip them some benzos without their knowledge, it's an invaluable tool to keep potent and flavored etizolam droppers on hand.
A friend of mine seems to not endogenously produce MAO-A, she's essentially constantly under the effects of harmaline in her sober state. She'll describe the "kaleidoscopes behind her eyelids" and shit, it's fascinating. She doesn't use drugs at all either, which is even more interesting.
People who can grapple adequately are more dangerous than people with weapons shy of a loaded, unsafetied handgun, might even be a better fit than the armed up tripsitting goonsquad tbh. I still think that whether or not it harshes homeboy's vibe to have some sober people on deck with force modifiers like tasers or whatever, it also harshes vibes to try to murder your fucking spouse, this guy can get tf over it bro. He should find a sense of peace if anything in the presence of the aforementioned goonsquad, imo.
I bet pocket-sized weapons could keep the vibe neutral? I bet the knowledge that they're there would still at least "semi-harshen" the vibe.
I agree heavily with this, though it has a proclivity to make people who spend their entire lives responding to fight-or-flight situations with flight decide to try fight more often than not I've noticed. It's never wise, but it's a decision I've seen a ton of people make and end up getting their shit wollopped. I find it interesting too that monoamine releasers (NBXX's, amphetamines, MDXX's, etc.) will induce this behavior but reuptake inhibitors are hit-or-miss. Bupropion has made countless people "ready to kill" (their exact words, different people throughout years of me feeding randos bupropion), whereas Ritalin/4F-MPH has almost always made me people more prone to avoiding situations in the first place. Atomoxetine consistently induces the kind of psychosis where people hear voices telling them to kill and shit too, which I find pretty interesting as far as this all goes, as I'm not sure why atomoxetine and bupropion are so "mean" as NDRIs but phenidates are so "gentle", you know?
Personally if I had blacked out and attacked my girlfriend, I wouldn't be willing to take whatever drug did that to me, but I have a really hard time picturing this happening, bc it's not in my nature to attack people unless I'm defending myself. I guess homebizzle felt attacked perhaps, but idk, I've taken heroic doses of acid and other psychedelics and nothing like this has ever happened to me, though I have seen some bad freak-outs before.
