fairnymph
Ex-Bluelighter
The intense emotions, increased libido/sexuality, feeling more sensitive in terms of all the senses, really. Oh, and I love seeing my normal big changeable pupils again. Can’t stand miosis.Which ones?
The intense emotions, increased libido/sexuality, feeling more sensitive in terms of all the senses, really. Oh, and I love seeing my normal big changeable pupils again. Can’t stand miosis.Which ones?
The intense emotions, increased libido/sexuality, feeling more sensitive in terms of all the senses, really.
Put the fire in me!!!!!Damn. You're built different.
I hate the emotions and the sensitivity. I feel mentally and physically vulnerable, like a plucked chicken surrounded by wolves.
The libido bits OK, though LOL. It gives you something to do when you're awake all night![]()
Yeah, I’ve never found any downers at all recreational and in fact, I generally hate them and often find them actively dysphoric. Unfortunately, I’ve had to use them for most of my life for pain. I do think I’ve gained some stoicism from my time on opiates which I can appreciate, but I really miss the intensity & breadth of my sober emotions. Drugs have never been escapist for me.Damn. You're built different.
I hate the emotions and the sensitivity. I feel mentally and physically vulnerable, like a plucked chicken surrounded by wolves.
The libido bits OK, though LOL. It gives you something to do when you're awake all night![]()
Yeah, I’ve never found any downers at all recreational and in fact, I generally hate them and often find them actively dysphoric. Unfortunately, I’ve had to use them for most of my life for pain. I do think I gained some stoicism from my time on opiates which I can appreciate, but I really miss the intensity & breadth of my sober emotions. Drugs have never been escapist for me.
It’s actually very logical because anyone who doesn’t like sedation is naturally going to go for the least sedating, most effective and long lasting opiates, and anyone intelligent will also go for the least toxic. Valium is also arguably the best benzo and certainly the most versatile. I have a lot of spasticity as well as extreme muscle tension, and fortunately I don’t get any real side-effects from it. I even sleep better on it - and less, because the sleep that I get on it is so much better quality. Without diazepam, regardless of whether I’m on opiates or not, I sleep excessively and & am even more fatigued than I am on opiates alone. But I do really miss dreaming!It's spooky that your 'choice' of medication and attitued towards the need for meication so closely aligns with my eown I HAVE to take clbazam every day or suffesr seizures. But now I panic when the parmacy messes up your prescrition. It seems obvious that doctors are taught that pain isn't neccicarily a sign of a fatal illlnes or injury. So in there minds, THEY could deal with pain without drugs. Because none of them have experienced DECADES of pain. I bet the few who do suffer DO take analgesics.
Pain does indeed bring out the Stoic. Mecication may help, but pain medication is just an attempt to provide symptomatic treatment.
I rackon there are billions of healthy people who are more unhappy than me. Perspective being what it is.
Sounds a bit like my own experience. I took nearly a gram of diazepam myself in an attempt to overdose, amongst a lot of other things.Diazepam (Valium™) is also the SAFEST benzodiazipine. There was a famous story of a compounding pharmacist who developed clinical depression. One day they decided to end it all and too a whole GRAM of diazepam. They woke up in hospital a week later. There are other cases where people have survived multiple grams. The ONLY argument is that it may not be the most abusable - good if you are a doctor, bad if your sell drugs on-line.
Benzos aren't as dangerous as other sedatives in overdoses, but if they are combined with opioids or anything else, the effect can synergize and easily cause an overdose.
Yup. It’s so much safer and with so few side-effects compared to other benzos. It really does make sense why it’s more expensive on the black market and so much harder to find versus other benzos. It’s so useful, so versatile.Diazepam (Valium™) is also the SAFEST benzodiazipine. There was a famous story of a compounding pharmacist who developed clinical depression. One day they decided to end it all and too a whole GRAM of diazepam. They woke up in hospital a week later. There are other cases where people have survived multiple grams. The ONLY argument is that it may not be the most abusable - good if you are a doctor, bad if your sell drugs on-line.
It's true - as long as you figure out how to manage on your own, you get no help. I've been on crutches for 25+ years BUT I manage. It seems like the prize for coping is being given LESS support.
I am reminded of the Boethius quoteL
'It is my belief that life is a wheel. "Rise up on my spokes if you like" says the wheel, "but don't complain when you're cast back down into the depths". Good times pass away, but then so do the bad. Mutability is our tragedy, but it's also our hope. The worst of times, like the best, are always passing away.'
So the fact you appear to understand Boethius and furthermore, are able to employ the philosopy as a way to find and enjoy happines is a lesson for us all.
You take good care of yourself, OK? I want to hear that your live is getting better each day. I am one who is able to enjoy vicarious happiness via my friends. However bad I feel, if I help someone, I figure I'm doing something to make this planed a bit nicer.
PS I KNOW I don'r need to say this, but do take care with strong pain killers. I've lost people to that stuff and don't want to attend another funeral!
Man, i have not seen any indications of fentanyl hitting australia yet... It is still the same china white untouched for me as it always has been..
Damn i would def like to try fentanyl though.... why don't they just cut heroin with a little bit of fentanyl to increase its strength!?
Are you in Germany?In my experience, Methadone is one of the best opioids. Here’s why:
- Long-acting: It provides relief for an extended period.
- Strong euphoria: Especially Levomethadone/Polamidol.
- Oral consumption: You can take it orally, which is convenient.
I’ve only consumed opioids orally or by building lines. I’ve never smoked them due to their very short duration, and I would never put a shot in my veins. I won’t judge others who do, but I just can’t. Just imagine what your parents, friends, or partner would think if they saw that...
My absolute favorite is Tilidine. It has the strongest cognitive euphoria by far. It’s even illegal in the US, Asia, etc., because of its heavy abuse potential. This is because it’s not just a μ-opioid receptor agonist; it’s also a dopamine reuptake inhibitor (as far as I know, the only opioid that also acts as a dopamine reuptake inhibitor) and an NMDA receptor agonist.
- Effects: Very sedating and insanely euphoric.
Stay Safe, Mana0909
But it’s all full of nitazenes. That’s why I have to get stuff from Canada at $125/g.Are you in Germany?
You sound just like the user Hexenstahl who seems to have disappeared.
Lived in Germany, was on Levomethadone, favorite opioid was tillidine....
I haven't heard from her since April of 2024 though, but the coincidences are striking. lol
Makes me wonder. You should track her down for me.I need to know if she's okay.
As for the topic at hand, you Europeans are lucky. Decent heroin goes for less than 50 bucks a gram over there. But in the US, the dealers are taking advantage of the fentanyl problem & charging ridiculous prices like close to $200 a gram for fent-free heroin. Fucking INSANE!!!!! I will never get to enjoy heroin again at this rate.
The cheapest shit I've been able to find is India imported Tapentadol.But it’s all full of nitazenes. That’s why I have to get stuff from Canada at $125/g.
I hate tapentadol. I also hate tramadol, but have known plenty of people who enjoy it.The cheapest shit I've been able to find is India imported Tapentadol.
And tapentadol sucks. Absolutely zero euphoria, mild pain relief, very short lasting.
Everywhere online claimed tapentadol was superior to tramadol, but I've reached heroin-levels of euphoria & relaxation with tramadol. Can't say the same for tapentadol.
$125 ain't too bad, assuming it's not cut all to hell. Hook a brother up! lol
A lot of people & doctors are idiots & think "potency" = stronger/better effects. Even I thought this way for the longest time. But it's not true.Both tepentadol and tramadol share the dubious honour of having been marketed as being less addictive. I presume that is because both are quite weak opioids but act on extracellular monoamine levels which is supposed to provide part of the analgesia.
IN the UK doctors were initially very keen to prescribe tramadol - then there was a spate of accidental overdoses. People who were convertsent with the effects of codeine noted that at low doses, the two drugs were quite similar and presumed that a high dose would therefore be the same. For a lot of people, it was the last mistake thay ever made. So now doctors have hastely decided that co-codamol 30/500 is the safer option. Addiction considered a lesser issue than deaths.
Tapentadol is hardly ever prescribed as far as I know. Certainly it became a class A controlled drug beefore it was even prescribable. So no surprise that doctors saw no advantage over morphine or oxycodone - medications they have decades of experience in prescribing.
I literally was just talking about tramadol & tapentadol & then you come in and start talking about both & how doctors treat both in the UK.I don't quite know why you felt the need to quote me - I didn't mention any of the topics you covered.
The term 'potent' refers to the ANALGESIC activity of a given opioid - not it's abuse potential.