i pretty much started like you drug wench, just snorting a few pts here and there, tally-bomb a bit and id be considerably high. i didnt start speed until i was 18 (as with all drugs except pot and alcohol) and went pretty flat out from there. it wasnt long until shooting intrigued me enough to finally give it a go. i thought it was the best thing at first, so economical, so cheap, so fucking high. but then that all caught up and i was basically shooting half a gram every time after a couple of months or so of use.
no, i dont work at the hospital, i just find myself there all the time if i havent got picks on me because they're free and my dealers house is right down the road. he happens to work at the hospital, though. the other day i had to buy some from the pharmacy because the building (ATODS) that gives out the kits was closed. and for the first time in a long time the lady that served me acted in such a condescending way. i walked in with a singlet on and pants so obviously i wasnt sporting any tracks, asked politely as i usually do and she kinda snarled at me saying "come down to this register and get them" i payed my $6 expecting my 5 needles, swabs, water and sinbin and without realising it theyve changed the kits to 3 needles now. i accidentally fucked one needle up in a rush to get me and my friends mix done leaving me in almost a panic state thinking "fuck if i do that again im gonna have to drive home and shoot up" no biggy but it just got on my nerves for some reason. i cant make sense of what went through me then.
i can't imagine what it's like having deep veins and trying to shoot up. i'd probably be terrible and just give up. i've been blessed with big, plumpy veins all over my arms and legs. i've honestly used the same spot for about 95% of my shooting, my left inner elbow and a little up the bicep if i was starting to get tracks and if my vein had sunk a little there. and for the first time since i can't remember i went to register (theres a lot of the time where i don't) and i wasn't in the vein at all even though everything looked and felt the same as a million time before, for once i had to push the needle (1/2'' 27g terumo insulin) 3/4's of the way in to register. i've used my forearms because theyre just as good as my "left wing" but i feel so comfortable about shooting in the same spot. i could practically hit myself in the dark.
the only reason i registered was i had been in hospital quite a bit over the previous weeks and had countless needles stuck in me from drips to cat scan solutions so knew that area was a little worn.
ive found it pretty true about the "once you whack you never go back". i can count on one hand the amount of time ive snorted or ate some speed since i starting injecting.
back to bed for me and more band of brothers dvd.