I don't understand why people use daily!
I have been using the last 4 days straight, I have been eating, sleeping almost as much as normally and taking vitamins like I would do anyway but am more consistent if I have been using meth recently(no benzos either which I usually have when I use for more than just a day) And This morning I IV'd what I previously planned to be the last bit i'll have for at least a few weeks and I barely felt what would(without tolerance) usually make me power-spew then proceed to have an intense panic attack(i.e a minor OD) and barely felt it. My stomach did a little backflip but that only lasted a few second, breathing got quicker but in terms of psychological effects it was pretty weak, just woke me up and satisfied a craving, and I suppose made me feel less shit from the side-effects of using a super-toxic super intense super-stimulant for days in succession, but it made me think of my friend who said he has "at least 3 150mg shots a day" but he said he barely feels them if at all. Now im on day 4, I use pretty rarely and smaller amounts than most ppl around here, maybe 0.1g IV every fortnight if that. Ive probably been through 0.75g of high purity meth in these past days. I had at least 1.5 points in this shot and as I said, I only felt minor effects. I cant see why he's have 1.5 point shots if he doesn't feel them instead of just having one 3 point shot in place of the 2 1.5'ers(he can afford to). I would think that you'd feel it more and it would last until he needs his next fix?
I have dealt with my anxiety so incredibly well during this binge I really cant believe it. Its not like I haven't had any anxiety, ive just been able to compartmentalize it and have also had really amazing friends who don't suffer from anxiety themselves but unbelievably have been able to understand how im feeling and help me effectively. Not a lot of people who don't suffer from anxiety understand or sympathize with those of us who do suffer from it, so the fact that this friend knew exactly how to help me without benzos was really quite phenomenal.
I am a little concerned about how the comedown is going to be though. Im going to get some H soon to help with that as I cant find any benzos, but tomorrow isn't going to be nice :/ 20ml of GBL or GHB(I prefer GBL but I know its not good for your liver compared to GHB) would be so good and would last me from now probably until the day after tomorrow having 2ml charges. Unfortunately I haven't had G in nearly 10 years! It doesn't seem to be anywhere in Sydney it sucks so bad, and im gay and that is surely the biggest market for it in Sydney(don't know about MELB)
Always cool to ask online and figured here would be a great place just to get peoples ideas and thoughts. Cheers