Where in my post do I say I'm addicted to heroin or oxy? Your whole rant is making assumptions since it reeks of anti drug crap. Most people use the stuff to get high while I never used h to get high, more like a way to relax slightly much like using a few drinks to relax so kept doses low and spaced out to a few times a month ONE AND A HALF YEARS AGO. Does that say anything?
This might surprise you but not everyone enjoys h so much they lose all self control. It was about as enjoyable as a benzo buzz. And I've got heaps of benzos yet only used them once every few months when needed.
God it's so irritating you make me out to be so weak willed.
I've got 1 script for oxy so I'm using it to see if I can get high off of it and want it off the bucketlist.
Quit acting like I use this shit everyday and can't stay away from it.
As I said: in due time, there is almost no escaping opiates. Opiates play a very long game, and they are patient. They don't force you to do anything, they're just so amazing chemically that you cannot resist, sooner or later. And see there: one and a half years for you, and you're back to taking oxys.
But you're clearly psychologically addicted(at least addicted to the idea of the high), or you wouldn't want to try again when it makes you vomit and feel bad.
Your words don't matter that much as does how you say what.
As I also said: I'm not trying to make you stop. Well I'm trying to be trying, but it's so hard with you opiate people.
You never listen, and 5 years later you cry your eyes out because no one made you stop.
Please mark my words and look at your situation in 5 years, if you continue doing this (even if it's only on the weekend at first)
Sure you still have a semblance of free will after chipping opiates for a while, but it's going to decrease more and more.
All of this is "if you do not stop", I think you didn't really get that.
I'm not talking about you now, I'm talking about when the opiates have their claws in you.
Do you not understand basic chemistry? Should I explain the mu opioid receptor thing to you?
Opiates make it like
instinct to take more opiates after a time. Your personal strength and feelings don't matter much, that is a chemical process within your body, and you don't have a say in it.
There's no way to "will" yourself out of an opiate addiction and still be taking opiates, it's a purely chemical rearrangement of yourself that puts opiates on the #1 of your priority list, and your body unable to deal with body-own opiates.
I mean, have fun for the next few years, but you're going to fucking regret it if you continue, I
promise you.
I work wth addicts, I know this fucking game, and no matter how "strong" you think you are, the opiates are stronger.
edit: And yes, I
am anti-drug. Drugs have fucked up everything around me, my grandma died because of opiates before i ever got to know her, it killed 2 very good friends of mine, the 3rd might follow soon, we're just waiting for the news.. psychedelics almost killed me a bunch of times. Robbed a shitload of friends of mine of the opportunity to do anything with their lives. I'm 9 years clean of anything but weed now.