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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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I thought all was well on dexedrine until I had a heart-attack (age: 22). That, and the fact that my parents kicked me out of the house (perfectly understandable) was what it took to get me off this poison.

There is simply no excuse for anyone to be addicted to amphetamines.

p.s. Claire, you have already picked 2. And you clearly take pleasure in your "tragedy".
 
^ I meant the way you talk about it.

And I remind you again that you've not gotten off it yet.

Are you able to go RIGHT NOW and take all the meth you have left, and flush it in the toilet? If your answer is "no", then please don't waste your time or yours claiming that you plan on thinking about wanting to plan to quit.

Sorry if I sound harsh. Ask anyone here - there is nothing I'd like to do more than help others. But I have learnt that meth addicts simply cannot be talked to reasonably until they actually quit.
 
no no you're not harsh you're correct
theres none here anymore , long gone
but i think its made me less likely to touch it again
sorry if my posts are a tad depressing, usually im a much happier person but my emotions are a bit out of whack recently, its pissing ME off
iv been wantin to quit for about six months.. n i knew it was imminent.. but i went five days which is five days longer than iv gone in all my time.. just freaked out this morning bit drunk val'd up bought it did it majorly regretted it
:\ im jst up n down every 5 mins, i hate bein touchy n snappy.
do u no wen that would possibly stop?
 
The content of your posts is not depressing, it is the fact that you seem oblivious to the problem at hand (but now it seems that you are aware of it, which is good).

Relapse is a normal part of quitting. Don't feel so down about it.

The flipping moods are also a normal part of amp. withdrawal. The worst should be over within two weeks (since you've been on it for years). But it will take a long time to recover and a lot of determination. It's been more than a year since I quit and I'm still in the process of fixing myself. That said, I'm doing much better off without dexedrine and have no craving whatsoever for it.

Talk to a doctor about your depressive moods and see if he can prescribe you something like wellburtin. That should help. I do not recommend you tall him about your drug use, as most doctors will throw you in the "drug seeker" bin as soon as they hear about that.

I will not bother you anymore. Good luck :).
 
you aren't bothering me!
i've been to a drug specialist dr. prescribed valium 4 w/ds which has been good, got another on thurs to assess my mental status so possibly getting wellburtin as it is a dopamine inhibitor, and i need something to 'plateau' my moods.
i've been aware of the problem for ages don't worry, just (as you would know) much easier to deny whats happening than accept it, but i finally decided i couldn't do it anymore looking at my physical state(such as permanent kidney,liver,bladder & throat infections)
iv pushed my luck 4 yrs n its wearin thin
thank-you for everything =D
 
Jamsyhd is correct (as always ; )), you're better then speed claire, dont lie to yourself or anybody else and say different. it's time for you to move away mang, you're a beautifull young lady, kind and fucking funny and smart, reap the spoils of the earth.
 
claire22 said:
option 1. quit, feel but feel miserable. wonder if brain will ever return to normal status. crave. know this will always grasp a little part of my soul that i cannot get back. slightly own me forever ?
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give it time claire!
ur brain has to go a long time before it goes back to normal status or even relatively normal status
can i remind u how i shook and slurred my words for at least 6 months after quitting meth?
and i still crave it today
yes it will always b a part of ur life, theres no denying that
but it wont b as much a part of ur life as it will b if u continue to use it
there r days u wont even think about meth eventually
so no it will not slightly own u forever!
if u were to choose option 2, u wudnt b on this planet for much longer......and ud die one of the most excruciating deaths, trust me
 
true true i've got to just
"keep on swimmin'":D
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eh ill be alright..of course its not gonna be easy but i do not really have a choice when u think about it
 
We support you Claire! quitting is the right decision!

Im almost glad I ran out of ritalin a few days ago cuz damn they were making my everyday HELL.
 
claire22 said:
true true i've got to just
"keep on swimmin'":D
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eh ill be alright..of course its not gonna be easy but i do not really have a choice when u think about it
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love that movie! just keep swimmin...just keep swimmin...
It will get easier. But in your heart and mind you truly DO have to want to quit...there will be slips here and there, but in the end , you have to make a decision that will spell the difference between a useful, fulfilling, disciplined and SOBER life or an aimless, empty one. I've been there...I was addicted to meth for about six years. I know what you're going through.

If you wanna talk, just pm me hun. :)
 
best movie :)
i do want to quit, tonight i was offered a trip to a big meth dealers house (who always gives about a gram for free)
my mate was goen there..& i told him no
i actually refused meth, never ever done that before, even tho my cravings are HORRIBLE i still did it, and im pretty damn proud of myself :D
i need to quit, to have closure with myself & the many ppl i hav hurt/disappointed thru the course of my addiction, which has gone on for way to long.
plus i need to because if i don't, i'll probably die sooner or later..much sooner than later!

thanks to EVERYONE for the support, it helps a truckload. truly.


ps. wtf i turned down meth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????
feels good ;)
 
claire22 said:
best movie :)
i do want to quit, tonight i was offered a trip to a big meth dealers house (who always gives about a gram for free)
my mate was goen there..& i told him no
i actually refused meth, never ever done that before, even tho my cravings are HORRIBLE i still did it, and im pretty damn proud of myself :D
i need to quit, to have closure with myself & the many ppl i hav hurt/disappointed thru the course of my addiction, which has gone on for way to long.
plus i need to because if i don't, i'll probably die sooner or later..much sooner than later!

thanks to EVERYONE for the support, it helps a truckload. truly.


ps. wtf i turned down meth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????
feels good ;)
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Thats wicked :) Don't think I could turn down a free gram if it was offered to me right now, and I was nowhere near your level of use.
 
I actually had a dream last night. Walked out into the backyard of our old property in brisbane and found my dad cutting a ball up into lines and snorting them (no idea why the hell my dad would be doing speed in a dream, let alone in the backyard of our brisbane house). I asked him for some, he gave me a gram but I got mad at him because I thought he'd ripped me off, then I opened it and we railed a whole bunch, then I remember being in the city here in adelaide at some point, then it just kinda faded. Weird stuff.
 
dreams about it r common after recently giving up
for a start withdrawal disturbs ur REM sleep so u dream more vividly
and all recovering addicts hav using dreams
gd on u for turning it down claire - gd start!
u know, pathetic as it sounds, atm i dont know that i cud do the same!
 
yeah man iv been dreaming of the smoke in the pipe, seein it swirl n stuff..its crazy
over n over n over
dw, it wasnt easy, hardest thing iv ever done ! but it had to be done.. wats the point of it neway?
u cud do it..its fuking hard though, iv never even refused a pipe b4 let alone freeeee ice!
 
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