just go with the flow
ive been steadily single for 10 years now and i have not 1 complaint about it after being in a series of back to back to back long term relationships from 17 until i was about 38
and every single one of those relationships, i was drawing up plans for a way out - never fully happy
and now im too old to even wanna do any of that again and im more than happy just focusing my attention on my kid and myself - my kid also doesn't have to witness me bickering with a partner which is a plus - but is my resistance to relationships setting her up for the same as she doesn't get to see that whole dynamic? i guess we'll see....
anyway - so i might be who i am in my head because of my unique situation - if i didn't have a kid all to myself, would i have a partner? that's a good question
probably not tho
all i can tell you is that overall, im very happy with my situation and i have no complaints about being single and ive had zero plans to want to even have a relationship in at least 10 years