I can't roll, I think I'm a "non-responder" HELP!
I've tried rolling 3 times now and have never felt any of the supposed effects. I took FIVE double stacked blue dolphins...felt nothing. Some other chick took 4 of the exact same pill from the same dealer and was rolling balls. This dealer probably unloaded 30 pills that night, and everyone seemed to really enjoy them. I snorted one then parachuted another to start, but felt nothing after 60-90 minutes. I snorted half of another and waited...no effect. Then ate one, still nothing. So I parachuted another roll and puked 30 minutes of so after that. Still not feeling any euphoric/enjoyable intense effects, i then cut yet ANOTHER one in half and snorted half and ate half. All 5 were consumed in under 5 hours. I drank lots of orange juice beforehand and during. I also ate a decent meal beforehand on all 3 occasions I've tried rolling. I am NOT on any antidepressants or any other prescription medications. After doing those 5 i decided to buy 3 different rolls from another guy there who was selling because I was positive I had been ripped off. Popped all 3 of those on a separate occasion, NOTHING!!!!!!!! (he was rolling balls off them himself the night i bought them, he said he had taken 3)
I will now attempt to describe what I DID feel (on 5 blue dolphins): I felt like my mind and mental function, as well as motor skills, were 100% intact. No "waves of euphoria" whatsoever...no feelings of attachment or bonding either. I felt really energetic and awake (most likely cut with caffeine or something) throughout most of the night. No abnormal or abstract thoughts, no visual effects, and no social effects (didn't make me yap like an idiot or become really quiet...just stayed normal).
I've only tried 3 different kinds of rolls (blue transformers and US state shaped ones in addition to the blue dolphins), but all 3 produced no "euphoric" or really desirable effects. However, I wasn't tired until about 6 or 7am and I started at around 8 or 9pm, but then when I WAS tired as hell, I couldn't sleep. All 3 times I have tried rolling I skipped a night of sleep.
NOW GET THIS: i got most of the side effects... lock-jaw like a mofo, got VERY cold (probably from taking so god damn much), and ground my teeth and kinda ripped up the inside of my cheeks. Also had to keep drinking water because my mouth got very dry very quickly. I've read a couple threads about "non-responders" and I'm really not sure what to think. If I still get the side-effects of MDMA but never feel ANY high sensation whatsoever, what does this mean? Anyone have any idea? Or please give suggestions to help me
Please help me roll, I've wasted over 150 dollars and never felt anything from it.