RainbowWarrior
Bluelighter
Hi fellow travellers on the cosmic journey 
Delighted to be here on bluelight (new to this site but long term member of various cannabis grow-forums)...
I'm a young (23) european student and have been consuming cannabis (mixed with tobaco) for 8 years daily, had my first expiriences with mushrooms at the age of 17-18 (but the first 4 times i dosed too little to have really psychedelic break throughs)
On my fith time with shrooms it than happened... i found a connection to this planet i hadn't known i have - i remember standing before a tree for at least an hour reflecting it's beauty and uniqueness and feeling vibrate the tree with life (i think some of you understand) and loosing completely this conceptual view of trees - for me now they aren't just "trees" they are explosions of the energy of life only to slow to be perceived as explosions by us humans
well it was definately a life changing expirience, but it was also very confusing - and of course i was curious to go further so over the past five years i have taken about 20 real trips on mushrooms - also had what most would call a bad trip (for me nothing is ever only "good" or only "bad"), also expirienced things like thinking i have died during the trip, and that my body was still out there in the nature while only my spirit is back home in the living room (really not that bad of a feeling, way worse is to think you are actually dying in this very moment)... but somehow all this affected my "real" life little - well it drastically changed my perception of the world, but my behaviours were the same as always - mostly (un)motivated by lazyness and adictive character...
Now atm i'm doing a year of studies abroad, after 2 months i was at a rave (didn't know before, just was invited to a party) it was incredible, the location was great, all the people there knew each other and were very positive... so i decided to finally try LSD this evening, i took one hit (liquid)... after about an hour i was already tripping, but rather slow - i remember thinking: well that's really just like a very mellow shroom trip... so i shared a drink with 2 friends, asuming there was another hit in there for each of us (only the day after i was told, that the guy dosing was already tripping pretty hard so possibly dosed higher than he wanted to)
and that was it, i ended with one of the strongest trips of my life (imagine i only knew 4 people of about 100 attending, and also only was learning the language for 1 year, and was 2000km from what i call home) i had a complete loss of ego and some very deep thoughts during the trip, also had some phases that would be considered a "bad trip" - at one point a girl deliberately tried to scare me - yeah you can figure she managed to do so (not very nice thing to do) But it was nevertheless a mostly positive trip and an incredible experience...
a few weeks later i was back home for christmas for a week, and brought some LSD with me to try for my GF, this time we took only 2 trips of the same acid for 3 persons (i was told it's are rather high dosed trips) but i was only tripping mildly most of the time - only painting and viewing art books got me really tripping this time... a rather normal but really pleasant trip...
Now to what i'm aiming at... i would consider myself to be more a spiritual than recreational user of psychedelics, but with all my trips on mushrooms i always had problems of really carrying all these wonderful insights into my daily life...
With the acid however it's different, the whole trip itself already seemed much clearer and more rational than with shrooms, but what astonishes me, is that it took me about 4 weeks to really understand that first intense lasd experience, and now that i have, some things have changed...
first off i quited smoking tabaco 4 days ago, i was sitting in my room at night smoking weed like i normally do and meditate in my own manner (not in any fixed position, it's more like mental games i play to get nearer to "the other point of view/the other side") when eventually i realised this is the very moment to finally make a difference - so i knew i would now stop smoking tabaco and start eating more sane...
like i mentioned earlier i always would have characterized me as an adictive character, my first drug was sugar - with that i started at about 5 or 6 years age, and did abuse it all my life until now, next was nicotine - smoked my first cigarette at the age of ten, really started smoking with 13, then two years of binge drinking, with 15 i discovered cannabis (i also was very adicted to sports... i would start doing one type of sports, very intensely like every free minute the day, most sports i quitted after a month or so, only skateboarding i did for a few years - and thats how i came to weed, i broke my leg badly and practically couldn't move for 2 months... that was horror for me but with weed i didn't care as much not be able to do anything), i pretty much smoke weed on a daily basis since then, only once stopped half a year when i got my driving license... so you get the picture...
well now this change that happened - of course i was doing this - but it's just to profound for my lazy ass... i don't have that much of a hard time not smoking tabaco - most of the time i'm just glad that this period is over now, and i also decided to eat more fruits and no more fast food... but somehow also my need for sugar has passed away, i don't have that feeling anymore i always got when eating something sweet (like: MOOOOORE) and now the weirdest part:
also i have ever been very sexual active, i would have said sex adict (most of the time even 2 times per day were not enough - when masturbating more like 5-10 times a day) but ever since this night i have not masturbated (my gf is 2000 km away
) and i feel absolutly no desire to do so at any moment... this is very strange to me - don't get me wrong, these days i feel freeer (more free? sorry english as a second language) than ever, also i have this profound happyness i took with me from the last trip...
but my point is: the trip changed me more than i actively participated, that's great if it goes in the positive direction but terrible if it goes in the negative/fear/paranoid direction... what are your experiences? have you had control over every change the psychedelics/experiences did to you in the long term?
well that's it for now thanks for reading...
greetings from an every hour less confused and more awake RainbowWarrior
Delighted to be here on bluelight (new to this site but long term member of various cannabis grow-forums)...
I'm a young (23) european student and have been consuming cannabis (mixed with tobaco) for 8 years daily, had my first expiriences with mushrooms at the age of 17-18 (but the first 4 times i dosed too little to have really psychedelic break throughs)
On my fith time with shrooms it than happened... i found a connection to this planet i hadn't known i have - i remember standing before a tree for at least an hour reflecting it's beauty and uniqueness and feeling vibrate the tree with life (i think some of you understand) and loosing completely this conceptual view of trees - for me now they aren't just "trees" they are explosions of the energy of life only to slow to be perceived as explosions by us humans
well it was definately a life changing expirience, but it was also very confusing - and of course i was curious to go further
so over the past five years i have taken about 20 real trips on mushrooms - also had what most would call a bad trip (for me nothing is ever only "good" or only "bad"), also expirienced things like thinking i have died during the trip, and that my body was still out there in the nature while only my spirit is back home in the living room (really not that bad of a feeling, way worse is to think you are actually dying in this very moment)... but somehow all this affected my "real" life little - well it drastically changed my perception of the world, but my behaviours were the same as always - mostly (un)motivated by lazyness and adictive character...Now atm i'm doing a year of studies abroad, after 2 months i was at a rave (didn't know before, just was invited to a party) it was incredible, the location was great, all the people there knew each other and were very positive... so i decided to finally try LSD this evening, i took one hit (liquid)... after about an hour i was already tripping, but rather slow - i remember thinking: well that's really just like a very mellow shroom trip... so i shared a drink with 2 friends, asuming there was another hit in there for each of us (only the day after i was told, that the guy dosing was already tripping pretty hard so possibly dosed higher than he wanted to)
and that was it, i ended with one of the strongest trips of my life (imagine i only knew 4 people of about 100 attending, and also only was learning the language for 1 year, and was 2000km from what i call home) i had a complete loss of ego and some very deep thoughts during the trip, also had some phases that would be considered a "bad trip" - at one point a girl deliberately tried to scare me - yeah you can figure she managed to do so
(not very nice thing to do) But it was nevertheless a mostly positive trip and an incredible experience...a few weeks later i was back home for christmas for a week, and brought some LSD with me to try for my GF, this time we took only 2 trips of the same acid for 3 persons (i was told it's are rather high dosed trips) but i was only tripping mildly most of the time - only painting and viewing art books got me really tripping this time... a rather normal but really pleasant trip...
Now to what i'm aiming at... i would consider myself to be more a spiritual than recreational user of psychedelics, but with all my trips on mushrooms i always had problems of really carrying all these wonderful insights into my daily life...
With the acid however it's different, the whole trip itself already seemed much clearer and more rational than with shrooms, but what astonishes me, is that it took me about 4 weeks to really understand that first intense lasd experience, and now that i have, some things have changed...
first off i quited smoking tabaco 4 days ago, i was sitting in my room at night smoking weed like i normally do and meditate in my own manner (not in any fixed position, it's more like mental games i play to get nearer to "the other point of view/the other side") when eventually i realised this is the very moment to finally make a difference - so i knew i would now stop smoking tabaco and start eating more sane...
like i mentioned earlier i always would have characterized me as an adictive character, my first drug was sugar - with that i started at about 5 or 6 years age, and did abuse it all my life until now, next was nicotine - smoked my first cigarette at the age of ten, really started smoking with 13, then two years of binge drinking, with 15 i discovered cannabis (i also was very adicted to sports... i would start doing one type of sports, very intensely like every free minute the day, most sports i quitted after a month or so, only skateboarding i did for a few years - and thats how i came to weed, i broke my leg badly and practically couldn't move for 2 months... that was horror for me but with weed i didn't care as much not be able to do anything), i pretty much smoke weed on a daily basis since then, only once stopped half a year when i got my driving license... so you get the picture...
well now this change that happened - of course i was doing this - but it's just to profound for my lazy ass... i don't have that much of a hard time not smoking tabaco - most of the time i'm just glad that this period is over now, and i also decided to eat more fruits and no more fast food... but somehow also my need for sugar has passed away, i don't have that feeling anymore i always got when eating something sweet (like: MOOOOORE) and now the weirdest part:
also i have ever been very sexual active, i would have said sex adict (most of the time even 2 times per day were not enough - when masturbating more like 5-10 times a day) but ever since this night i have not masturbated (my gf is 2000 km away
) and i feel absolutly no desire to do so at any moment... this is very strange to me - don't get me wrong, these days i feel freeer (more free? sorry english as a second language) than ever, also i have this profound happyness i took with me from the last trip...but my point is: the trip changed me more than i actively participated, that's great if it goes in the positive direction but terrible if it goes in the negative/fear/paranoid direction... what are your experiences? have you had control over every change the psychedelics/experiences did to you in the long term?
well that's it for now
thanks for reading...greetings from an every hour less confused and more awake RainbowWarrior
