Hey guys,
I'm a bit over 2 months in the LTC after taking a too large MDMA dose (first time in 4 years) combined with lots of alcohol (stupid me). Had a great night, but symptoms started 2 days later. Had relatively classic LTC symptoms. Started with a complete inability to concentrate, which sparked a huge panic attack, which developed LTC. First weeks I had severe anxiety, insomnia, heavy depersonalization, vertigo, slight depression and numbed emotions. Went to the doctor, got 10 tablets oxazepam which I only take when it's really bad. Now I fairly quickly (matter of days) completely read up on symptoms and realized this was a LTC. This meant that any obsession with permanent damage went away within 2 weeks. Now I feel recovery is slow but very noticeable compared to day 1. Symptoms are mostly gone except for the anxiety which still truly remains.
However, my question is, I have a strong personality, I know this is LTC, I talk to friends about it, and I know this is in my head, I know this will get better in time and I am determined. I'm living a healthy lifestyle and am quite athletic, runner going to the gym. In my head, in my mind I'm fine and accept my situation, but my body just fills with anxiety during the day, sometimes just a little, sometimes quite bad which makes my mind restless but rational. This remains unchanged for the past 4 weeks. And I wonder, why is that? I'm interested if other people had similar experiences, and how you went in the months after my current state. Cheers!