mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
tbh i found brimz fairly 'tough love' post in the opiate support thread extremely inspiring and it has helped me massiveley, all that about hes not gonna bitch and moan about his cluck, and just get it done. Simillalry i have found yours and sams advice on the matter very helpfull too shambles. Obviously im gonna completely dismiss Albis post, wtf good is that gonna do me, its all about belief im certain. Im finding it much easier physically this time, so far, that will lessen the misery of it all a bit.
Yeah i may well have some psychological wobbles, ive had them in the past, ive allways come through. I dont believe I'll be destroyed though i may well find it tough. The problem is gonna be whenever that old tormenting 'war inside my head' starts up again and wont let me have peace of mind, as it seems to intermittently be wanting to do as im loosing the mood boost and insulation bupe was giving me, is that its so easy to reach for more etiz, to blot all that shit out.
In summary, i can get off bupe, and it certainly wont destroy me, especially if i cheat and take etiz to keep my head. Getting off etiz later on is going to be far tougher. At this stage i dont know if I'll be able to do it at all, but one step at a time eh. I feel strong and positive this morning, probably because last nights etiz is still in my system but as it starts to wear off later in the day i may not be in such a good place.
Yeah i may well have some psychological wobbles, ive had them in the past, ive allways come through. I dont believe I'll be destroyed though i may well find it tough. The problem is gonna be whenever that old tormenting 'war inside my head' starts up again and wont let me have peace of mind, as it seems to intermittently be wanting to do as im loosing the mood boost and insulation bupe was giving me, is that its so easy to reach for more etiz, to blot all that shit out.
In summary, i can get off bupe, and it certainly wont destroy me, especially if i cheat and take etiz to keep my head. Getting off etiz later on is going to be far tougher. At this stage i dont know if I'll be able to do it at all, but one step at a time eh. I feel strong and positive this morning, probably because last nights etiz is still in my system but as it starts to wear off later in the day i may not be in such a good place.
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