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Well i know you are just trying to be safe but there is no danger in withdrawing from opiates..............And when you go to rehabs they use Suboxone for a week or so for you to kick heroin, so how can he say that 5 subs is not enough ?

Jake dude it's not just the physical aspect of it but you need to work on the mental aspect of your addiction, 5 subs arent enough at all.

I dont wanna say you should do this, you should do that, i'm over that. But is it possible you could get involved with some kind of counselling? I know some of them can be douches but if you can find a good one it can be a world of help.?

I still feel you're trying to rush this mate, anyways i hope it all works out for you and my earlier predictions are proven wrong, i really hope so.

Good luck Jake.
 
thanks. I am gonna try tram. tmrw will be 72 hours since i had any methadone . so first ill try the tram . if it doesnt help ill try a small amount of sub. ................and i do plan on working with n.a. and my sponser
 
good shit jake , tram worked well for me kicking opies before , bupe was easier but I did find the SSRI properties w/ultram to really be a benefit. Just be easy on the dose brother , don't need to seizure up that shit is not fun and can kill as you know I'm sure !
 
feelin pretty bad. 72 hrs since methadone . took 4 tramadol hoping it helps if not got subs
 
Just my opinion here but i would strongly advise against using tramadol to help you get off methadone. For one thing there is no way in fucking hell that a weak opioid like tramadol is gonna do much if anything to help the withdrawals of methadone. Ive tried tramadol for a few days when i didnt even have codeine when i ran out of morphine and dilaudid and the tramadol did very fucking little to say the least. I seriously doubt it would even put a dent in methadone withdrawal.

Also tramadol withdrawals are no fucking joke from what ive had people tell me. They last forever plus your not only going to go through opioid withdrawal coming off them you are going to go through SNRI withdrawal as well and trst me as bad as opioid withdrawal is SNRI withdrawal feels a hell of alot worse.

Oh then there is the seizure risk from tramadol and you already have a slightly lowered seizure threshold from withdrawing from opiates. I can only imagine the pain of methadone withdrawal (ive never been on it) but i can imagine that it would be alot more painful for alot longer then morphine or hydromorphone withdrawals.
 
well i actually feel better after taking the 4....................i just figure if i use subs i shouuld wait one more day since its only 72 hours today and i dont wanna risk precipitated w/d
 
Just my opinion here but i would strongly advise against using tramadol to help you get off methadone. For one thing there is no way in fucking hell that a weak opioid like tramadol is gonna do much if anything to help the withdrawals of methadone. Ive tried tramadol for a few days when i didnt even have codeine when i ran out of morphine and dilaudid and the tramadol did very fucking little to say the least. I seriously doubt it would even put a dent in methadone withdrawal.

Also tramadol withdrawals are no fucking joke from what ive had people tell me. They last forever plus your not only going to go through opioid withdrawal coming off them you are going to go through SNRI withdrawal as well and trst me as bad as opioid withdrawal is SNRI withdrawal feels a hell of alot worse.

Oh then there is the seizure risk from tramadol and you already have a slightly lowered seizure threshold from withdrawing from opiates. I can only imagine the pain of methadone withdrawal (ive never been on it) but i can imagine that it would be alot more painful for alot longer then morphine or hydromorphone withdrawals.


He's not on a high dose of methadone which is the point. If he was on 100-200mg I would have never recommended tramadol but at the dose he's at tram can and will get rid of a good share of wds. The seretonin release, and norepinephrine inhibition along with its u-opiod agonism combine to create a rather strong cocktail for treating wds.
Also if you took tramadol after morphine and dilaudid chances are you took the tram too soon as your body will not process the tramadol as efficiently unless you waited. This is very common with tram as it won't do anything if I take it 12-20hours after a pod dose, but if you wait after about 20hours your body is able to process the tram wayyy more efficiently and its a shitload stronger. Tram is atypical in many ways. But as far as "not being strong" enough for methadone thats bs imo, studies have ALREADY been done to show tram relieves wds comparable to suboxone. Not quite as effective but very close as it was used to treat the heroin wds of a moderate population of heroin users.
If you need me to link the studies I will, but tram is far more powerful than you likely think. Not to mention someone people just don't possess the enzymes to break it down. I know quasistoned never got high on tram because he's one of those people. I have the enzymes and get very high off it. So sometimes its hit or miss in that regard.
Still, comparing it to suboxone, which is 40 times stronger than morphine, I'd absolutely rather take a step down with my drug use in wds then taking a step up to suboxone. And tram takes a long ass time to get phyisically addicted to, sure the wds are bad but because it moderately affects 3 different regions, compared to intensely affecting just opoid receptors, the addiction rate is much slower. Tram is a great drug for wds and I stand by my decision IF you take it correctly AND have the neccessary enzymes to break it down, which the majority of the population does.
 
Well i know you are just trying to be safe but there is no danger in withdrawing from opiates..............And when you go to rehabs they use Suboxone for a week or so for you to kick heroin, so how can he say that 5 subs is not enough ?

Are you kidding jake? Of course there is danger in withdrawing from opiates. Wow, come on...how can you say that there aint no danger there.

I think you need to get familiar with the risks of it becuz they are very real. How can you take control of your plans to detox, etc, if you dont even know the basic info about the subject?

And the reason that 5 subs aint enough is becuz DETOXING DONT *KEEP* YOU CLEAN!!!

You MAY be able to detox with 5 subs, even tho i dont think it will be a very comfortable detox at all.

But the point of methadone and suboxone is to stay ON them long enough to stabilize your life and get your head together and learn how to live again without opiates.

It seems like you really believe that you can just PHYSICALLY detox off of dope/opiates and you will be cured. It dont work that way.

There is a lot more to it than the physical part.

Let me tell you one mutha fuckin thing.....Somethin worth doing is worth doing right. And shit like this....."doin it right" usually does not involve a super-fast detox with NO plans for support afterwards. I aint tryna bring you down yo, but the "plan" you got is barely a plan at all, i mean you dont even know the most basic shit about your own situation dude....Tramadol and the wd from it like other ppl have said really jacks up your risk of havin seizures. THATS definately a risk. And I aint even gonna start here, but there is LOTS of shit that if its left un treated can potentially kill you if it gets too severe when you are WDing just look at that story from the Front Page of drugs in the media a ways back about the kid who died from his WDs while locked up in jail out in PA. It aint common, and it aint a DIRECT thing like with benzos or alcohol but the side effects of severe extreme withdrawal CAN be very dangerous and in extreme situations the shit can kill you.

I really , really think its just a not so good idea to just be goin into this shit so blind yo. Wats your plan for after your subs run out? Shits just magically gonna be aight? you got a problem thats much deeper than physical. And by ignoring that part, and by rushing yourself even after u get repeated advice that its a bad idea, its just settin u up for a less than ideal out come for it.

The point of stayin on maintenance is to give you time to sort out the psychological issues of ur addiction. So that you aint gotta deal with the physical bullshit, the WD, the hustle the struggle, none of that. it gives you a calm stretch of safe time to address that shit in your head and work on your mental. You really cant do that while you are still usin dope, or while you are in physical withdrawal.

Once you get your head on straight and your mind is in a better place and you got support, counseling, watever, you can start to detox off the meth or sub slowly, and you gonna be much better prepared to do it successfully.

You do that shit rushed like you are doin now and it aint a solid foundation to put your sobriety on.

And yo, i say this in the kindest way possible--you keep sayin "oh but i dont feel like methadone is working for me" or you dont think sub is working....The problem AINT with the methadone jake. The problem is that you aint doin the shit you need to do to address ur issues, and you are taking the "quick fix", rushed way out. METHADONE and SUBOXONE DONT KEEP YOU CLEAN OR GET YOU CLEAN. THEY ARE THE *TOOLS* THAT CAN *HELP* YOU TO GET CLEAN. It really seems like you got on methadone, and just expected it to do the work for you, that once you were on it, you would just be A-OK and shit would be gravy. and then you went out and got high everyday and kept using dope and then u be like , Oh, methadone aint for me, it just aint working for me!! thats becuz u aint doin the work, yo! Its the same thing with sub, and you are puttin all your bets on sub now, doing the same old shit thinkin that its gonna just be this miracle drug that sets you free without you actually having to do anything. but That aint the way that will build a safe, solid foundation for u to build ur recovery on. Its just fuckin Mc Gyver-ing that shit. detoxing is just like 1/100th of the actual process of gettin clean successfully and it seems like u aint aware of that.

Neither sub, OR methadone, is gonna work for you when you aint willing to do shit the proper way. There is a process that it takes, and I aint sayin there is only one way becuz that is just as bad as the NA folks claiming the steps is the only way. but im just saying, that if you are really serious about gettin clean long term you need PATIENCE and you need the discipline and willingness to take it slow, step by step, to THOROUGHLY deal with shit that you need to address, piece by piece day by day. It aint gonna happen overnight and you are sellin yourself these fantasy ideas that it will just be all fucking good and great if you just detox and suddenly the problem will be gone. But you end up off the dope, still havin cravings, still wantin to use, still depressed, still havin ALL the same problems that you had when you was on dope, except NOW you aint got no coping mechanisms to deal with it, and you left just out there in the wind vulnerable to the next craving that comes your way.

If you take the time to do it right , you can avoid alot of that. But just slappin the shit together , its like building a house without even having a blueprint and starting with the walls instead of the foundation. You need a much bigger plan than just "Im gonna take 5 subs and do a week long detox, and then ill be as good as new!"

I aint tryna discourage you but it would be really unfair to you , to not bring this shit up. Its doin a dis service to you to act like this plan you got is just gonna be great and work just fine, becuz u ignoring the real problems here, and every single time u make a plan, every option you take, whether its methadone, suboxone, watever, you constantly ignore the real problems and instead you focus on all this other bullshit that distracts u from the real issue and its settin urself up to fail. But aint nobody gonna be able to make u face the reality.all we can do is try to show u that u are focusin on the wrong things and lookin for help in the wrong places and hopefully u will realize that getting clean AINT FAST, IT AINT QUICK, IT AINT EASY. It takes a LONG TIME, ITS HARD!!

You want this easy way out of shit yo, everytime people offers u a suggestion u just want to do the fastest, quickest, easiest thing, its like the people who want to take diet pills but not change their diet or exercise. You can keep tryin that shit all you want but in the end the only real, tried and true, successful way to do it, is the long, hard way that requires WORK from you.

You can keep tryin all these "get clean quick" schemes and plans that you dream up but you gonna find out eventually that there aint no way around this shit and until you are willing to put in the work and do it the "hard way", u aint gonna have that real success and feel truly happy and satisfied with ur life.
 
I know Im a new member here, which I realize means that Im mostly expected to watch and learn-but I have been lurking and following many threads for quite some time so Im itching to add my two cents on a few subjects...this being one of them

First of all, to the OP, congrats on having the courage to show up to NA meetings and seek support- and I honestly mean that because I think that is probably one of the most difficult steps to take. Unfortunately, often positive steps like this are not met with consequences or reactions that are encouraging BUT please dont let that deter you! Most of the time the things that people do that come accross as judgemental and unsupportive, are not intended to make us insecure, unwelcome or unworthy but are someones way of trying to help or showing they are concerned.

The NA/12-step treatment model is extremely ridgid and demands an absolute dichotomous mindset between using and sobriety. This is why it works so well for some people, as well as why it fails miserably for others. Some people need to eliminate the grey area in order to eliminate temptation and a risk of relapse, while others need a more flexible transition. The people who require that black and white approach are not judging YOU, but to protect their recovery need to maintain the notion that anything grey is unacceptable. It helps me to frame it that way and remind myself of this stuff when I feel like I dont belong in treatment and start to see it as a sign that I should just give up :\ I think a persons needs can also change, vary or oscillate so I try to keep an open mind when someithing doesnt help at once time, it might later on.

Anyway, I hope you continue to seek support of some kind and depending where you live, there usually are a few alternatives to NA :) Good luck!
 
yea i hear u guys. i know it isnt a great idea but i cant stand being on methadone . and i gotta get clean , as much as im hurtin already
 
There is definetly danger associated with opiate withdrawals. Not even mentioning the suicidal ideation thats in your head but people who have poor health as it is and try detoxing can easily put themselves at risk for death. There was this guy in jail who had diabetes (don't know if that's exactly why this happened but thats how people talked in jail about it) but after 3 days in withdrawal had a lung collapse....now it might not sound like a big deal having a lung collapse but when you allready have diabetes thats probally not safe. So there definetly is risk involved in heroin withdrawals imo...
 
Are you kidding jake? Of course there is danger in withdrawing from opiates. Wow, come on...how can you say that there aint no danger there.

I think you need to get familiar with the risks of it becuz they are very real. How can you take control of your plans to detox, etc, if you dont even know the basic info about the subject?

And the reason that 5 subs aint enough is becuz DETOXING DONT *KEEP* YOU CLEAN!!!

You MAY be able to detox with 5 subs, even tho i dont think it will be a very comfortable detox at all.

But the point of methadone and suboxone is to stay ON them long enough to stabilize your life and get your head together and learn how to live again without opiates.

It seems like you really believe that you can just PHYSICALLY detox off of dope/opiates and you will be cured. It dont work that way.

There is a lot more to it than the physical part.

Let me tell you one mutha fuckin thing.....Somethin worth doing is worth doing right. And shit like this....."doin it right" usually does not involve a super-fast detox with NO plans for support afterwards. I aint tryna bring you down yo, but the "plan" you got is barely a plan at all, i mean you dont even know the most basic shit about your own situation dude....Tramadol and the wd from it like other ppl have said really jacks up your risk of havin seizures. THATS definately a risk. And I aint even gonna start here, but there is LOTS of shit that if its left un treated can potentially kill you if it gets too severe when you are WDing just look at that story from the Front Page of drugs in the media a ways back about the kid who died from his WDs while locked up in jail out in PA. It aint common, and it aint a DIRECT thing like with benzos or alcohol but the side effects of severe extreme withdrawal CAN be very dangerous and in extreme situations the shit can kill you.

I really , really think its just a not so good idea to just be goin into this shit so blind yo. Wats your plan for after your subs run out? Shits just magically gonna be aight? you got a problem thats much deeper than physical. And by ignoring that part, and by rushing yourself even after u get repeated advice that its a bad idea, its just settin u up for a less than ideal out come for it.

The point of stayin on maintenance is to give you time to sort out the psychological issues of ur addiction. So that you aint gotta deal with the physical bullshit, the WD, the hustle the struggle, none of that. it gives you a calm stretch of safe time to address that shit in your head and work on your mental. You really cant do that while you are still usin dope, or while you are in physical withdrawal.

Once you get your head on straight and your mind is in a better place and you got support, counseling, watever, you can start to detox off the meth or sub slowly, and you gonna be much better prepared to do it successfully.

You do that shit rushed like you are doin now and it aint a solid foundation to put your sobriety on.

And yo, i say this in the kindest way possible--you keep sayin "oh but i dont feel like methadone is working for me" or you dont think sub is working....The problem AINT with the methadone jake. The problem is that you aint doin the shit you need to do to address ur issues, and you are taking the "quick fix", rushed way out. METHADONE and SUBOXONE DONT KEEP YOU CLEAN OR GET YOU CLEAN. THEY ARE THE *TOOLS* THAT CAN *HELP* YOU TO GET CLEAN. It really seems like you got on methadone, and just expected it to do the work for you, that once you were on it, you would just be A-OK and shit would be gravy. and then you went out and got high everyday and kept using dope and then u be like , Oh, methadone aint for me, it just aint working for me!! thats becuz u aint doin the work, yo! Its the same thing with sub, and you are puttin all your bets on sub now, doing the same old shit thinkin that its gonna just be this miracle drug that sets you free without you actually having to do anything. but That aint the way that will build a safe, solid foundation for u to build ur recovery on. Its just fuckin Mc Gyver-ing that shit. detoxing is just like 1/100th of the actual process of gettin clean successfully and it seems like u aint aware of that.

Neither sub, OR methadone, is gonna work for you when you aint willing to do shit the proper way. There is a process that it takes, and I aint sayin there is only one way becuz that is just as bad as the NA folks claiming the steps is the only way. but im just saying, that if you are really serious about gettin clean long term you need PATIENCE and you need the discipline and willingness to take it slow, step by step, to THOROUGHLY deal with shit that you need to address, piece by piece day by day. It aint gonna happen overnight and you are sellin yourself these fantasy ideas that it will just be all fucking good and great if you just detox and suddenly the problem will be gone. But you end up off the dope, still havin cravings, still wantin to use, still depressed, still havin ALL the same problems that you had when you was on dope, except NOW you aint got no coping mechanisms to deal with it, and you left just out there in the wind vulnerable to the next craving that comes your way.

If you take the time to do it right , you can avoid alot of that. But just slappin the shit together , its like building a house without even having a blueprint and starting with the walls instead of the foundation. You need a much bigger plan than just "Im gonna take 5 subs and do a week long detox, and then ill be as good as new!"

I aint tryna discourage you but it would be really unfair to you , to not bring this shit up. Its doin a dis service to you to act like this plan you got is just gonna be great and work just fine, becuz u ignoring the real problems here, and every single time u make a plan, every option you take, whether its methadone, suboxone, watever, you constantly ignore the real problems and instead you focus on all this other bullshit that distracts u from the real issue and its settin urself up to fail. But aint nobody gonna be able to make u face the reality.all we can do is try to show u that u are focusin on the wrong things and lookin for help in the wrong places and hopefully u will realize that getting clean AINT FAST, IT AINT QUICK, IT AINT EASY. It takes a LONG TIME, ITS HARD!!

You want this easy way out of shit yo, everytime people offers u a suggestion u just want to do the fastest, quickest, easiest thing, its like the people who want to take diet pills but not change their diet or exercise. You can keep tryin that shit all you want but in the end the only real, tried and true, successful way to do it, is the long, hard way that requires WORK from you.

You can keep tryin all these "get clean quick" schemes and plans that you dream up but you gonna find out eventually that there aint no way around this shit and until you are willing to put in the work and do it the "hard way", u aint gonna have that real success and feel truly happy and satisfied with ur life.

Awesome post finally someone points out what i've been screaming at this dude for the past fortnight.
 
Great advice lacey K, not only for Jake, but for others that may happen to read this thread. Your spot on, getting clean really is like 1/100th of the entire picture. There's no easy way out for sure. Sub works wonders for the people that are truly ready to quit, the same can be said for Mdone patients. I can speak from experience. The real struggle starts as soon as the acute wds subside. I have yet to see any posts or threads mentioning dealing with triggers, alternate coping skills etc which is likely the reason most members don't see this latest plan working. My only advice is to seek out a addiction specialist or a Pdoc that can help by prescribing comfort meds and something to help with the bone crushing depresion that follows detox. Hopefuly the twelve bags that you were planning on using to get away from the methadone are gone before you start taking the sub. IMO you'd be better off with far more sub. Good luck regardless.
 
^^^

People have tried many times in many threads to establish Jake's plan for staying clean once he kicks and expressed concern that he doesn't really have one.
 
^^^^ true lots of helpful posts. It's the OP that hasn't mentioned the aspects of staying clean is what I was refering to in my post
 
you need a new sponsor

Agreed. I was 'sentenced' to 90 meetings in 90 days by a marriage counselor, yes a marriage counselor believe it or not. Did the 90 meetings. They did make me feel better ... it put my little habits into perspective when I would hear about people taking baths/showers in the sprinker systems, etc. I divorced that crazy husband (lost all 160 lbs of him) and felt much better.

Do what you have to do to stay clean. If it means getting a new sponsor, or going to a different meeting or whatever. How important is it to you? Best of luck to you.
 
Just remember the wds arent nearly as bad as we usually build them up to be. An hour or even ten minutes at a time if that's what it takes. The vast majority say the 3rd day is the peak and it gets better, abeit it gradually through the 5th day. Generic lope should be your new best friend. Good luck kicking, just keep reminding yourself why it's worth it. You can do it.
 
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