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Real talk homieMENTALLY ILL AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME.
Real talk homieMENTALLY ILL AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME.
Fucked, in a word.
Crack abuse resulted in some pretty severe paranoid delusions and hallucinations over the weekend. This is something that has been going on for years and has got pretty bad over the last few months of relapsing. Have realised the problem needs reporting to the doctor and am in the process of doing this now so I'll just see what happens.
It’s worth it to fight for your life because I know if I took myself out, it would only give the devil satisfaction since he’s been trying to kill me for as long as I can remember. Look at how the suicides skyrocketed. Fuck him! When you wake up another day, it pisses him off. I plan on doing that for a long time.
You're doing all the right things. Therapy, belief in a high power, helping out people when you can - it all comes back.
I’m sorry that’s happening. Vyvanse years ago had me all paranoid while going through amphetamine psychosis so I can relate in a way.
Yes, get to the doctor ASAP! You’ll be fine. Sending love.![]()
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Stress has been consistently linked to depression. Speaking form personal experience my depressive states almost always correlate with not having enough time for responsibilities and the subsequent stress as a result. It could be a chicken or the egg type scenario but know that you're not aloneAge old question am I depressed or does my life just suck right now??
Trying to be mindful and live in the moment but it’s hard when money is tight not to despair and have anxiety .
It is all a learning experience toward something greater. It is hard to feel shame because it doesnt let you feel good feelings so I leave that behind too.Starting medication was a good idea for me but even better was the idea to own up my shit and mistakes and never to feel shamed or stuff for my wants and desires.