feralkitten
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 5, 2013
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Hi everyone. I'm a 32 year old (in fact today is my birthday) recovering alcoholic (a year and a half off alcohol) and former tramadol addict (quit 5 years ago).
Unfortunately I managed to get myself addicted to kratom. I knew the risks of addiction, I've studied with some really cool herbalists and botanists over the years and I'd been aware of it for some time, and about a year ago I was diagnosed with lyme disease and was having terrible arthritis pain in my knees and rather than take the tramadol i was prescribed (smart move) I decided to try kratom instead (even though the recovering addict in my head was like "you sure that's a good idea?"). Anyway, I got pretty out of control with it, went through withdrawal a few times due to lack of funds but always went back. But I miss being sober and I know that's the only way I'll get where I want in life.
I am 2 weeks into my taper and it's going very well and I feel like I am very close to my jumping off point. I don't expect it to be painless, but I know sobriety is worth it.
I work sort of a dead end job now in a crappy suburb, but I would like to eventually move to a rural permaculture geared community and practice hypnotherapy (I've already been trained) and continue to make art and just live a more fun and joyful life. I lived in a community like that a few years ago and it was the most at home I ever felt. It's my main goal right now along with getting sober.
Unfortunately I managed to get myself addicted to kratom. I knew the risks of addiction, I've studied with some really cool herbalists and botanists over the years and I'd been aware of it for some time, and about a year ago I was diagnosed with lyme disease and was having terrible arthritis pain in my knees and rather than take the tramadol i was prescribed (smart move) I decided to try kratom instead (even though the recovering addict in my head was like "you sure that's a good idea?"). Anyway, I got pretty out of control with it, went through withdrawal a few times due to lack of funds but always went back. But I miss being sober and I know that's the only way I'll get where I want in life.
I am 2 weeks into my taper and it's going very well and I feel like I am very close to my jumping off point. I don't expect it to be painless, but I know sobriety is worth it.
I work sort of a dead end job now in a crappy suburb, but I would like to eventually move to a rural permaculture geared community and practice hypnotherapy (I've already been trained) and continue to make art and just live a more fun and joyful life. I lived in a community like that a few years ago and it was the most at home I ever felt. It's my main goal right now along with getting sober.